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Joss side of story :

The past 6 years he stayed abroad, his sister was the one taking care of their father and also helping their father check the company's files and documents. No one other than them, Lee and the doctor knows about the condition of their father. When he came back, he sent his sister to also do the internship ASAP. Now he's the one taking care of their father and the company.

But he's also a human also so there are days when his body can't take it anymore so he would assign Lee to look after his father while he took some rest himself. But no matter how tired he is he doesn't forget to check his father's well being.

Looking after the company is also not an easy job. He takes special care in everything he does so that there's no flaws in anything. He gave up his social life, his hobbies, everything one could think of. He would avoid anything other than work related issues. But one thing he couldn't give up no matter what is that one person for whom there's a flame burning in his heart.

No matter how hard he tries to extinguish, it doesn't die, the more he tries the more it burns. It seems as if he's pouring petrol in there instead of water. Is it because he's mistaken water for petrol or maybe he's doing it on purpose. Anything he can give up but not him, not the people close to him.

No matter how busy he is, he doesn't even once forget to take time out for them. Whatever people might say or think about him but this is what makes him a gentleman.

One who can love a person to the extend that it comes to a point where he lives for love and also die for it. One who would love u even when ur body turns to ashes or rot in ur deathbed. Even when no traces of u is left, he will find u with the wind, water and fire and love u there, also getting his share of love back.

The kind of man he is, what will happen if ever his love leave him behind or let go of him. Will he die or keep fighting to get his love back? What will he choose?

He hasn't tell Gawin about his father's condition yet but he will when he finds a good timing. He doesn't want to keep any secrets from him and he also hope Gawin would also do the same but he can't control it so he thought at least he won't keep any secrets from his side.

Them 6 years back and them now, there's a lot of changes physically but internally is there any change? For Joss, there's none, his heart still burns for his love but for the other person is it still the same or is there a change. Well who can remain the same for 6 years when there is a change even in the hard rock up in the mountains.

If there is a change then is it a big change or just a little one. Can they turn back to how they were or do they have to move on and face the harsh reality.

Joss will be going into a war where he doesn't knows what weapons to use to win the war.

End of Joss's side of story.

We might think that once Gawin gives the green light then everything would be back to how it was but it isn't as easy as it sounds. The incident that happens back then left a big trauma on him and he wouldn't want to go back there. Who would want to go back to the trauma that left them a scar so deep that nothing can ever erased it.

He hesitates to open up to others, making his wall so high to the point that no one can see him no more. He's scared to love, to show his feelings. The pain is still fresh.

Then Dani comes to his life. At first, he hesitates with her but then he came to realise that with her he can stay closed up and she wouldn't mind at all. This very thing makes him willing to be with her.

He doesn't want to come out of his shell and show his true shelf. He's afraid to break down his wall. But for Dani no matter how high his wall is, she is willing to be with him. This was a good thing for everyone.

This way his parents won't have to worry about him, Dani will be happy and he will also be relieved of the fear of stepping out his own shell, out of his comfort zone.

Joss was the first person who really brought him out of his own world and merge his world with his. But then when he went away without a single warning, his world break into billion pieces. He was left confused and broken with no world to belong to. Everything was shattered.

It was a world made up by both of them. When one walks away drifting away a part of the world then how can one stays sane.

The first few weeks after Joss went away, Gawin was like a crazy person. He forgot to eat or drink. He doesn't took shower or bath. He would sit at a corner of his room, all curled up and stare at a thing for the whole day, just lost in his thoughts.

His parents were very worried. They would tell him to eat but he wouldn't so they have no choice but to cry silently.

It's not long since Gawin gathers himself and steps outside again wearing a shield much stronger than before.

His parents went through a lot also. Watching their son break literally breaks them also. They would pray everyday just for him.

When their son gets it back together, they were so happy. They also decided not to interrupt in anything he does in his life. Whatever he does, no matter how difficult it is to accept as long as it doesn't cause harm to him or others then they would always accept it and support him. This is also the reason why they accepted Dani even though they didn't like her a bit.

Even if Gawin is their son, they don't know what's going on in his mind as he has in his way of thought process. He wouldn't talk about things regarding his life. Even when asked he would just reply

'I'm doing fine. Don't worry.'

With a smile.

And this would shut them up not able to utter another word regarding this matter.

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