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Lauren nods but then shakes her head quickly. "But I didn't do it though." She says and Camila gives her a puzzled look. "Not then. Not when you and I were still having- having a thing or whatever."

"Wait so you didn't sleep with Lucy in Europe?" Camila asks, confused now.

"I slept with her two weeks after I got back in the States." She confesses, wiping away her tears before rushing a hand through her hair, still holding onto Camila's hand with her free one. "I- I never really cheated. I mean I kinda did.. but not when you and I were talking still so I guess it's not really- you know? I don't know if this all makes sense but in my head it kinda does.

"I- I think I kinda understand it.." Camila mumbles quietly.

"I've been thinking about everything a lot." Lauren says then, sitting up straight all of the sudden. "And Camz.. I- I understand it if you don't want to have contact with me any longer." She says. 

"Lauren, I-"

"Wait.." Lauren interups the smaller girl. "I.. I do understand it if you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore. But I can't handle not having you in my life." She says before a strange smile takes over her face and she giggles. "Which is fucking weird and yet again selfish but.. but you're my best friend too Camz.." She says. "You are my best friend and suddenly we were lovers and it all got so complicated because I wasn't in a good state and.. ughh.." She sighs. "I just hope so badly that you can forgive me and that we can just start all fresh and literally clean."

Camila giggles at the girl's last sentence, a tear rolling down her own cheek as she looks at the dark haired, tired looking girl in front of her. "Really, literally clean?" She jokes, poking the girls' cheek as she smiles at her. Lauren smiles as well, but it is only for a short time and then a frown is back on her face.

"Lauren.." Camila sighs as the other girl is still staring at her expectingly.  "You fucking tore my heart apart with the shit you did." She states. 

Lauren stares at her and then down at the table, more tears falling down. 

"But I know why you did it and I know you were struggling with that stupid addiction and that I practically only made things harder.." Camila adds then. "And I forgive you. Of course I forgive you, you idiot." She looks at the green eyed girl, who is staring at her again. She feels how multiple tears make their way down her face before she gets up and walks over to the girl, pulling her up and embracing her in the tightest hug ever. 

Lauren breathes out in relief as she completely lets herself relax in Camila's arms. "Thank you.." She whispers into her ear before placing a kiss on the girl's tear stained cheek. She then steps back slightly and brings both of her hands up to the girl's cheeks. "Is now the right time?" She asks the girl as she stares into her eyes.

"T-the right time for what?" She asks the green eyed girl while looking deeply into those emotion filled eyes that she'd missed looking into so much.

A few beeps filled both of their ears then however, completely ruining whatever moment there was between them.

"All visitors to front desk please. All visitors to front desk, visiting time is over." A loud voice blares to the speakers, making Lauren jump slightly. She rolls her eyes and let's go of Camila before running a hand through her hair. "Some other time will be the right time then." She smirks at the brown eyed girl who's cheeks turn red, now knowing what she'd meant.

"Probably." She replies, cheeks warm. "Can I come here next Friday again?"

"If your want to." Lauren replies then, shy all of the sudden. "I hate that you have to leave." She says.

"Me too." Camila replies. "But we can text right?" 

"And call on Saturdays." 

"So I'll hear your voice tomorrow?"

Lauren nods before at the clock on the wall. "You have to go Camz, or else they'll be angry."

Camila nods before stepping forward to hug the famous singer once again. "I'll miss you." She says softly into her ear. 

"I'll miss you too." Lauren replies sweetly, just as soft.

Camila is the one kissing Lauren's cheek this time before she grabs her back off the chair she'd been sitting on and turns around to walk towards the door. Lauren's cheeks are red when she turns around for one last time to wave at the girl.