Chapter 4

I'm ecstatic that my first day of school is finally over, only to realise what I'm going back 'home' to. I look around me to ensure Stefan is nowhere to be seen, and steadily make my way back to the where I'm staying.

The thing I'm most heartbroken about is that I can't even listen to music? No headphones, can't afford proper earplugs I have to deal with my rigged, broken ones, so I have no choice but to face my thoughts, alone. They drown my mind, and I'm surprised my brain can still function amidst all the overthinking and negative thoughts. I'm not as happy as I let on to others, not only because of my living situation, but because of my life. What I've been through and probably what I'll go through. See, overthinking is playing up once again.

I finally make it to the shed, my first instinct to look for Harry. I can't believe I didn't tell Stefan about Harry. I shout his name and look for him, only to find him on my battered mattress sleeping.

"Hey baby." I whisper as I bend down to stroke him. I pull out the chicken wrap from earlier, breaking half of one piece and giving it to Harry. I know he's more than capable of finding his own food and water, and surviving in these conditions, but he is my baby and I'll do anything to protect him.

I walk over to the just about surviving mirror on the wall and begin to take my makeup off. I notice the coloured gleam in my eyes and I say, "No." out loud.

I go over and sit with Harry. I realise I don't have the book Bonnie gave me, I probably left it in the class. Oops.

I take the other half of the wrap and save the remaining bit on the small side table next to me. Harry can eat it tomorrow. I eat the wrap, feeling guilt free. I'm seeing Stefan tomorrow, and I assume he'll pay for my food? Do I tell him about how I'm living and my current situation? No, I can't put that on him.

I write in my diary for the next two hours and before I realise it, I'm yawning and quite literally knackered. I place my diary to the side and lay down, cuddling Harry close to me.

I close my eyes, thinking about Stefan. Replaying the moments from today, the way he talked, the teasing, him helping me and even him giving me his jacket which I've put nicely on the side. I can't ruin or dirty that, no way.

I find myself falling asleep, the last thought in my head being Stefan.