Chapter 25

"Cheryl...is this true?" JB had asked, holding the paper right in front of me.

His brown eyes looked upset and I've done that to him. I tried not to breakdown or act the victim. Because I never cheated on JB and would never dream of it. In fact I've never cheated on anybody. They all just seemed to move on from me when I was still madly in love with them.

I looked back up at the paper. It was open to the article. I saw the headline again in bold, capital letters.

"Cheryl Cheatez-Versini. Has The Wifey Found A New Beau?"

I finally decided to speak."Look, Jean, that's not true. You know he tried to force himself on me!" "But it says that you looked very attracted to him.""Hang on man, gimme that!" I snatched the paper out of his hands.

To me, I didn't look very 'attracted' at all. Just terrified. "I was scared, JB! Scared! I don't look like I'm enjoying it one bit! This is why I say that you don't read the papers because it's full of bull****!" I protested, knowing I was right.

Why has my life turned into such total confusing hell that even my husband is taking me for a joke?

F*** this, I'm going to sleep.

I went upstairs, brushed my teeth, washed all my makeup off, changed into my pyjamas and jumped into bed, even thought it was only 7pm.

I am not dealing with this s*** now, I thought as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I am out. Buh-bye!

..........

"Cheryl?" I felt someone shaking the hell out of me, ugh, "Chezza, wake up!" I flipped onto the floor."Ow, what the f***?!" I snapped, looking up to see my little brother, Garry. "What was f*** was that for man?" "Sorry, Cheryl, Hilary told me to get you. We need to get to a meeting.""Ugh, what could it possibly be about now?" I rolled me eyes.

I can get pretty moody in the morning when someone wakes me up.

"Well, she said that JB and you are gonna move to Spain after X Factor and your album release?""France, you numpty, man! Yeah I am. I won't be too long, now get out." I shooed him away with a smirk to get up and get ready.

I groggily walked to my closet and some shoes ready for when I got out the shower. I let the running water wake me up ever so gradually. I then, brushed my hair, brushed my teeth and got dressed in a white turtleneck top, grey bootcut jeans and black ankle boots with a short, black leather jacket that I threw over my shoulders. I slid my diamond wedding & engagement ring on my finger, admiring the beauty as I did so nearly every morning. I then remembered what happened last night.

JB doesn't trust me anymore and he thinks I cheated on him.

How could I forget that?

I chucked on a chunky necklace to at least look a bit more decent, grabbed my sunglasses, my purse and my keys. As JB wasn't at bed and I didn't have time, let alone wanted to, to talk to him, I scribbled a quick note before running out the door.

Garry stood there laughing. "What?" "Nothing." He smirked, "Let's go."

We stepped into my car and we drove to the record company building for Polydor, which was my label. Garry being my PA, he peered up and down the street for any paps coming our way. For once, the coast was clear and we walked inside.

Lily, Sundraj, Hilary and Beth were standing there outside the meeting room. Each had a different expression to each other. Lily cheerful, Hilary was dead serious, Beth looked mad & Sundraj looked a bit sad.

"What's going on? What's with all the long faces?" I laughed."You're right about that, sis-" Garry slapped my back, laughing with me."Let's just get this over with." Beth said with a frown.

The six of us each took a seat at the table. I started tapping my fingers on the table in boredom."So, Cheryl, Jean told me that you and him will be moving to France after the album release and X Factor. Where exactly in France are you moving to?" Hilary asked."I don't know yet, Hilary. Probably near his restaurant I guess." I answered."Hmm...Are you gonna take a break, work there, go on holiday?""Well, he-we were thinking that we stay for a while. I dunno maybe a few months to a year." I shrugged."Okay. So did you and JB think you about having a break from the country or something?" Lily then asked."Yeah. He said I needed a break and we're gonna go to France." I nodded."Alright then. We will have to discuss this later once we get the album and all the music videos finished." Sundraj said."Alright. See ya. Bye." I exit the building and go home.

Well at least I have another day off after that weird little meeting I just had.

But Jean is pissed off at me right now.

Oh god.

I thought at one point he was the only person there for me and now he's like everyone else.

He just doesn't believe that I didn't cheat on him but Trent was surely trying to rape me or something.

Should I just not talk to him?

Or maybe I should go shopping for a bit?

I do need to get some groceries.

I literally haven't bought any groceries in three months.

It does sound silly but I normally like to stock up on everything every 1 to 4 months. Sometimes there were times when JB and I had enough to last 6 months straight. I'm not boasting or anything at all.

And I do do a lot of charity work, mind you! I do fundraising for quite a few charities and for my own charity called Cheryl's Trust set up by me and the Prince's Trust. It's basically to help young people from my neck of the woods you know.

But anyways!

I drive to the shopping centre and go on a full-on grocery shopping spree. I buy things from bread to milk to eggs to cake to fruit to vegetables, etc. etc. etc.

I got a few looks from people but I didn't mind. Everyone knew who I was anyway. There was no point stressing over it unless the paps stopped me from doing my own shopping.

I headed to Iceland, Tesco, Morrisons & Sainsbury's running like crazy.

The quicker I do this the quicker this will be over with and the less chance of being seen by the paps.

I was all done with shopping by 2pm and I quickly went to the car park to put my shopping away. I then ran back to the food court to get myself a foot long subway. I then went back to my car and drove home.

I was nervous as hell.

