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I look at my phone, confused because it's already been almost a day without him giving life signals. And while I do understand people in general need their space, this is starting to be too weird.

What if he's ghosting me? I mean, it's not like we'd see each other often. He rarely hung out with Soo and her friends before me, so the possibilities of us coming across one another are quite low.

But what if he's not ghosting me and something happened to him? Maybe he's been sick all day and I've been around here thinking the worst of him.

It'd be easier if I knew what real people do in these circumstances. I'm battling between giving him space, or going to his house to make sure everything's fine. But I know he wouldn't be in his house right now, because he's supposed to be working.

So before I'm completely aware of what's going on, my feet start making their way to the studio. I'm not totally conscious of where I'm heading until I recognize the street where it's placed. My mind is too busy trying to guess what I should say if Jungkook is totally fine and Mark is with him. And if it's only Mark... I guess Jungkook is at home?

I suddenly stop when I see the studio is closed. I feel my heart dropping to my stomach, since I can't help but think the worst right now. Maybe I'm overreacting, but how Jungkook has gone silent for almost a full day and now the tattoo studio is also closed... I need to make sure everything is fine, that Jungkook is okay.

The level of anxiety this is giving me is ridiculous. Because most probably they both went out last night, and are just chilling at home.

And while I wonder whether I should go to his house or not, Tammy sends me a text. I'm not really in the mood to read it, because honestly I'm too pissed off with myself and the way I'm reacting.

On my way back home, I keep checking my phone several times. My heart jumps at every notification that pops up, and I almost drop it when I get a call, just to sigh disappointed when I see Tammy's name on the screen.

I'm almost going to greet her the same way I usually do, but she interrupts me before I'm even able to emit a sound.

—Jungkook had an accident.

My body stops moving, it's like those news have made my whole body freeze on the spot, hoping for Tammy to say that she's kidding me and all of this . I can hear her voice, but I can't understand anything she's saying right now.

—I know you two don't get on well —she sighs—. But you should visit him for Soo. Tammy and I will go later today.

—Tam, I gotta go —I manage to say, in between stutters—. Send me the hospital he's in.

I don't even care if I give away I care more than I should with my answer, because right now there's only one thing I can focus on: and it's managing to find a way to get to the hospital he's in as soon as Tammy sends me the location.

I could've asked if he's okay and wait to go with them later today. But I can't wait until then to see him and make sure that he's fine. Not only that. I need to see it myself with my own eyes.

My throat closes as the cab I took gets closer to the hospital, and breathing starts getting difficult by the minute. Not like it gets any better when I get off the car, and insist more times than I'd want to with one of the nurses to know what his room is. And all of this just to be able to get to his room and see him lying in his bed.

He doesn't look as bad as I started to imagine on my way here. His face has a few scratches -along with a small bandage on his forehead-, and his left arm is in plaster; but he's okay. He's sleeping peacefully, yet that doesn't stop me from letting that mix of emotions run through me. My lips start to tremble, and I just can't hold back myself from crying. I'm not sure if it's a way to get fear out of my sister, or maybe it's the relief to see he's okay after all.

—Why are you crying? —I hear his sleepy voice out of nowhere.

I shake my head. I try to get myself to stop crying, but it's more difficult than I thought it'd be. I manage to calm myself down, I sweep my tears away, just so I can see his face closer than it was before.

—Who are you?

And then the knot tenses in my throat again, to the point that it hurts, as I see that confused look he's giving me. My sight starts getting blurry from my tears piling up, I just see the shape of his face. He pulls me closer for a hug, making me accidentally lie on bed with him.

—Cocktease, it was just a joke —he plays with my hair, trying to comfort me.

Now I know. And I try to calm down again, finally being away that he's the one hugging me and trying to comfort me. I move back, still sitting on the side of the bed, while he's trying to clear my face with his right hand -the only one he's able to move right now actually.

—You're okay? —I nod— I was just joking.

—Who jokes with something like that? —I hit on his right arm— God, you're so lucky I'm in love with you...

His smile grows bigger when he hears me saying that, but he doesn't have time to tease me about it. One of the nurses comes in, greeting us both and checking out everything is okay with him.

—The doctor will come in a few minutes —she lets him know.

She leaves us alone again, closing the door behind her. I don't need to turn to look at him to know the way he's looking at me right now, or to know how he's going to tease me about what I've just said.

I look at all the things around, my fingers playing with the support for the serum while desperately trying to keep my focus away from him.

—You're going to act like you didn't say anything, don't you?

—What did I say? —I tilt my head while frowning my eyebrows— I didn't hear anything.

When I finally turn to look at him, Jungkook is giving me a sided smile. I really don't know where those words came from, or how they managed to slip out of my mouth, but I'm so confused while he's just smiling as if he totally understood what was going on.

—What happened?

I try to change the topic, thing he only allows to happen for a short minute -the time he spends explaining how he got in this situation.

—I went out with Tae last night. I didn't even drink —he rushes to deny, as my eyes start giving him the most suspicious look—. I stopped at a red light, and I just saw a car coming in my direction. I guess he should've opened up a bit more while turning, but he didn't and that's why he ran me over.

—And of course you weren't wearing a helmet —I roll my eyes.

And, like I said, this is just momentarily, because he wastes no time driving the conversation back to my accidental comment. He digs his index on my side, right on the curve of my waist to make my body flinch as he insists for an answer.

—Oh —a feminine voice interrupt us—, I didn't know you were here.

Soo enters the room, looking at us with a funny smile, placing herself on the other side of his bed.

—Tam told me he was here —I get off the mattress—. And came to see how he's doing.

—Right —she nods, trying to hide her cheeky smile.

—But I'll get going now —I inform them both—. Glad to see you're okay.

I move nervously, trying to run away from here, only to hit my body against a small stool that was in the middle of the room for some reason. Turning again to them, I smile and wave to head out of the room as soon as possible.

✸ ✸ ✸

I'm lying on the couch after coming back from work, and I'd be sleeping right now if it weren't because Jungkook can't sleep and is glued to his phone.

Asshole: Soo won't leave me alone.

Asshole: She's here all day

Asshole: Sorry for not letting you know before I was here.

Me: It's alright.

Me: And stop complaining. It's sweet she's there with you.

Asshole: It'd be better if you were the one here with me.

I smile at his text, just for it to go even wider when he sends me another text and tells me to go to sleep.

Asshole: Love you, cocktease.

Asshole: Even if you still hadn't said it back.

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Also I think it's important to remember this is the first time for Y/n having these feelings for someone and being in this type of relationship.

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