Don't die

After traveling for six hours across the dark open land, drifting in and out of sleep. You finally see what you've been waiting for. Malekiths ship. You stop by the end of a cliff, looking down over his small group of men, luckily for you, your not heavily outnumbered.

"All right are you ready" Thor asks.

"Don't we need a plan?" You chuckle nervously, as you look down.

"Don't die" Loki smiles, tilting his head.

"Well technically I can't so.. that should be easy enough" you say as you exhale sharply.

Thor pulls Loki to the side whispering something to him, you try your best to listen what they're talking about. But clearly this is something no one else is supposed to know about. You watch as Loki holds out his arms hoping Thor will unlock them.

"You still don't trust me brother?"

"Would you?"

Thor then looks back at you, as you give him a reassuring nod. Then he removes the cuffs from Lokis hands. As soon as he does Loki turns around, stabbing Thor right in the stomach with his dagger.

"No I wouldn't" he chuckles darkly.

You scream as you run after Thor, looking back at Loki with little to no hope left. You rush to his side checking if there's any bleeding. But before you get the chance to Loki grabs your arm holding you in place.

"How could you?" You scream.

"You really think I cared about Frigga?... about any of you" he says coldly. Using the same cuffs to tie your hands together. Throwing you down to the ground. Loki kicks Thor in the stomach, right where he was stabbed.

"All i ever wanted, was you and Odin, dead at my feet" he growls.

Thor groans out in pain as he reaches out his hand summoning mjolnir, and for a second you feel the slightest relief. When Loki grabs his hand, cutting it off in one swift motion.

Your muffled screams blend together with Thors. You crawl towards Thor desperate to help him. So focused on him you don't even realize Loki got Jane lifting her towards Malekith.

"I am Loki of Jotunheim and I bring you a gift" Loki says proudly, throwing Jane right at Malekiths feet. "I ask only only one thing in return.. a good seat which to watch Asgard burn"

You can't move, like your body has shut down. All you can do is sit by Thors side holding him close. Until you look down watching Thors wounds closely. This isn't real..

It's not real.

You rest your head by Thors shoulder. "I really fucking hate you two right now" you whisper.

"I'm sorry" Thor mumbles, still screaming in pain.

You've got to give it to him. If the whole king of Asgard slash Avenger doesn't work out, he would be one hell of an actor with that performance.

Malekith smiles darkly, as he lifts Jane up into the air, sucking the Aether out of her. You're praying that any minute now they'll do something. Or else she's going to die. Suddenly she falls to the ground.

"Loki! Now" Thor yells.

And with the blink of an eye Loki removes his illusion, and Thor raises from the ground catching mjolnir in his hand. Loki runs to you, covering over you as Thor eliminates the Aether with his lightning.

Loki looks down at you smiling. "You really didn't trust me" he says pouting his mouth.

"The whole stabbing, and cutting off hands, did throw me off a bit" you chuckle.

Loki helps you up, summoning a bow and an arrow. "Go" he smiles.

"Is that supposed to happen?" You ask. Looking over at the tiny red pieces of stone floating in the air.

When suddenly Malekith absorbs the power from it.

"No that was not part of the plan" Loki sighs.

Loki look over at Thor, when he without thinking throws you to the side, as he gets sucked up into the air. You hold onto a root in the ground with your one hand, and his in your other. Feeling as the door slowly loosens from the ground.

"Let go" he yells.

You shake you head manically. Fighting with all your power to hold him steady. When Thor flies from the side grabbing Loki, crashing onto the ground.

Malekith disappears in his ship. You take a few breath trying to gather your thoughts. Then you grab your bow and arrow starting to fire at anything that moves, taking the dark elves out one by one. Once you've taken out everyone around you, your turn to look for Loki and Thor.

Thor is lying on the ground as one of the creatures stands above him. Loki teleports himself behind it stabbing it right through the chest with a sword. You're finally able to breathe again.. they did it. They worked together.

Then you gaze softens as you see the creature pull Lokis body through the sword sticking out from his chest, going right into his.Then the creature pulls him off casting him down to the ground.

You scream as you run to his side, everything is silent. You can't even hear yourself screaming. It's like time froze around you, watching as Loki lays defenseless on the ground. You're legs have giving up on you, like you're walking on quicksand. With each step you take it gets harder to move. You're not about to lose another person you love. You watch intensely at Thor comforting him. You can't believe it took one of them to die before they realized how deeply they love each other.

As soon as you get there, Thor is lying on top of his lifeless body. You fall to you knees screaming at the top of your lounges.

Thor slowly gets up making his way to you, as you crawl towards Lokis body. He hold you tightly.

"Don't y/n.. he's not there anymore" Thor sobs.

"I need to say goodbye" you stammer in between your sobs.

