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Chloé POV___________

I feel like the ride home is taking forever. It might be because me and Draco are not talking at all, no one has said a single word the whole time. We're just sitting on our seats, looking outside the window and trying not to make our eyes meet. It's so annoying, after all we've been through.

We've just passed through the borders of England, that means another hour is before us. It's cloudy and dark outside, the sky is weeping just like I should, but for some strange reason, I'm not. My eyes are completely dry and Draco's too. I'm trying to think of anything else, but it's hard with him sitting in front of me.

I understand him. I do. I'd do the same if he was in danger. But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. It hurts a lot to know we can't be together anymore, not even in a secret. I got so used to having him around every time I needed something, or when I was just sad. It's all about to change, my life is about to change. 

My life. I haven't thought of it until now.

If the Death eaters are coming for me, there's no place to hide. Draco is in such a difficult position, I truly pity him.

I don't know what's gonna happen to me now. Am I really willing to let them ruin Beauxbatons because of my love for Draco? Is love really that strong?

God, this silence is killing me. I can't stand it anymore, why aren't we talking? We can still be friends, can't we?

Suddenly, my head started spinning out of nothing. I feel like thousands of needles are pinning into the skin on my head, I had to let out a painful grunt.

What is happening to me?!

"Aghhh..." I groaned and grabbed my head with both of my hands, trying to stop the pain, but unsuccessfully.

"What's the matter?" Asked Draco worriedly, for the first time he spoke.

The world in front of me started to black out, it's twitching and blinking and my head is about to explode from the pressure.

Show me your school and nothing will happen to you...

It's a strange voice, I've never heard it before.

Just this one thing, and you'll have a long, happy life...

I think it's only talking in my head, but how can a stranger's voice even be in my head?

What the fuck is happening to me?!

"Chloé?!" Shouted Draco, after which I quickly opened my eyes and saw him.

The voice immediately disappeared just like the pain and spinning.

"I'm...um...nothing, just a headache." I stuttered and looked down to the floor.

"It didn't look like a headache..." he mumbled.

I have no idea what just happened to me, but I'm glad it's gone.

I have to get out.

"I'm going for a walk." I said and stood up from the seat.

Draco just nodded his head and turned away. I closed the door our the coupe and made a few steps towards the window. I made sure Draco can't see me and opened the window. It was stuck, so I used the alohomora spell. A fresh icy air flew inside, I inhaled it and closed me eyes.

So it's true then. They're really coming for me.

God, what am I even supposed to do?

I can't just let all students and teachers at Beauxbatons die. It's just too much to ask. What about my friends, my favorite teachers? What about other children that got their acceptance letter to Bauxbatons, but will never be able to attend the school because of me? Because I decided to let it down for what? For my miserable life?

My life versus thousands of others.

Why can't somebody else do it? Why does it have to be me?

God, this is so hard.

And Draco, my Draco...what will happen to him if I don't do it? The Dark lord wouldn't kill him, right?

Or would he?

I have so many questions, but no answers.

The train started slowing down, which means we're probably close. I inhaled the fresh air for the last time and closed the window.

"Chloé, come pack your stuff." Said Draco, who's standing in a narrow corridor between coupes.

"Coming..." I mumbled and got back to our coupe.

"You okay?" He asked me and for the first time, our eyes met.

"Draco..."

"Don't...we can't." He sighed and closed his eyes for a while.

"I'm scared..."

His cold hand landed on my knee, a thousands of goosebumps instantly spread to my body.

"Me too, me too...you have to do the right thing."

With that, the train stopped in Hogwarts small station.

How did we get from the passionate sex in the coupe into this?

Later

While unpacking my clothes, I found a picture frame with me and Draco by our garden, both smiling at each other, holding hands. It must have been my mom who put the photo into my suitcase, no one other.

I put the photo into my drawer under clothes and wiped the few tears that appeared in my eyes.

Since I can't be with Draco anymore and I don't exactly have friends that I could talk to, I decided to wander around the castle. It's Sunday evening, everyone's probably in their dorms or common rooms.

What am I supposed to do now?

I have no one to talk to. Fred has been acting weird lately, so I'm not sure if I wanna see him. And Cedric...

Cedric and I had a nice thing going on until the fight. I haven't seen him after the night I visited him in the hospital wing. He obviously wanted to be something more than friends and looked hurt when I declined it. That's why I thought it would be a good idea to not show myself to him for a while, so he it's easier for him to forget about me.

"Chloé, hi!" Someone shouted at me from behind, it almost scared me to death.

I quickly looked who it is.

Speaking of the devil...

"Hi, Cedric." I raised the corners of my mouth, but the smile quickly faded after I noticed he's holding hands with some girl.

"Uh, this is Hannah." Stuttered Cedric and pointed at the girl next to him. She gave me a long stare from up and down.

"Hi..." we said both.

Can this get even more awkward?

Since when does he have a girlfriend? I mean...good for him, but...

"Uhh, I wanted to ask you...do you have umm...the herb?"

I didn't know why I just asked that, but I thought it'd be nice.

"Wait here..." said Cedric to his girlfriend and came closer to me, leaving her behind him so she doesn't hear us.

"What's going on?" He asked worriedly.

"I just...I could really use it right now." I said and looked into his eyes.

I can't believe we kissed. It feels like a thousand years ago.

"Alone? Did something happen?"

"Well-"

"Did he hurt you? Draco?"

"What? No! We broke up..." I replied.

"Oh...so that's why."

"So do you have it?"

He sighed and reached his hand into his back pocket on his trousers. After a while of searching, he took out a joint and handed it to me.

"Be careful."

"I will, thanks." I said and quickly walked out of this corridor.