Chapter 19

"That still doesn't tell me where we're going" I questioned while following Taylor to the elevator.

Does everything have to be a surprise with these boys?

Damn it I hate surprises.

Taylor let out a small chuckle as he realized my frustration.

"We're taking you girls to six flags."

"Seriously?" I know I don't seem like the type of girl to like that sort of thing seeing as how I hate big crowds and my anxiety and all, but I love amusement parks. Roller coasters are my favorite, I suppose it's the thrill it gives you that drives me or maybe it's the danger that I love so much.

"Yeah seriously"

I jumped up and down with excitement. Taylor smiled wide, obviously thrilled that I like the idea.

"Alright" he grabbed my waisted making my jumping and happy dance come to a halt. "You're gonna cause the elevator to break down" he teased.

"Are you calling me fat, Caniff?" I asked pretending to be offended.

His face dropped like my stomach will as soon as we hit these roller coasters.

"No, No, of course not. I would never call you fat."

"I know. I'm only kidding" I laughed.

He sighed a sigh of relief that I wasn't actually hurt by his choice of words.

The bell to the elevator dinged and the doors glided open.

Matt, Haley, Gilinsky, Johnson, Sammy, Dillon, Jacob, Mahogany, and one of the girls from the dance the other night all sat in a group taking up the chairs in the middle of the lobby.

"The party has arrived" Dillion announced as Taylor and I approached the group.

"Well come on. We've got to get going. The other group is probably already there by now." Matt rushed us all along.

We all piled into a large van, we were scrunched in like a can of sardines.

Thankfully the ride won't be too long.

"Turn the radio on" Jacob yelled to the driver over everyone's loud talking

She Looks So Perfect by 5SOS was playing. This is one of my favorite songs at the moment. Jacob and I began belting at the top of our lungs.

"HEYY HEYY HEYYYYAHH"

"I KNOW NOW THAT IM SO DOWN"

Taylor winked at that part and I couldn't help but laugh.

"YOUR LIPSTICK STAIN IS A WORK OF ART I GOT YOUR NAME TATTOOED IN AN ARROW HEART"

We jammed out the whole way until we saw the roller coasters in the distance and everyone started jumping and screaming with excitement.

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We rode ride after ride. Getting in as much as we could.

The boys are gone to find us girls some lunch. Mahogany, Haley, and the girl Leah, whom I've discovered is actually pretty cool, (she was Gilinsky's date for the Prom and they've gotten really close ever here lately) and I are all sitting at a picnic table waiting.

"I ship Jox so hard, Mahogany." Leah gushed causing Mahogany to turn all shades of pink and red. "What's going on with you guys anyhow?"

"The truth is I actually do have a tiny crush on him, but it's not that simple." she explained. "I'm nineteen and he's sixteen. That's kind of illegal, but we're best friends and I love him to death."

"I understand."

"What about you and Taylor?" Mahogany asked, everyone turning their attention to me, Patiently waiting for an answer that I didn't know myself.

"To be honest, I don't know. We're not official if that's what you're asking. I doubt we'll ever be." I sighed. "I mean in just 5 days we're all going our separate ways. I don't even know where I'm going after this. I don't see how we could possible make a relationship work. Hell, I'm not even sure I'm ready to take that step yet."

"Parker, you have to quit being so hard on yourself. You're not alone anymore. You were never alone. You've always had Haley, but now you've got a whole family behind you to support you and guide you. You're never gonna be happy if you can't find a way to move on from the past and you're never gonna move on if you don't allow yourself to let people in." I looked down and sighed part of me knew Mahogany was right, but at the same time she doesn't quite understand the walls I've built up.

"I know, but it's hard."

"I never said it was easy, because it's not, but I believe in you, we all believe in you and I know you can get through this with time. You're so strong, Parker." She said with a small encouraging smile on her face.

It's crazy but a piece, just a speckle, of my broken heart believed her.

Maybe things will get better.

Or maybe I'm just fooling myself. A naive girl blinded by a hopeless love.

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After us girls getting in a good chat the boys came back with their arms full of food.

"We didn't know what you girls wanted so we just got a little bit of everything." Gilinsky informed us.

We all ate our food and joked around before we knew it the mountain of food that was brought back was demolished.

"Can we go ride 'Goliath' now?" I asked eagerly. "By the time we walk over there and stand in line all of our food should be settled."

"Okay. Okay. Come on." Taylor groaned getting up to throw away our trash.