"There's no one to say goodbye too, don't"

"We have to carry him home.. we need to give him-"

"We can't we need to go now"

Thor picks you up as you see the sandstorm closing in on you.

"If we stay here we'll die" Thor says sadly.

"I won't.. But I think I know how it feels now" you sob.

Watching as you leave behind Lokis body, as it gets consumed by the storm.

"He'll be with Frigga now" Thor smiles, wiping away your tears. As he Carries you back to the ship.

You sit alone the whole ride home, in complete silence as your feel your body giving up. The only thing holding you up is you need for revenge.

Revenge on Malekith..

Revenge on Odin. If he hadn't banished you all those years ago, none of this would have happened. You want him dead, whatever your punishment is, it cannot be worse than what you're feeling now.

As you return home Thor Carries into your bedroom. He sits by your side, stroking your hair gently. You feel nothing. There's nothing to say.

"My lady -"

"Don't Thor, don't tell me you know how it feels.. don't tell me it's going to be alright.. it's not" you say quietly without any sense of emotion.

"I will revenge my brother.. I'm going after Malekith. I want you to stay here."

"I want to kill him" you admit. "I want him to suffer like I do.."

"I know you loved my brother, in ways I will never begin to understand.. but you are in no shape y/n"

"Just go.. I'll stay here. I have something I need to do, and you won't like it"

"What is it?"

You sit up looking right through him.

"I'm going to kill Odin for what he did" you growl.

"You're not serious are you?" Thor asks scared, he doesn't even recognize that sweet girl you once were. She's gone now.

"He took away everything from me.. now I'll take away his life"

"You'll also take away everything from me" Thor breathes. "I've lost my mother.. my brother. Will you really take away my father?"

You for the first time you feel something other than hatred.. you feel guilt, pain, sorrow. You feel everything.

"No.." you sigh.. "I'm sorry"

"Get some rest y/n, I'll be back to check on you as soon as I return home... stay here for me" Thor pleads.

You nod you head, resting your head against the soft pillow case once more. Thor plants a gentle kiss on your forehead before walking out the door.

That night you only dream of one thing. The pain of losing him. You see it over and over again. Like a broken recoding playing the same song on repeat. You don't want to be awake, it'll only be a reminder of what you no longer have, you'll feel the pain and aftermath.

You can't stay asleep either, your don't dream you just relive memories you only want to rid yourself from. Things you cannot unsee.

When you wake up the next morning you feel a heavy wait on your chest. Like something inside of you is missing. And you can't explains what it is. You turn over and see Thor sitting in a chair by your bed.He slowly opens his eyes, greeting you with a loving smile.

"How are you feeling?" He asks sitting down beside you.

"I'm better.. I still don't understand it.. but I'm okay" you smile softly.

"Are you sure, there's no need to hide from me"

"Thor I'm okay.. Loki wouldn't want me to mourn.. he'd want me to be happy" you say with that same smile glued on your face.

"Okay, If you insist." Thor says, weirdly suspicious about your behavior. "I bring good news, we defeated Malekith, and I am no longer king of Asgard" Thor smiles broadly.

"What?.. why?"

"I talked with my father, and he was incredibly understanding about my situation. How I want to pursue things with Jane.. I never wanted to be king."

"But you did want to be king... That's the whole reason you and Loki were fighting.. remember?" You say shocked my his statement.

"After watching Loki sacrifice himself for me.. I just learned that I wanted to be more like him"

"Now it's definitely just the grief talking.. if you're not king then who is?"

"Well my father of course, he seemed to be at the top of him game today. I think you could even persuade him to let you stay on Asgard" Thor says excitedly.

"That's really great Thor.. I'm happy for you" you say hesitantly.

"Thank you my lady, do you however return to Midgard, make sure to let me know if any crime fighting business come up." He smiles giving you a big warm hug.

"I will.. so wait you're not sad?" You question.

"Of course I am my lady.. I will mourn my brothers death till the day I die, but I will find a way to honor his memory" Thor says proudly. "I have a date tonight"

"Well go then, wouldn't want to keep her waiting"

Thor hugs you once more, before he walks out the door.

As soon as he leaves you remove your illusion, looking yourself in the mirror. Mascara stained cheeks, red puffy eyes. How could everyone around you already have moved on, and you're stuck in bed unable to do anything but cry and scream you lunges out.. you'd never be okay after this.. they say time heal, but this won't.. this will forever be an open wound.

Then you think back to the last time you looked into that mirror. Seeing her as clear as day. Her bright shiny eyes, so full of hope. Red rosy cheeks, long golden hair. Now you're nothing but a vessel. A broken shell. You punch the mirror watching as it shatters. You pick up a piece of the glass, putting it safely in your shoe, covering it with your dress. Then you wipe away the tears and mascara, tying up your hair,before walking to the lavatory.