Chapter 35

Chapter 34 Summary:

Kai gets raped and a video of her rape was posted by her raper on the internet. That's pretty much it lol. 

HARRY'S POV

I lay in bed motionless for a couple of hours. I can't believe I ruined it. I ruined whatever me and Kai had and honestly I never felt more dead. Whatever sliver of hope of me ever getting her back is gone because she isn't answering her phone. I knew I made a mistake but in my defense I was drunk and I wasn't thinking clearly. But still, that's no excuse for me hurting her. I messed up big time and I was aware of that.

I screamed out loud in frustration. 

I messed up EVERYTHING. I fell for Kai hard and I can't believe I threw it all away. I only remember bits and pieces from the night I cheated on her, but I knew it happened due to pictures in all the tabloids. Pictures of me and that stranger of a girl kissing is plastered on every newstand around the world. Kai obviously had seen it, there was no doubt in my mind she hadn't. I didn't even plan on cheating, it's the drinking that got me to do it but I shouldn't blame it on anything. I take full responsibility. I just wish she knew that.

The fact that she isn't answering her phone isn't making it any better. I knew I didn't deserve one but I wish she gave me a chance to explain. Just a minute, that's all I needed. I knew I messed up and I didn't need anyone to remind me, I just wanted Kai. And it isn't helping that we are on tour, so I can't even go see her.

I heard a knock on my door that caused me to jump. Who is up at... I turned to look at my clock. Three in the morning? I heard it again.

"Yeah come in." I called. I got scared of my voice, I sounded like a demon.

The door open to show Paul standing in the doorway. He looked nervous or upset. I couldn't really put my finger on it. Whatever expression it was, it wasn't good.

"Harry, I have something to show you." He said.

I didn't even notice that he was carrying a laptop in his arms. By the tone of his voice, I figured I didn't want to know. 

"I don't know how you will react to this, but please Harry, whatever you do try and remain calm." Paul warned his voice cracking.

I gulped, what is it? I nodded as he walked over with the laptop. He placed it in front of me and it was on full screen of just a black screen. I knew it was a video because of the play button that was centered on the screen. Paul sat on the bed so he couldn't see the screen. 

"If it's too much for you, you don't have to watch it." Paul said barely in a whisper.

I didn't know if I wanted to see this. What was it going to be? Did Kai cheat on me? Oh god I hope not. Maybe I deserve it. Unwillingly I took the laptop in my lap and hit play.

The video began but the screen was still black. The video began and it was a man blocking the view of whatever he was standing in front of. What the hell? I waited for the video to continue and the man starts to undress.

"What the hell Paul?" I asked looking up at him.

He shook his head as if saying no and he looked down at his hands. It seemed as if he was telling me to wait. I turned back to the screen and the man moved over to his bed. Some girl was laying in it and her feet were tied up and her arms were too. I couldn't see her face because she looked the other way. She was fully unclothed and she just lay there. I wasn't sure why Paul was showing me what appeared to be... porn? 

He walked over to her and whispered something in her ear. He then backed away and climbed on top of her. Okay now I was really unsure of what Paul was showing me. Then my heart dropped to my stomach when she turned her face to the camera. 

It was Kai.

He began to kiss her lips sloppily and he had his filthy hands all over her damn body. Anger boiled inside me like no over. Rage was an understatement. I felt tears being poured out of my eyes like mini people stood at the edge dropping bucket fulls of water out of my eyes. 

I continued to watch her get raped by him. She didn't even fight back. She looked disgusted, abused, frightened, dead, misery, alone. She was being fucking raped in front of my eyes. She was tied against her will, and I saw a tear slither down her cheek. 

If steam wasn't coming out of my ears then I don't know what was. I began to sob at the sight of Kai being hurt. I wasn't there to protect her. She was alone, and this was happening to her. I promised her nothing would ever hurt her ever again. She was raped once, and I was too late. Now she was being raped again, and I was too late.

