Chapter 13

Recap:

Rin's POV

I sighed, “Okay, okay it was something, but not really, its nothing to be worried about.” I walked off the path and into the woods. Yay trees.

“You’re lying again.”

I sat on a fallen tree, sighing “Stupid dog demons, and their stupid hearing.”

I looked at him and he had a grin on his face, but also a questionable look.

“What, I am kidding, it’s a joke.”

He sat down next to me. “Right you don’t do jokes. Mr. I’m so serious.” I sat up all straight and proper like and then sat normal again.

His grin grew. I pointed at him, “Ha, I got you to show some sort of emotion even if it is small.”

I started moving my arms in front of my body in a circular motion, then looked at him in the eyes “I win.”

“Rin, what are you not telling me?”

“That could go both ways, I can tell that you aren’t saying something. But then again you tell no one anything. I guess I should be used to it by now, no one ever tells me anything. Besides if I told you, what would you do about it?”

Nothing he just stared off into the distance. I shrugged my shoulders and let it go. I decided to change the subject. “Your dad is nice, I like him, he seems okay.”

He takes a quick glance at me and then back at our surroundings. I look up at him, “Your mom kind of scared me a little.”

He looked down at me with a questionable look. I just shrugged and looked into the distance myself.

I do not know how long we sat there, listening to the world around us, and watching the trees blow in the wind. We heard a rustling in the trees, and soon Inu-no-taishu walked out.

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Rin’s POV

I let out a sigh of relief, knowing that it wasn’t someone tying to kill me; again. Although I am pretty sure that Lord Sesshomaru would have killed him long ago if it was someone out to get me, I hope. He did before. I looked at his father and bowed my head, as he did the same to me. He came to stand in front of Lord Sesshomaru and I.

“Father,” Lord Sesshomaru said.

“Sesshomaru,” he eyed him carefully as did Lord Sesshomaru in return.

“Should I leave so you two may have some sort of talk or something?”

Lord Sesshomaru spoke “Do as you wish.”

With that I stayed put. Soon they spoke to each other, but in a different language. I knew a few, so it took me a minute to figure out which language they were speaking. Their language which I knew, perks of being an assassin, and living with one of them for a few years. They don’t know, I know, what they are saying to each other. Hahaha, I win again. Okay time to focus.

Inu-no-taisho was saying or asking Lord Sesshomaru something about finding his mate, having someone to protect, Lord Sesshomaru responded with that he has no need for such things. I rolled my eyes, typical response. I started to tune them out when I heard my name. Something about what am I to Lord SesshomaruI focused in on what he would say. “Just a girl, that seemed to follow me.”

“Yet I hear you protected her for years, yes?”

“That is irrelevant.”

“How is it irrelevant? Just answer the question son, what is she to you?”

Lord Sesshomaru had an angry expression on his face, from being asked so many questions, and also a look of, what is it, he wants to keep something hidden. I remained how I was, pretending like I did not know what they were saying, acting like a clueless girl, until Lord Sesshomaru spoke. I lost it, after he had said it, I didn’t even think, I just reacted.

“She is a nuisance.”

I sprang to my feet and faced him. “A nuisance, really, good to know, I knew you were an ass, but I thought maybe sense you saved me so many times I was an exception. You’re an ungrateful dog.” I shouted at him, while seeing their faces, their eyes widening in surprise, realizing that I understood every word they had said to each other. I was now breathing heavily. Both from yelling and being angry with what Lord Sesshomaru had said. Lord Sesshomaru now held an expression filled with anger, shock, and I would say, if it was someone else, hurt. I also had just realized, that I had spoken in their language. I looked at Lord Sesshomaru. Speaking in their tongue again “Just leave and don’t bother to come back, its what you’re good at.” I turned around and left.

As soon as I knew that I was out of site, I ran. I ran until I reached my favorite spot near the village. It was river, the river where I washed my cloths. It was out of the village and I liked it, no one came out here, fear of being in danger, but it didn’t bother me any. I lived in danger. Once I reached the river bank I fell to my knees and cried.