We walked in a group to the ride. It was a rather long walk seeing as how it was on the other side of the park.

"I've lost 10lbs from all this walking." Leah complained.

"My legs are gonna be sore as hell tomorrow that's for sure." Haley agreed.

"Quit complaining lazies it's worth it" I teased as we lined up in the back of line.

There were two girls standing in front of us and by the looks on their faces they knew exactly who the boys are.

"Oh. My. God. You're the MagCon guys." The girl on the right gushed. She was cute. She was probably about 15 or 16 years old. She had long blonde hair, she was short and petite. Her eyes were a dashing shade of green and there was freckles across her cheeks and the bridge of her nose.

"Can we get a picture with you guys?" the other girl asked. She was even prettier than the other girl, she had long curly light brown hair, blue eyes, she was short, but still taller than her friend and she was skinny, really skinny, she looked like a Victoria Secret model, but I don't know something about her was off. I have this thing about vibes, I get this bad vibe from her that makes me uneasy and on edge, and my instincts usually never fail me.

While I firmly believe never judge a book by its cover, I also believe that you should always go with your gut instinct.

"Of course, beautiful." Taylor answered the girl.

That would've bothered most girls, but not me. I can't let it bother me, he still has a fan base of over a million girls. It wouldn't be fair of me to get jealous of a fan.

I used to be that girl, who would do anything to be in the same room as her idol. Even if we start dating, I want him to be kind to his fans and show them the love they deserve. A lot of celebrities seem to forget that it's that fans that got them to the top, they would be nothing with out their fan base.

It's the fans that stay up all hours voting, it's the fans that save up all their money to go to concerts and events, or buy merch, or records, or in MagCons case, spend all hours watching vines and YouTube videos, revining, liking, sharing, tweeting, commenting.

Most people only meet their idols once, You should make it one they won't forget. Fangirls dedicate ninety eight percent of their lives revolved around their idols, wether that's spending all their time on twitter tweeting you with only a slither of hope that maybe you'll see them and respond, or traveling across the country just to have the opportunity to hug you and say thank you.

Fangirls are so misunderstood.

So I don't get jealous or let little things upset me like that. I understand these girls, I used to be that girl, part of me still is.

The Fangirl life isn't one you chose, It chooses you.

The girls had taken pictures with all of the guys and got back to their spot in front of us.

Everyone seemed to be engaged in a conversation, including Taylor, while I stood here dazed off into space with nothing but my thoughts.

The brown haired girl turned around and faced me directly.

"You're Parker right?" she asked. Wow! people actually know me. That's pretty crazy. Part of me went warm and fuzzy on the inside, but not a moment too soon. I nodded answering the girls previous question.

"Are you and Taylor dating?"

"No we aren't."

"Good, you don't deserve him. You're ugly a fuck. I didn't believe the rumor for a second. Taylor would never date a girl like you."

"Oh what do you mean a girl like me? you don't know the first damn thing about me." My voice rising, everyone's attention was now on us. My blood was boiling red hot. I could strangle her right here.

"You're pathetic. How you ran in front of that car just to get the boys attention. Your own dad committed suicide to get away from you and your mother doesn't want a damn thing to do with you. It's sad really I feel bad for you." She said in a sarcastic sympathetic tone

"Save your pity for someone who needs it. I feel sorry for you. I don't have to talk shit about others just to feel the slightest bit better about myself, I'm not so insecure."

Taylor took a step closer to me so that he was now by my side, he placed my hand in his and intertwined our fingers in the process making me relax a little calming my temper.

I followed the girls gaze to our fingers and gave her a little smirk.

"While I may not deserve him, I have him"

Her mouth opened wide with shock.

"Close your mouth deary. You'll catch flies." I smiled.

She flipped her hair and sent me a death glare before leaving the line, her friend following closely behind her.

I sighed slightly to myself, proud of the way I stood up for myself.

I looked up to Taylor and he let out a loud laugh before placing a peck on my lips.

"Damn Parker. So sassy. I love it." Sammy giggled.

"I didn't know she had that in her." Haley replied.

"That's my girl." Taylor smiled and kissed my cheek and I hugged myself closer to him, nuzzling my face into the crook of his neck. I left a soft kiss on his neck and I felt his body tense around me as he let out a low groan just loud enough for me to hear. "

I didn't know I had that in me either, but when Taylor took my hand it gave me a sort of confidence that I've never felt before.

It like with him all of my insecurities just slip away.

It's him.

All him.

I would be nothing without him.

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