Part Twenty Seven

Weeks flew by with Nathan and I sneaking around. Nareesha, Michelle and Kelsey knew and vowed to keep quiet until we were ready. I loved Nathan with every little bit of me but i didn't want to be his girlfriend. He'd asked, plenty of times but i just wasn't ready for Amy to find out. As soon as it was announced it would be all over gossip magazines and the Internets, it was far too risky.

Which meant, as well as Max and the boys, we also had to hide it from paparazzi. We'd take separate cars to places and meet up behind closed doors. A few magazines had questioned his visits but pressed no further when he kept batting them off.

It was the night before one of his gigs, Max had invited me before Nathan got the chance so i was getting dolled up with Kelsey, Michelle and Nareesha. Michelle wore a simple black dress with a low cut back and Nareesha wore a plain black top with a nude maxi length pleated skirt and Kesley in a colourful playsuit with some sky high black wedges. I was still searching through the few items i'd brought with me to Max's - where we were getting ready. 

"You could borrow something of mine?" Michelle offered.

"It's fine, i wouldn't fit in anything of yours" 

"Sure you would!" Michelle smiled kindly and started to search through her wardrobe. "Now the skirt you've got is nice" She commented, pointing at it lay out on the bed. "But i think you need a bit of colour if you're going to wear the black lace top" 

"Okay?"

"I bought this blazer a while back, it doesn't look right so maybe you try it on?" She pulled it out of the wardrobe triumphantly and waved it in front of me.

"Okay, i suppose" I slipped it on and flicked out the collar to lay flat. It fitted well, the sleeves ended just below my elbow and had a rolled up effect. The pale mint green complimented my fair skin and   blonde hair.

"You look lovely!" Nareesha squealed, taking my hands and grinning.

"What should i do with my hair?" I asked, turning to the mirror and tucking one side behind my ear.

"Messy bun. I have a nice pin that would go with the outfit too"

"Okay, would you mind doing it?"

"Sure, let me just pick a pair of heels" Michelle smiled and scanned the endless rows of shoes before picking out a pair of nude heels and aproaching me.

She slipped a hair tie on to her wrist and within seconds had my hair up in the perfect messy bun. She turned me to face her and pulled a few stray hairs down to frame my face, before clipping in the large clasp into the bun.

"Heels!" Nareesha sang, holding out a pair of low black heels, i slipped them on and took a few steps in order to get used to them.

"Handbag" Michelle handed me a black clutch with a small pastel green bow on it. I turned to the mirror one last time and felt happy with my outfit.

"Thank you girls" I smiled.

“We ready to go?” Kelsey interrupted by coming into the room, having called the taxi.

A resounding yes echoed from all of us. I adjusted my blazer, Michelle applied a quicker layer of lip-gloss and Nareesha fluffed her hair. We all clattered down the stairs and jumped in the taxi.

“So you and Nathan any more serious?” Kelsey asked.

“No. Besides Max invited me tonight, not Nath” I pointed out.

“Fair point. When are you going to tell him though? He’s getting suspicious” Michelle hinted.

“He is?”

“Yeah, he keeps asking me if I know who Nathan is seeing”

“Oh. Soon. I will tell him just not tonight”

“Okay, pinky swear?” Michelle held out her little finger and I laughed but still locked mine around it.

We arrived at the venue and snuck in the back way to avoid paparazzi. We were instantly greeted by Big Kev who let us past and told us where they were but held me back and whispered;

“Nathan wants you to meet him in dressing room 4” He smirked and let me go, shooting me a wink as I let my eyes drop from his to find Nathan. A sign on the wall told me that it was upstairs, on its own so I followed it, careful not to make too much noise.

“Where are you Max wants to see you – M x”

“Seeing Nathan, be down in half an hour. Keep him occupied? x” I typed back quickly before opening the dressing room door and letting myself in.

“Hiya gorgeous” Nathan came over to me and shut the door.

The room was practically empty apart from two old sofas and a wall mirror with a wide, sturdy ledge in front of it.

“Why are we in here?” I asked, as if I couldn’t already guessed.

“Thinking you could give me a boost before the show” He winked.

“Oh yeah? What kind of boost are we talking about?”

