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Chapter twenty six: Sober or not

Evan POV

It hurt, it hurt me deeply that Maeve didn't want to be with me anymore. I know that I am going away soon but surely when you love someone you'd be willing to try anything.

I didn't want to dampen the mood of the holiday so I tried to stay my jolly self; we only had a few days left until we would be going back home so I focused on staying happy.

"What's the matter?" Henry asked coyly as he sipped his beer.

"Nothing man, the drink seems to already be getting into my system" I admitted jokingly "sorry I'm not a champion drinker like yourself"

Henry nodded but I could tell he wasn't fully convinced. Looking up I saw Maeve dancing to the music playing through the loud speakers; her hair was whipping around her and she looked so damn good. Drunk or not; I loved this woman with my whole heart.

"Hey you losers why are you both moping over here" she pouted with puppy dog eyes. "You should be dancing with meee"

Henry chuckled "I'm fine sitting here but you're great entertainment"

Maeve crossed her arms "one of you needs to come dance with me right now"

Finding her demanding rather cute I got off my chair and let her guide me to the dance floor. Instantly she began to sway her hips in multiple directions which made me break out into a wide grin.

"You're not too bad" I told her which she replied by smiling ear to ear "I would say the same but you're being a statue"

Pointing upwards and downwards she ushered for me to dance which I reluctantly did; though I was not the best dancer at all.

Little lies by Fleetwood Mac came on which made Maeve squeal like a little girl "oh my goodness! I love this song"

Rocking her hips she put her hands in the air and started dancing around me "come on Evan, I know you have it in you"

Sighing I gave in and began dancing with more effort-the best I could; Maeve wrapped her arms around my neck and we danced together in sync with the enjoyment of the music playing in the background.

"Tell me lies" she sung loudly with the upmost energy I've seen from her

"Tell me sweet little lies" I sung back with a chuckle.

Maeve nestled her head into the crook of my neck and breathed heavily "I want to ask you something"

Gulping saliva I looked up at her "what is it?"

I saw a blush spread across her cheeks and she toyed with her thumbs "I lied. I do love you and I'm sorry for lying"

Grabbing her waist I pulled her closer to me "I knew you were lying you little shit"

She giggled and still danced with me in sync with my hands now tracing up her hips. "You know even if we don't end up being together I still want you to be my first"

Blushing I pulled my head away slightly "what are you saying?"

"I'm saying Evan that you're the sort of person I've wanted my entire life. Your first time is meant to be special and I know you'll make it special for me.."

Blinking a few times to try regain my composure I nibbled down on my lower lip "you're drunk. You shouldn't be saying this"

Maeve frowned "I'm not even drunk... I'm tipsy. I'm being honest Evan"

She then pulled my face closer and kissed me passionately with her fingers tangling into my hair. With no hesitation I kissed back hungrily and ignored the slight pain on my scalp from her excessive pulling.

"I appreciate the honesty" I breathed as I pressed my forehead against hers. "But when you're sober"

Maeve frowned "I don't think I'll ever have the courage to say whilst sober"

I chuckled "then looks like that we wont be doing.. that I am a gentleman-

Maeve kissed me again but this time it was different; it was full of explosive passion that made my heart swell. Her tongue asked for entrance which I allowed so we were now battling for dominance.

Pulling away I smiled at her "I think you're kind of drunk"

Maeve hiccuped and shook her head "never I am never drunk"

Rolling my eyes I raised my eyebrows "well I'm gonna go get myself some more drinks to get on the same level as you are and make sure Henry isn't dying off pure boredom"

Maeve pouted "don't leave, I'm having fun-

"I'll be right back" I reassured

Maeve POV

Nothing else mattered as I enjoyed my own little bubble; dancing around like an idiot and enjoying every last second. Though my heart was pained that Evan would never be my boyfriend again. It was my own stubborn fault but I was only protecting myself from the inevitable.

Hours passed like minutes and before I knew it Evan was more drunk than me; his hair was sprawled in multiple positions and his cheeks were flushed. I loved his drunken little face.

Even Henry was dancing with us now in his own intoxication; if that man said he wasn't hungover tomorrow I would throw a fit.

"I want a kebab" Henry said with a drunken slur

"I'm totally up for that" I said enthusiastically "I'm starving"

Evan nodded in agreement "kebab it is because boy do I need some food"

Henry fist pumped the air in approval "to the kebab shop it is"

Almost toppling over we called a cab and went to the nearest kebab place; which wasn't too far away apparently but I wouldn't of trusted myself to walk in these heels.

"When you become sober will you take it back again?" Evan asked with a saddened look "the whole I love you thing"

Running a hand through my hair I shook my head "I don't take it back and I won't this time.. I genuinely do love you I just wish we could work out"

**

"I'm gonna puke-" Henry said with a disgruntled expression.

He quickly ran out the cottage and threw up all over the grass which made me and Evan laugh amongst each other. "That's what he gets for saying he can handle his drink" I muttered in Evan's ear.