I am not sure how long I stayed there, but I finally stopped crying and looked at my reflection in the water. I looked weak, like I was easy to break, in truth I was. I counted down from ten, and calmed myself down. “10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.” My mind was set, I was going to go to her, give her what she wants. Or should I run and fight, or should I go to him. I know what he is like, and honestly maybe going back to him, to them. No I would never go back, to either of them. Maybe I should stay here for a while longer, no because Inuyasha reminds me of…him….I will leave and travel on my own. But I wont be alone, I have Blaze, he is my friend. Although I will miss kit. I stood up and felt someone’s gaze one me. I soon felt heat coming from the body standing behind me, and when they touched my shoulders, it sent shivers down my spine, the good ones. “I am sorry.” Was whispered into my ears, and gentle lips touched my cheek. My eyes widened. As a tear feel from my eye, just one last silent tear.

Lord Sesshomaru’s POV

Why is he asking me all of these questions? Why cant he leave me be? Why is he so worried about knowing what Rin means to me? I do not wish for others to know just yet, I do not wish for Rin to know yet. I want her to choose, although I think she has. Father is starting to make me angry. Why does every one want to know why I did what I did? Why I protected Rin, a human child? They should leave it be, as Inuyasha and kagome had.

I was angry, and answered quickly, the answer that I would give if it was any other human, the old answer, the answer I would have given him all those many years ago. That Rin was of no importance to me, she was nuisance. Then she jumped up and yelled at me. But it was in our tongue, not hers. How, when did she learn this, how did she know this, how is this possible. There is something that she is hiding, and I wish I knew. Something has changed her, more than just what she has told me so far. I was shocked, angry, and hurt, at what she had said.

She thinks I hate her too. She wants me to leave. I must have really hurt her, but she is trying to hide it, but show it all at once. She walked off, leaving me alone with my father. I watched as she left my site, and I felt as if part of me had left me, that I had just lost part of myself, the thing that made me, me. My father was right, when you find your mate, you don’t care what they are. And I was angry with him, for loving a human. Now I understan him, she is his mate, my mother was not. I stood and faced my father. “That girl…….why do you wish to know.”

“I have my reasons, I had thought you to have grown sense I last saw you my son. I thought that maybe you have grown to feel, and not act like your mother, a cold hearted beast, that cares for no one. In truth that makes you the weakest, knowing that you have someone to protect only makes you stronger, even if you do not realize it.” He started to walk away to leave me alone. He was right. Mom cared for no one but herself, she didn’t even care much about her own son, she only liked to pretend. I meant little to her. She pushed everyone away and now she is alone and will die alone. Father told the truth, having someone to protect makes you stronger. I gives you something to fight for. I have been lieing to myself for years. My pride, and what I wish to accomplish, cannot be done without her beside me. I need a queen, and I will only have my mate as such. I will only want her. She makes me stronger.

“I have someone to protect.” I whispered, or should it even be called a whisper. I looked down at the ground. What have I done. What is happening to me. I feel different. My eyes shot up, I was alone, but I didn’t feel right. I sat back down on the log.

My thoughts went back to Rin. She does not know what to do, and she is lost. She needs help, she needs my help. This is not the first time I have hurt her. That I have hurt my mate. The one that I should protect. The one I wish to protect. The one I protected on instinct. I did not even think about it, I just went to her aid whenever she called for me. I had thought about leaving her before, when the monks tried to take her, and talk to her about how she should live in a human village. They had been right, she needed to live a human life, or so I had thought. She had told them that she was strong enough, that she could live on her own, yet she called out for me. She needed me and I needed her. I went to her aid, to allow her to make a choice. She chose to follow me, and then later I left her with kaede. Now I am back again, to see if her decision has changed. It has not, and now I have hurt her. I keep hurting her. She feels alone in this world. I looked up at the sky and stood. Walking in the direction of where Rin walked off to, and following her scent.

She was kneeling near the river bank, and she was crying. I had done this to her. She soon started to count from ten and then slowly rose from the ground. I had hurt her so, and it gave me pain, but all of it was not my own, it was hers. She had told me to leave, this is what she wanted. I will do just that, leave, but first. I will say goodbye. I ran to her silently, and stopped. Gently placing my hands on her shoulders, I could feel her stiffen. Leaning down to whisper in her ear. “I am sorry.” Kissing her cheek and then turning, and walking away, to leave her as she had asked or should I say told me to do. If she really wants to stay with me, we shall see in the future.

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