“Any kind you want”

“Mm, I’ll see what we can do”

I grabbed his hips and forced them backwards, he stumbled slightly with the force I gave and smirked. “You know I love it when you take control” He whispered huskily.

“Well, you won’t get it that easily” I murmured back.

He groaned as I took his ear lobe between my teeth, biting down hard I could feel his finger digging deeper in to my lower back. I lifted both of his hands to my breasts, letting him feel them freely. I pulled off Michelle’s blazer and tossed it to the floor. I let my hands rest on his thighs, moving excruciatingly slowly towards his crotch he dropped his head and kissed my collar bones.

“Do you want me?” I teased.

He ignored the comment and took over, letting me know that he did. He threw me back onto the counter, my back slamming into the mirror and his kisses getting rougher, more urgent. There was no messing around this time. He’d been away doing promotional work for 2 weeks and this was the first time I’d seen him. They’d come straight from their last stop to here.

“Miss me?” I asked, making him stop to reply.

“Can’t you tell?”

I giggled and continued to kiss him. His hand made its way up my thigh and into the tiny knickers I’d slipped on earlier. Before long he was on top of me thrusting powerfully and giving everything he could. I wad biting down on my lip to stop from moaning in pleasure but it only turned him on more.

“Let go” He demanded. Slowing down slightly

“I can’t” I said breathlessly.

“Whys that?”

“Because you stopped” I laughed and he raised his eyebrows comically.

He carried on, picked up the pace and hissed in my ear “fuck” I was about to reach my climax, like I had done many times before when the changing room door opened. Panic washed over Nathan’s face as he jumped up and grabbed his jeans up from around his knees.

“What the fuck” Max yelled. “What the fuck!”

“Esmie, I’m sorry I couldn’t stop him” Michelle babbled.

I shifted my skirt down, oddly calm. I guess I was always ready for this situation, I knew he’d find out some day, I’d played the conversation over and over in my head. Though I hadn’t quite pictured him finding out this way.

“Mate I’m sorry. We were gonna tell you” Nathan stuttered.

“Gonna? Yeah? When?” He approached Nathan, his face only inches from Nath’s.

“Max. Stop.” I demanded, stepping between the two. “We’re not together”

“Oh well that makes this all fine then” He spat.

“Come on Nath. We may as well tell the rest of them seeing as Max knows” Nathan looked at me in pure shock. I could see how much he was panicking but I was fine. The rest of the boys wouldn’t tell the press. I was okay with them knowing. The only people I didn’t want finding out were Max and Amy. I grabbed his hand and lead him down the corridor and stairs, trying not to laugh as he still had his other hand holding up his jeans.

I gave him and chance to do them up and composed myself before we met with the rest of the boys.

“Hey” I announced, arriving in the room holding Nathan’s hand firmly.

“Hi” Jay said, dropping his gaze to our hands. “You two are together?”

“No. Sort of. I don’t know” I laughed and snuggled into Nathan’s shoulder.

“We are” Nathan smiled.

“We are?” I whispered.

“We are” He repeated.

“Okay. Then I’m Nathan’s girlfriend, hello” I laughed.

“That sounds good” Nathan chimed.

“Max knows?” Nareesha asked.

“Err…Yeah.” I blushed.

“Speak of the devil” Jay nodded towards the door. “You happy for them Max?” He asked.

“I need a drink” Max replied,  ignoring Jay and heading straight to the bar, followed by michelle who shot me an apologetic look.

I wasn’t bothered. Max would get used to the idea soon enough.

“We need to set up our in ears so I’ll see you after?” Nathan winked.

“Okay babe” I kissed him good bye and watched him happily run after Siva and Tom who both slapped him on the back and joked about something, probably to do with me.

“You okay? Max doesn’t look best pleased” Jay joked, approaching me.

“Mhm, fine. As long as the press don’t know I’m good. Max will come round to the idea” I echoed my earlier thoughts.

“Yeah, I suppose. I best be off”

“See ya” I called after him.

The gig flew by, the boys were great, like they are every time and Max even invited me on stage and introduced me as his step sister. Letting me know things were okay. Before I knew it I was in the back of a taxi heading towards Nathan’s flat with his lips on my neck.