Evan nodded "he got a taste of his own medicine"

Henry was a big mess; he has puke on his mouth and he looked like utter shit so me and Evan helped him get into bed and clean his face. "Sleep well, don't let Nessie bite" I sung in his ear which made him flinch.

Exiting Henry's room I sat on the sofa and watched the fireplace crackle and burn; the smell of cinnamon and birch making me rest my head back in utter bliss.

"How you feeling?" Evan asked softly as he sat beside me "have you sobered up at all?"

I shrugged "kind of, but not sober" I grinned "why are you taking me up on my offer?"

Evan gulped "n-no I wasn't" though I could sense some hesitation from him.

"It's not that I don't want to, I just don't want you to be drunk out of your face and regret it. It's a big decision"

I found his worrying adorable but I couldn't care whether I was sober or not; I didn't know when I would see him again once he is in Los Angeles and I didn't want my first time to go to some loser.

"Evan.. I choose you" I said softly

I crept up closer to him and kissed him on the lips gently "I choose you and I don't care if you think I'll regret it. Because I won't"

Evan relaxed into me and began to kiss me back; his hand resting at the back of my head to push me in closer. "Then I suggest you get your pretty little ass into your bedroom"

Swallowing thickly I rushed over in a fit of laughs where Evan followed suit, smiles spread across our cheeks and for some reason it didn't feel awkward at all.

Evan traced his fingers over my thighs and to the hem of my dress which made me shudder "may I undress you?"

I nodded and let him take my dress off, leaving me in my tights and bra. "Now may I undress you?" I shot back with a tedious grin.

"Of course you can" he teased back, helping me to his buckle which I happily undone.

He then took off my tights so I was just in my underwear; the same applied to him as his bare chest showed itself to me in all its glory. "You're gorgeous" I muttered as I ran my hand upwards.

Evan blushed "you are too.."

Our lips met again in a dominant kiss and it took my breath away. All the pent up emotions and arousal that we had been keeping at bay was suddenly unfolding and it was almost too much to bare.

Shocked I arched my back as Evan began to rub my lower region through my panties; my panties instantly becoming soaked which seemed to make Evan pleased by his lip biting. In response I began to stroke his length through his boxers; feeling him up completely which sent nerves up my spine. I didn't want this to hurt.

"I won't hurt you" Evan reassured as if reading my mind "if at any point I do then please.. tell me"

He pushed my panties to the side and inserted a finger and then another to get me used to the sensation which made my belly fuel with pleasure. It felt amazing, like my body was on a high.

"Are you sure?" Evan asked before he took it any further which I respected.

Nodding I rested my head back with a smile "you're the only person I could ever imagine having sex with so I am more than sure"

Evan pulled down my panties and aligned himself with me; his growing pleasure throbbing against my core which made me moan from anticipation.

Mentally I still had my virginity, this is because of how it was taken from me against my will but I knew this time it was my choice alone. It was euphoric to have this powder, this mutual connection. When thinking about sex you want it to be special, loving and sensual and that's why it worried me so much. My first time was full of tears, pulling and kicking. But he didn't stop.

So whilst physically I wasn't a virgin I still am labelling this as my first time, which was difficult as I battled with my pent up trauma. There are many things you expect when having sex and one of those is the pain; will it hurt really bad and cause me to regret it. Or will I enjoy it and feel like a 'new' person after the whole ordeal. I wasn't sure what I should think but all I knew was I was about to lose my 'virginity' to Evan. My Evan Peters.

"You're crying?" Evan stated with sadness lathering his words "are you okay?" His thumb dragged across my cheek where a stray tear fell.

I nodded and pressed my lips together "I-it's just I'm nervous. The last time I was in this situation it was against my will"

Evan looked sombrely at me and very taken back "did he.. rape you?"

Swallowing thickly I nodded "y-yes and so I'm so scared of it hurting me"

Evan pushed himself away and grabbed my hands, squeezing them and rubbing his thumb across. "We don't have to do this. We can talk instead-

I shook my head "n-no Evan I want this. Please"

Evan kissed my hand and smiled into it "I'll be as careful as I can, I promise you" he then propped himself up and positioned him over the top of me again, his member near my entrance.

A slight pinching feeling sent an array of pleasure through me as I arched my back in response "oh fuck" I moaned into Evan's ear as he slowly began to go in and out of me.

"Is that okay?" He asked into my ear as he nipped at my lobe.

"Yes- it fees so good" I breathed which gave Evan reassurance to go faster inside of me, my tummy flipping with a buildup of pleasure. I felt like I would orgasm; not that I knew what that felt like but my whole body felt like it was floating.

"I love you. So much" Evan said to me as he kissed me on the lips. "And you'll always hold a place in my heart"

Blushing I kissed his cheek "and you'll always hold a place in my heart"

Evan continued his pace inside of me and the sound of slapping bodies erupted the room; my whole body was coaxed in pleasure and same with Evan from his growing moans.

I really hoped Henry was asleep.