- Chapter 4 -

After a few minutes, I slow down my pace to a walking one. I have calmed down a bit, walking really helps me clear my mind. I still can't believe this though. Some anger is still flooding through my veins. I really want to punch something. I'd better not though. I don't want to let my anger show or give him any more reason to expel me. 

I've been walking around the castle for a couple of minutes, debating whether to go to my dorm or not when I run into Harry potter. The tall boy has stopped in front of me and is looking down to face me. He is looking at me through his small round glasses. The scar is barely visible under his brown bush of hair.

I have a pretty solid relationship with Harry. I like him, he is not so bad as the rest. I like how quiet he is compared to others. He is highly adored by my father; Sirius Black. Sirius clearly thinks he is talking to James when it is in fact Harry but no one dares to mention it, afraid he might crack. I have to admit, his life mustn't have been easy. 

"Hey Eva, where are you going?" He asks.

"Nowhere special, just  wandering about, what about you?" I ask him while trying to look past him. Thank god the corridor seems deserted, I don't want to run into anyone else today.

"Oh Uhm, just going somewhere, nothing important," He says, I can clearly see he is lying though. He is a terrible liar, always has been.

I look at him suspiciously. "Okay, well have fun then Harry," I turn to make my way past him.

"Uhm btw Eva, I don't know if you'd want to know but I'll say it anyway." I stop abruptly in my tracks. I can hear he is quite uncomfortable telling me whatever it is. "Sirius has sent me a letter. He says he is fine and nothing pretty much has happened at the house, I thought you might want to know," I still stand with my back towards him and don't dare to turn around. His words hit me like a truck.

For a moment I'm lost for words "Okay thanks Harry," I say after a few seconds, not looking at him. I quickly continue walking again. I have to get away from here as fast as possible.

Sirius is my dad, but ever since I was sorted into Slytherin he has basically disowned me, I think he associates me with the rest of his family too much, thinks I'm like them. I usually don't get letters from him, basically never actually. I have lived with Remus ever since he was sent to Azkaban which was probably for the best. Our first few years together were great though, as far as I can remember. He actually loved me.

Now everything is different. I hate him as much as he hates me, after everything he has done to me I have no way of forgiving him. Still, it hurts to hear that he has been writing to Harry about almost everything that has been going on. I don't get anything, no letter, no information not even from Remus. It hurts.

I try to ignore it as I walk further. I make my way towards my dorm, I have absolutely no desire to return to my classes after what happened.

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It's a few hours later and I just exited the dungeons and am on my way to the great hall for dinner. I would have rather stayed in bed but Lola practically promised to murder me did I not come. I love her determination.

I'm getting close and I can already hear a lot of chattering. I love being in the great hall normally. I love the sound of life behind me while I'm doing my homework or when I'm reading a book. It's like I don't exist, I'm invisible but still, I feel involved, happy. That feeling isn't present today though.

I turn into the great hall and walk straight to the seat Lola has saved for me. I notice that Malfoy isn't here. Crabbe and Goyle avoid my gaze when I walk past them.

I take my seat next to Lola, who noticed the way Crabbe and Goyle acted just then.

"Eva, is there anything you'd like to tell me?" She asks, her eyebrows raised. She's giving me her 'What have you done now' look. I have come quite familiar with that look over the years.

I casually start putting food on my plate, not looking at her. "No, I don't think so," I say.

"Then why are Crabbe and Goyle very obviously avoiding your gaze? It's almost as if they're afraid of you," She says. She has continued on with her food.

"Hmm weird," I respond, not taking my gaze from my food. I only now notice how hungry I am. I can see her giving me a curious look before returning the conversation with the people sitting in front of us: Aris Carmichael and Pete Harding. Two boys from our year with whom we sometimes hang out, Lola more than me though. I like them fine though, they are one of the few people who are actually nice to me or dare speak to me for that matter. 

After having finished my food I finally take in my surroundings. Some students have already left but most are still chatting. The food will be taken away soon. From the corner of my eye, I notice Snape getting up from his chair. He is coming this way.

Just when he has reached me, he stops. He turns to look at me.

I look up at him expectantly, I knew I couldn't have heard the last of it. Maybe he will tell me my punishment, or maybe he is here to tell me to meet him in his office so he can expel me. All sorts of punishments go through my head when I hear him clear his throat. I quickly look up to meet his eyes. I'd drifted off again, I tend to do that a lot.

I can see Lola giving us a curious look from the corner of my eye.

"I expect you to come to my office tomorrow at 8 for your detention, and don't be late Ms. Black," He states. Before I can say anything back he has already left.

I sigh and turn my head to look at Lola, I am not looking forward to what is coming now.

"Care to explain?"

She does not look happy. I give her my most pleading smile. One that says: I just made a little mistake, not my fault. She knows exactly what it means, I have probably used it on her a thousand times already by now.

She sighs.

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I know..., I'm taking this slow but things will happen soon enough you'll just have to keep reading, won't you;) Hope you enjoyed! please leave a comment or vote if you enjoyed it, I would appreciate it.  I'm currently working on chapter 14, but I'm nothing near finished so I hope to write a total of around 20/25 chapters for this book in total:) so stay tuned!

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