Cheryl, just calm the f*** down.

It will be okay.

He'll believe you in time.

Listen to what your mam says, "The truth will come out."

I kept telling myself it was okay and JB won't be mad. I thought that he will probably apologise for accusing me of cheating on him because I would never, in a million years, do that to him or anyone that I was in a committed relationship with.

As I pulled into my driveway, I took one last deep breath before getting out the car and going to unlock the door. I turned the key in the lock and it opened. I kicked the door open and started going back and forth from the boot of the car with carrier bags to the kitchen where I dumped them all on the counters and the floor.

I'll sort them out in a bit.

I then saw JB coming into the kitchen.

I guess I'm sorting the stuff out now.

I felt like I just had to avoid him. I couldn't even look at my husband anymore. I knew this, what I called, 'phase' would probably pass but my instincts were telling me not to engage with him.

"Cheryl? How was the meeting?" He asked."Fine." I muttered as I put the loaf of bread in the cupboard."It must've been pretty long then?" He tilted his head at me in confusion."No. I went shopping." I said through gritted teeth."Oh. Are you ok?"

He had the cheek to ask that when he was the one who made me upset. I quickly wiped the tear that spilled from my eye and sighed. Cheryl? Talk to me. Why are you acting like this?"

"For your information, I feel like complete s***! Okay?" I snapped."Why? Did anyone hurt you or-" He stuttered."Yeah, yeah! Someone did hurt us. And they're standing right in front of me." I cut him off with my arms folded."Wait, babe, what did I do?" "Don't 'babe' me! You f***ing accused us of cheating on you! How do you think that makes us feel, huh?""Oh...yeah. I'm sorry, Cheryl-""You know what? You don't care, no one else cares and I don't care! I'm going." "Cheryl, wait! I swear I didn't mean it!" He ran after me.

I ran upstairs and sat by the guest bedroom window. I started to break down and cry to myself.

Life just isn't making sense anymore.

He appeared at the door, I didn't need to even look to know."Get the f*** out." I demanded, my voice muffled in my arms."Cheryl, please-""Look, I'll be fine. Just go."

He sighed and left the room.

What is my life?

Maybe I should've died of malaria.

No! Cheryl stop it!

Jean is right. I need a break. A fresh new start to life.

Maybe...

I should just live a normal life like everyone else.

"No paps around to harass us, no one to break me heart, no one to hate us, no one to be worried for." I whispered quietly to myself.

Oh my god, what the hell am I thinking?

I can't just leave everyone. This life. My dream.

Or could I?

I already achieved my life goals and so much more. It wouldn't matter if I stopped living the dream just to feel normal for once. Maybe I could just be on my own for the rest of my life. I have plenty of money in the bank.

All I need to do is make sure I don't lose my bank card.

I also need to make sure me real identity doesn't get exposed. I would have to have a new name, a new look, a new job, a new purpose in life.

I could become a dancer?

Maybe.

Just anything but a singer. Or anything with a lot of GCSEs required.

I didn't even have much of an education at all at school.

I guess this is when I finally take me dad's advice. The one thing that he would always tell me as a child:

"Get your head out of the clouds"

But how am I going to do this?

I couldn't believe I was actually thinking of leaving everything but I felt depressed and trapped. If I stayed here any longer, I would just break apart. And I couldn't let anyone of my closest friends or family see that aside of me again. I would still be married to JB. So I wouldn't really be able to marry anyone if I wanted to.

This country is not safe for us.

France is a bad idea as well. JB or his family would find me sooner of later if I went there.

Hmm...

Any country where no one really knows us would be perfect.

America? Canada? Australia? Spain? Italy? Germany? Even Switzerland could probably do.

As long as there were people who spoke English there.

Some people would actually recognise us in America though.

I can't be too close to the UK either. That's the last thing I need. For people to find us.

For some reason, I had a globe kept in the guest room. As a child, I wanted to travel the world. So I bought myself a globe when I was nineteen, before I entered popstars. I'd hoped it would be used one day to pursue one of my childhood dreams.

And now, I guess, is the time I am going to use it.

I always kept the globe in a little treasure chest and never left it behind whenever I moved. I stood up and went to get the key. I felt my hand through the small mouse hole and retrieved it. My hands shook wildly as I turned the key in the lock. It opened.

I lifted the lid up and it was there. Still in perfect condition. I held it in my hands. It got a bright glint from the setting sunlight from the window. I could almost see my childhood self's reflection. I sighed.

Wherever the globe lands on, that's where I will go and live the rest of me life.

I gulped the lump in my throat. I gave the globe a quick spin and closed my eyes. I put my finger on a random place that was facing me. I opened my eyes.

The pad of my finger was touching La Paz, Mexico. I smiled.

Well, it's a hot country, probably has some people who speak English there, the food's not bad, I'm sure the people there are kind enough as well. I don't know many Mexicans who know the name, 'Cheryl Cole'. That's the name most people know me by. I doubt they would recognise the name, 'Cheryl Fernandez-Versini' either. They probably haven't even heard of Girls Aloud either.

But I will have a new name anyway. Just in case.

That's where I'll go.

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( I know that where I'm going with this is quite a shock to most if not all of you but I just like to go with what I feel like should happen next, no matter how surprising it is. Hope you enjoyed this chapter and you are free to comment, vote or even follow me if you want to. Just please don't say anything offensive. Thank you and see you all later, Elise x )