Chapter 24

Do I really want to move to France?

What is Simon gonna say when I tell him?

I know the girls won't mind. Or will they? I won't be living near them anymore.

I wouldn't be able to visit my family in Newcastle as often.

Why did I agree to this?

Or maybe...

JB is right...maybe I do need another break.

I woke up, stretching my arms and going into the bathroom. I got into the shower and thought about it more and more. I washed my face, brushed out my hair and put on my white robe and slippers as I headed downstairs.

I did the usual things I do every morning. Let the dogs out for a bit, feed them, sometimes make breakfast. But the last time I made breakfast I nearly burnt the house down by a single piece of toast. So I just let JB cook most of the time. If I move to France, this means we may get eat in his restaurant more often. That will be nice.

I'm still not sure.

I guess time will tell, right?

I had to get up early because I was recording the last two songs off my new album. I named it 'Only Human' like the song I wrote. I also wrote two tracks with Nicola called 'It's About Time' and 'Goodbye Means Hello'. And Kimberley and I have been spending a lot of time together with Bobby and Justin. I don't mind him really. He's a very nice man. Nadine is in LA right now. And Sarah told me she's gonna be on a couple TV shows and record some music.

I'm gonna miss my girls so much.

"Morning, princess." JB wrapped his arms around my waist, making me jump a little."Oh! Morning, babes. I need to get to the recording studio today. I think I will just get some MacDonald's on the way there." I said."Ok then, are you sure?" "Yeah, I'm sure that's what I'll have to eat.""Cheryl. I'm talking about if you ready to go back to work about last night.""Oh Jean don't worry, I'll be fine. It's been worse in the past, I can cope with it babe." I reassured him.

But it seemed like he was never convinced no matter how much I tried. He had been worried about me everyday. And I couldn't completely figure out why. But nonetheless, I did my best to work hard and get the album out as soon as possible for the soldiers.

I gave him a quick goodbye kiss, put my sunglasses and hoodie on and walked to the MacDonald's that was only a block away. I know I've been eating really unhealthily for the last week or so but I've been really busy and not bothering to watch what I eat when I usually always do.

I guess this whole trauma is getting in the way just a little bit, I thought, sipping into my coffee as I bit into my egg & bacon McMuffin. The weather hadn't really changed since the last time I came here. It was dark, gloomy and wet. When I finished my junk food breakfast, I called a limo to take me to the recording studio.

Lily was waiting for me as I arrived. "Cheryl, I heard the news about last night. Are you ok?""Hey Lils, who told you?" I asked."Sundraj. It's all over today's paper." "Really? Give it here will ya, Lils?" I gestured her to get me the paper.

I took a look of the front page and then chucked it back across the table. "The Sun's a bulls*** paper anyways." I scowled. The headline had read: "Cheryl Cheater Versini. Has the wifey found a new beau?"

There was a picture of me and Trent when he was trying to kiss me.

Oh god. Hopefully, JB's not gonna flip about this!

S***!

S***!

S***!

"Let's just get to recording these last two songs please." I whispered to Lily."Of course, Chezza, let's get everyone's arses up there now." She winked at me. "RIGHT COME ON YOU LOT, WE GOTTA RECORD TWO SONGS TODAY, COME ON MOVE YOUR BIG ARSES!" She yelled, grabbing a megaphone out of nowhere.

Don't ask me why we have that here! 😂

I love that girl. She is the best friend ever.

All of us moved to the studio to finally record. Joel Compass came today to record a duet in one of the songs, 'Coming Up For Air'. I was happy to work with him and he was a nice young bloke.

We both entered the studio with our headsets, microphones and sheets of lyrics on the stand in front of us. We smiled at each other as we sung all our parts of the song. I then recorded my last song, which was called 'Fight On'.

It reminded me a little of 'Fight For This Love' and I thought this song could be like a part 2 to it. I took all my soul and put it into the song as I did before. I had put all my feelings into 'Fight For This Love'. And now I had to do the same with 'Fight On'. I took a deep breath before I started to sing the first verse.

*****song's audio is linked above*****

SheFeels like it's all too muchAnd heHis words can heal her heartShe struggles through the rain to find him at his dormHe wipes away the tears with words she's been searching for

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I took another deep breath.

This is for JB. He's gonna be the one who heals my heart.

I give it my all throughout the song as I felt like I was truly expressing my love to him.

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[Chorus:]Fight onFight on we will find our wayFight onSo fight on we will find our way

Saved herEven when worlds apartHe holds her, her in his open armsWhen she's alone she dreams to feel him by her sideReplaying every memory of his voice inside(Telling her, telling her)

Fight onFight on we will find our wayFight onSo fight on we will find our way

[x2](Fight on)Cause he feels her when she feels itAnd he knows just what to say(Oh-oh-ohhh)Cause he gives strength when she needs itAnd his heart soaks up the pain

He hears her callBefore she fallsHe carries her through every shadowWith just one wordHe saves her worldHe holds her close before he tells herOh, oh, oh

[Chorus:]Fight on (fight on, fight on, fight on)Fight on we will find our wayFight on (fight on, fight on, fight on)So fight on we will find our way

[Chorus:]Fight on(Cause he feels her when she feels it)(And he knows just what to say)Fight on we will find our way(Cause he gives strength when she needs it)(And his heart soaks up the pain)Fight on(Cause he feels her when she feels it)(And he knows just what to say)Fight on we will find our way

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I got a round of applause from everyone back from the other window. Even though I'm not the best singer in the world, I'll admit it, they were clapping because I must've did the song justice anyhow. Lily burst into the room and started hugging me. We were squealing, jumping up and down like little girls and nearly crying in happiness. I actually forgot all about the newspaper article about me and Trent last night.

Until I arrived home to JB in a foul mood.

I gulped, trying to clear the lump in my throat but it stayed there as I struggled to breathe. I was terrified of what his reaction will be.

"Cheryl...is this true?"