Oh Fuck No!

A/NHey guys, ima try to update every weekend :) Anywhore, here's an update for you guys. hope you like it!---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Gerard's P.O.V

It was almost time for us to go on and people were flooding in. I honestly only expected about thirty people, but there must've been at least fifty. I was so nervous. I've performed in front of people before when I was in talent shows in elementary school, but this was our first gig! This is how we are going to start our careers. This gig depended on if we got more. I was so anxious. I was practically jumping up and down in front of the mic behind the curtains. Mikey was pacing back and forth, Frank had his eyes closed and was going over the chords and riffs in his head and mimicking them on the guitar, Bob was on his phone, Ray was talking to some girl, and the girls were somewhere in the front of the stage. Paisley was going to take pictures and Jessica was just going to record us. I could hear people talking and whispering and then I heard someone climb up on the stage. It was the bar manager. He tapped on a microphone to test it. My heart beat faster and faster inside of my chest with every moment that passed. "What's up you fuckers!" The manager yelled into the mic.There was a chorus of replies. I was so nervous, but excited at the same time. I went through the list of songs we were going to do. We've written a lot of them, but there's only enough time for us to do three of them. We chose to do Skylines and Turnstiles, Knives/Sorrow, and Cubicles. The manager continued talking. You can do this Gerard. Just breath.

No you can't.

Yes I can.

Nope.

Shutup brain!

I shook my head. I really need to see someone about this...

"My Chemical Romance!" The managers voice blared across the room.The music for Skylines and Turnstiles started playing and the curtain raised.Here we go...

"You're not in this alone

Let me break this awkward silence

Let me go, go on record

Be the first to say I'm sorryHear me out,

And if you take me down

Or would you lay me out

And if the world needs something better

Let's give them one more reason now, now, now

We walk in single fileWe light our rails and punch our timeRide escalators colder than a cell

[Chorus]This broken city sky like butane on my skinstolen from my eyesHello Angel, tell me where are youTell me where we go from here[x2]

Tell me we go from...

And in this moment we can't close the lids on burning eyes

Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors

Steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black

It reaches in and tears your flesh apart

As ice cold hands rip into your heart

That's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest

And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence

And if the world needs something better, let's give them one more reason now

[Chorus]This broken city sky like butane on my skinstolen from my eyesHello Angel, tell me where are youTell me where we go from here[x2]

Tell me we go from here"

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We finished Cubicles and there was a moment of silence through the crowd. I thought that we sucked, but then the room was filled with cheering. I felt...amazing. To know that all of these people actually like our music. We stepped off the stage. I hugged Paisley and we exchanged a few kisses. I saw Jessica run and jump on Frank, almost knocking him to the ground. I turned back to Paisley."Did you get any good pictures?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. She smiled big and nodded. I laughed and kissed her nose. She wiggled her nose and I thought it was the cutest thing ever."You are so adorable." I said.I saw her blushing and I couldn't help but kiss her passionately, wrapping my arms around her waist as she tangled her fingers in my hair.There was a coughing noise and I looked behind me to see Frank with his arms crossed."Really Geebear? I thought..."I rolled my eyes. "Frank, your great and all but, I think it's time we part ways." I looked at the ground."Do you mean that Gee?" He asked with his puppy dog eyes.I laughed and said,"Of course not. Without you I'm nothing babe." Frank smiled brightly and Jessica was giving Frank a weird look.Frank noticed and laughed, trying to explain it to her.

Jessica's P.O.V

"So. This whole thing is because some of your fans see you guys hang out a lot and they want you guys to be gay for each other?" I raised an eyebrow. Frank was trying to explain the whole Frerard situation. "Yep. So he's my Geebear." Frank laughed and I giggled. I missed Frank. We haven't seen each other in forever and I was starting to think he forgot about me or I would never see him again. He made me happy and I hade the biggest crush on him. I actually think I still do... I don't know. Maybe there is something between us? I hope he feels the same way about me, but I'm not sure. What if he already has a girlfriend? What if he only sees me as a best friend. I don't want things to be that way... Frank looked at me. I must've zoned out."What's wrong?" He asked with a look of concern on his face."Nothing." I mumbled.He gave me a 'you have got to be shitting me' look."Jessica I know you better than anyone and I know when your lying. Just tell me." He said.Damn. I couldn't tell him that I had a huge crush on him. He might not feel the same way I do. "I'm just not feeling well..." I said, hoping he would believe me. He looked at me for what seemed like forever and it took all I could do to not slam him against the wall."Okay." He hugged me and kissed my forehead which made me turn bright red. "I believe you." He smiled at me and I melted. As much as I wanted to tell him how I felt, I just couldn't. I sighed as Frank and Gerard went over to the rest if the guys to have a drink to celebrate. I walked over to Paisley."Hey." She greeted me with a huge smile. I smiled back."You know Frank likes you, right?" She said. I looked at her quizzically."Yeah, it's true. When we were making our way here, Frank wouldn't shut up about you." She told me and I almost died. I was major freaking out on the inside. Holy fuck! He fucking likes me?!?! I was so afraid to tell him...now maybe it's not such a bad idea.

