Night caps

You all climb into the cars and somehow you have ended up in the back seat with bucky, *what is going on what was that in the club his breathing the eye contact* you both sit silently then your leg touches bucks its nothing just an accidental slip nothing to fret over Y/N, then you feel his hand move to your thigh *oh fuck you think that was not an accidental slip* he moves his hand further up your thigh *what is his plan just get me riled up or finger bang me in the back of a car full of our friends* you are burning up unsure what to do and then thankfully the car grounds to a halt as we have arrived back at the compound. He lifts his hand and you see a smirk on his face *twisted fuck* you jump out and walk swiftly inside, you stand waiting for the elevator when Pietro zooms up beside you before anyone else arrives "so we continuing what we didn't get finished" he asks in a hushed tone "maybe" you say quickly before hopping on the elevator you wanted to just disappear but no Pietro was a gentleman who held the elevator doors so everyone could go up together what a peach.    Everyone is chatting away as the elevator ascends it stops at the common area floor you wait to everyone gets off you don't move "you not joining for a nightcap" Steve asks you "yeah gonna change first then I'll be down" the doors close you are alone and with that, you let out a bellowing scream "FUCK!"    You run to your room you kick off your shoes and throw off your dress in frustration you walk to your closet and grab an oversized band tee and some shorts to put on "what the fuck" you keep repeating to yourself as you pace the floors then you hear a knock at your door assuming it's wanda or nat you say "it's open" only to turn and see bucky standing there.      Bucky being in your room isn't new it was a regular occurrence he is your friend, what is new was the leg grabbing and rubbing.     You look at him as he closes the door behind himself he puts his hands up in surrender "I know..." before he even finishes his sentence you go off on a tangent "what the actual fuck Barnes, what was that because the eyes in the club and your breathing when I leant into your ear yes I noticed by the way that wasn't weird enough but you wanted to up it a little by grabbing my thigh in the car what is going on in that big thick head of yours" you stop to take a breath "I know you heard what Pietro said before we went to the club did you think hell I'll try to get some of that action too or was it after the banana incident saw that and though heck she'll go down on a banana I'm sure she'll do me as well." You stop to take another breath but before you can say another word buck is holding your face ready to speak "I am sorry I know that was weird you are my friend and I shouldn't have done what I did in the car that was completely wrong but the eyes in the club you did it too, it wasn't just me to couldn't look away doll." You bite your lip trying to ground yourself bucky keeps talking "what I heard Pietro say to you kind of was a slap in the face I didn't know you two were a thing and knowing that I definitely shouldn't have done what I did in the car, and the banana thing well seeing that hearing those noises coming out of you could have turned anyone one so gotta blame biology for that" he says giving you a smile before letting go of your face.    "Me and Pietro aren't a thing we have sex that's it nothing more just friends who have sex it's something to do really," you said letting out a little giggle "the eye contact stuff I don't know what to tell you I don't know why it happened I've looked in your eyes many times before and nothing I think it might have been all the sexiness in the air," you say releasing another giggle you just then register how close buck is standing to you, you want to move to give our bodies some distance but you can't the room is silent he's looking at you, you don't want to connect his gaze there is no one here to get us out of it happening again *ah crap*        You can hear his breathing change so has yours you look up his beautiful blue eyes staring deep into your soul then he does it he grabs your face

Pressing his lips against yours you don't fight it his kiss is gentle yet passionate he wants you but he doesn't want to rush it or taint it, you open your mouth to allow him access you feel like putty in his hands he remains holding your face scared to let you go as he doesn't want the moment to end you put your arms around his neck wanting to intensify the kiss he's beginning to add pressure becoming more lust-filled he's letting you know he wants you. Then there is a knock on your door "little bird you still awake? you coming to join us for a drink" Natasha echoes from the other side of your door you push bucky away "um yeah I'll be down in a bit" you reply then hearing her footsteps fade away.      "That should not have happened" you repeat whilst pacing your floor "it's OK," bucky says in a reassuring tone "no no no it's not OK you should not have done that" panic in your voice "first you kissed me back Y/L/N you wanted that as much as I did maybe you haven't wanted it as long but you wanted it there in the moment and if Natasha hadn't of came knocking I honestly would have ripped those clothes off you and taken you right up against that wall" bucky declares, a lump catches in your throat "we should go downstairs" "that's all you have to say Y/L/N really we should go downstairs do you not want to talk about it" bucky asserts "why? Why talk about it buck it happened WE kissed you kissed me and I kissed you back but I can't lose you, Barnes, especially not over something as trivial as a kiss" you state tears forming in your eyes "who said anything about you losing me doll" he replies rubbing his hand on your cheek "stop Barnes I am so broken and you're broken and together we wouldn't get fixed. Do you know why it works with Pietro why we can have sex and nothing else no feelings to complicate it mainly because he is a teenage boy in the body of a grown man he likes fucking and then not having to cuddle me after we are separate entities their is Y/N and Pietro that fuck and Y/N and Pietro that hangout and play video games." You say these things hoping they make sense to anyone else but you "Y/L/N what happened you please tell me I want to help" bucky says his voice full of concern "it's fine don't worry about it' wiping away the tears that had formed let's go downstairs." You vocalise before walking out the door and heading to the elevator followed by bucky you ride down in silence.

*why can't you just tell him Y/N he is your friend he cares about you they all do maybe its time to be honest with them all*