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Chapter thirty eight: Phone call

Evan packed up his last bag and my heart sunk, seeing his belongings put away and a suitcase full to the brim just made my whole body hurt. I didn't want him to leave.

Ember grabbed onto his waist and sobbed lightly which made his t shirt wet. "Oh Ember please don't cry" he said sadly. He then crouched in-front of her and cupped her chubby cheeks. "Daddy will be back soon I promise" he then kissed her forehead and brushed a strand of her golden hair behind her ear.

"I'm going to miss you" she cried more whilst her nose pinked in colour. "Can I come with you please?"

Evan darted a look towards me and then to Ember "I'm sorry baby but I've got to get back home. I've got to work. When I'm all sorted then you can both come stay for as long as you like"

Ember frowned and shook her head "but what if you decide it's better without us?"

Evan wiped away her tear stricken cheeks and smiled "life is not worth living without you two in my life. You hear me? Now stop crying because you're a big girl aren't you"

Ember nodded weakly "I'm not a baby"

Evan grinned "that's my girl now go hug mommy as she looks like she is going to cry too"

Ember ran over to me with her arms outstretched; instantly I picked her up and snuggled her head into the crook of my neck. "It's going to be okay Ember. Daddy isn't leaving forever" I reassured

Evan grabbed my hand and kissed it softly "it will fly by. I promise you"

I tried to believe that but it felt like the next four weeks would drag if anything. Call me selfish but I wanted to keep him here with me. "You better text me everyday" I warned with my finger pressed against his chest.

"Oh baby you're going to hate my needy texts" he chuckled in response which made me laugh back.

"Right.. I need to leave now my cab is here" Evan trailed off and I could hear the reluctance of his words. This certified for me that he was going to come back. "I am going to miss you both so so much"

Evan pulled both of us into a tight hug before kissing me softly and pressing his forehead against mine. "I want daily Ember photos too. Even the ugly ones" he joked with a wink

Ember gave him a glare "I'm not ugly daddy!"

He raised his hand in the air "you're totally right. You're the cutest kid I've ever seen. After all have you seen.. me?"

Swatting his chest playfully Evan waved goodbye before exiting the apartment. He said we could stay here until he got somewhere more permanent which was lovely of him as it was a beautiful, big apartment that I had to admit became my safe place.

Putting Ember on the floor I went to the kitchen to make us some lunch. "Tell me baby what are you wanting to eat?"

Ember jumped up and down "chocolate!"

I grumbled and pushed back the frying pan "pretty please mommy. I'm sad"

Rolling my eyes I grabbed some chocolate from the cupboard and handed it to her "on the condition that you eat all of your dinner"

Ember nodded and went and sat down on the couch. She put on her favourite tv show and seemed to be really enjoying herself. Sad my arse.

Sighing I went to the empty bedroom and felt tears prick at my eyes "I miss you already you idiot" I said to myself bleakly. How was I meant to wait four weeks. I wanted to grab a flight right now to Los Angeles.

**2 days later

Hazily I woke up to my phone ringing, instantly I grabbed it and heard a tearful and panicked Evan.

Sitting up I started to feel a lump burn in my throat, what was going on?

"Maeve please- please don't open your phone" he cried excessively "it's not true, please believe me it's been twisted"

Frowning I got up from my bed and began to pace up and down "Evan tell me what's happened"

Evan swallowed saliva thickly from what I could hear over the phone as an uncomfortable silence passed. "There is a photo.. of me and Emma"

I squeezed my eyes closed as my heart broke into a million pieces. "Evan don't tell me you kissed her. Please don't be breaking my heart like this" I sobbed

"She- she kissed me and there was paparazzi. I swear it was all planned she is a cunning bitch-

"Evan I can't do this" I admitted sadly "it's been two days and you're already kissing some other girl. Am I really not that good enough for you?"

"No! Please never think that- baby please don't"

I decided to view a link sent to me by an anonymous number and when I did I felt the world crumble around me. Evan's hands were wrapped around Emma's waist as she cupped his cheeks and was kissing him passionately. That doesn't seem like a mistake to me.

"You know what Evan. Go and fuck yourself. You are such a piece of shit" I bellowed as I hung up the phone and threw it across the floor.

I then slid to the floor with my knee's cradled into my chest. How could he hurt me this badly. Just when I thought we were doing good and nothing could break us.

Fuck all of this. I am truly done and heartbroken.

"Mommy.. what's wrong?" Ember sniffled as she crept into my room.

"Nothing Em, mommy just needs some space right now" I whispered, my throat was already burning from the excessive crying episode so talking hurt.

"This is to do with daddy isn't it?" She asked quietly but I could already see tears forming in her eyes. "I knew it was too good to be true"

I shook my head and pulled her into me "baby no matter what happens with me and your dad it doesn't mean you don't get to see him. Okay?"

She nodded but cried into my chest "b-but I want a family"