I wish I could just reach out on the screen and murder the guy. The guy was disgusting but the things he did to her were worse. I grabbed the laptop and threw it across the room where it hit the wall.

"Harry-" Paul started.

"WHERE THE HELL IS SHE?!" I yelled.

I didn't know what to say. Where was she? Was she okay? Obviously not. What happened? Is she still being held captive by that devil of a man? I had so many questions running through my head that I had no idea what to do or ask first. My actions were just spilling out, I had no control.

I paced around the room while Paul tried to calm me.

"Harry, we already have people looking for her. Apparently she went to have a drink two nights ago. The bartender saw her pass out but someone craddled her and took her away. He thought he was a friend of hers so he didn't say anything." Paul explained.

Anger was streaming through my blood as I had an urge to hit something. I collided my fist with my wall and it caused a hole. I continued to bang on the wall and despite the pain that went through my fist I didn't stop. Eventually I just lost it and crumbled to the floor just weeping.

This was all my fault. Everything was my fucking fault. She was raped, not once, but twice. Both times I could've prevented it. Hell, the second time I caused it! This very second Kai was being held somewhere. This very second she was being hurt. This very second she was scared. This very fucking second she was alone. 

I felt Paul begin to rub circles in my back. I smacked his hand away as the anger built itself right back up. 

"I NEED TO FIND HER!" I spit.

"Shh Harry, we sent out rescue teams to look for her. They are trying to track down where the video was uploaded from. I already have a plane ready for us to take us back to her town in four hours. The tour is on pause for right now. I'm not really sure when everything will be back to normal but-"

"NOTHING WILL BE NORMAL EVER AGAIN. DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND? I FUCKING PROMISED HER PAUL. I PROMISED SHE WOULD BE SAFE AND SHE WOULD NEVER HAVE TO WORRY EVER AGAIN. I TOLD HER. SHE BELIEVED ME. YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!" I choked, "I CAUSED HER THE PAIN. SHE WAS DRINKING BECAUSE OF ME. SHE BLACKED OUT BECAUSE OF ME. ME. ME. ME! IT'S ALL MY FAULT AND NOW WE DON'T KNOW WHERE THE HELL SHE IS!" I screamed. My voice was now hoarse from all the screaming.

"Me." I whispered as my voice cracked.

KAI'S POV

Two days. That's how long I've been here. Not that long but it feels longer. It feels like an eternity. I've been beaten. I've been beaten to the point where I just want it all to end.

The camera the man positioned in the room I was locked up in remained in the corner. He kept it on record at all times because he wants to make sure I don't try and leave. While he raped me he found my hands untied. Instead of using rope he handcuffed me to the headboard. Now I had no hope of escaping. I just needed to toughen it out. I would wait for my fate. Whether it be death or the hospital. There's only one you could say I'm excited for. Death.

I've never been so depressed to the point where I want to die. I always strived to stay alive even when times got tough. But now it was no use. I was going to start my life over again, but right when my chance was being thrown at me, it knocked me down. I can't get back up. I can't start over. Who was I kidding? I was messed up from an early age. There was no hope in my life any longer. My future lay ahead of me, and it was almost the end. I would kill myself if I could. If I ever had the chance, I would kill myself. I would take the opportunity as if it was a gift from god. Like it would be a way out. A shortcut.

I didn't even notice him walk in. I didn't notice anything anymore really.

"So it seems like you are a girlfriend of a very famous boy... Kai." He sneered.

I didn't even bother telling him that we were long over. But it doesn't matter because I don't give a shit.

"I'm not very happy with that Kai. It's going to be harder to keep us hidden and it looks like we are already being looked for. That's not good. So it seems that we are going to have to leave."

If we have to leave, so be it. I stopped trying a long time ago. 

(AN: I know two chapters in one day, love me! :) Haha just kidding, anyways I hope you guys leave me some comments because you know I love receiving them! Please please please! And leave predictions down below! Are you happy with me? Lol -a)