Paisley's P.O.V

"Hey babe." Gerard slurred as he put his arm around me. He was obviously drunk and I could smell the strong alcohol on his breath. He was completely gone with the wind. "Your drunk." I told him, seriously. He looked at me smiling one minute and throwing up all over the floor the next. I rolled my eyes and grabbed his arm, trying to steady him as he wobbled and murmured things I couldn't hear. "God Gee. I thought you were better than this." I said to him. We were almost to the car and he stopped me from walking. He was looking at the ground."I'm sorry." He seemed to sober up instantly. His voice was barely a whisper, but there was so much emotion in those two simple words."I'm so fucking sorry, Paisley. I just..." Gerard broke down crying and dropped to the ground against the outside of the bar. "Gerard...it's okay" I tried to calm him down.

"No it's not. I told you I would stop. I promised and I'm such a fucking screw up. I'm so stupid and ugly and I just...I don't deserve someone like you. Look at you, your strong, beautiful, independent, and I'm just a sorry ass drunk." He continued to cry as I sat next to him and rubbed his back."Gee. Look at me," I tilted his chin up to where he was looking at me. I could see the tears in his eyes. "Your not ugly. Your not stupid. Your amazing. I love you. I love the way your tongue sticks out when your drawing. I love the way you fix your hair to where it looks all messy. I love how you don't let anyone knock you down. I love it when you talk to me and feel comfortable enough to talk about anything. And when you smile, no matter how used to it I get, I melt every time. When you kiss me, heat courses through my body. Those beautiful hazel eyes, I can never stop looking at, hypnotize me. And I love every bit of it. In my eyes, your perfect. I love you so much. I love every piece of you and I always want to." I finished, with a tear rolling down my cheek. What I said to Gerard was how I truly felt and I'm glad I could say that.He stared at me in disbelief. Then, he crashed his lips to mine like it was the last thing he would do. It was gentle, heated and passionate. Our lips welcomed each other and we moved together as if we were possessed. Our lips seemed to mold perfectly together. I put my arms around his neck, he snaked his around my waist, allowing the heat to run through me. This is where I always wanted to be. In his arms, kissing him. The one I loved. "Really guys." Mikey came out of the bar. Me and Gerard both looked up at him and giggled."Can either you or Jessica drive us home?" He asked, running a hand through his hair. I nodded and me and Gerard got up to our feet. "Well, let's get going then." Mikey said, heading towards the car.

Mikey's P.O.V

We all piled up in the car. Since we were all under the influence, Paisley was driving us home. Jessica went home in her car, which we had to pry Frank out of because he wanted to go with her. I will admit though that it was fucking hilarious. Gerard sat in the front with Paisley. I sat by Frank, and Ray and Bob sat in the back. Ray was texting some girl he met before the show and Bob was sleeping. Frank was talking to Jessica on the phone and I, was looking up pictures of unicorns. Yes, unicorns. And don't you dare say they don't exist! UNICORNS DO EXIST YOU LITTLE FUCKER!!! Anyway, unicorns...I already had tons of pictures of them, but I thought I needed more so don't fucking judge me. I like that word. Fuck. Haha. Fuck, fucker, fucking, fuckle, fucked, fucks, fuckles. OH MY GOD. FUCKLEBERRY!!!!! Haha that should be a fruit. I laughed at myself. Paisley gave me a questionable look in the mirror and it only made me laugh even harder because when she gave that look to someone, she looked a little but like a monkey. I actually told her that once...I got slapped in the face with one of Gerard's chocolate chip pancakes...Since Paisley didn't want to drive all over the damn city, we decided everyone would just sleep over at our house. Besides, our parents were probably asleep anyway.

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Ray's P.O.V

"Alright, Gerard. Come on." Me and Paisley were stuck dragging Gerard upstairs to his bed. He puked when he tried to get out of the car and tried to go inside the house, but ran into a telephone pole, apologized to it, and passed out on the concrete. Then when we called for the others to help us with him, we found out, they were already sleeping on the couches and floors. So, here we are, dragging him up the stairs while occasionally tripping and dropping him. Honestly, it was kinda funny because every time we dropped him, he would start moaning. He must have been dreaming, but I don't know what the hell he must have been dreaming about to make those noises. Kinky sex maybe? Whatever it was, I was dying of laughter. We finally made it to the top of the stairs and turned to go into his room. I pushed open the door and let's just say the only thing you could see was his bed. His desk was covered in balls of paper and pencils, the floor had papers with various drawings everywhere, his walls had nothing but posters that covered every inch and his closet had empty pizza boxes and dishes just lying there. I could have sworn that something had died in there too because it smelt worse than a rats ass. Like no shit. I looked over at Paisley and her mouth dropped open."What's wrong Pays?" I asked. Well something was obviously wrong I mean seriously...his room was like high-en disgusting. There were tears forming in her eyes and I asked her again."Paisley. What's wrong?" Her lip quivered as she used her free hand and pointed to something under Gerard's bed. I squinted my eyes to get a better look and my eyes went wide. Oh fuck no! He did not!