Chapter 15 Moments

AN: Okay so someone said in the comments they were listening to moments while reading the other chappy so oh my god, I did with this one and I dedicate this chapter to the song Moments by One Direction. I don't ever really name my chapter but I'll let it slide this time. & If you think this story is over you better re think that! ;)

KAI'S POV

Wow, this is really the end. I never really thought what the end would be be like, not like this. Maybe forty years from now in a nursing home, feeling the days wither away. Just waiting for the heart monitor to stop.  I didn't expect to be eighteen alone on an island.  My breathing began to slow down as I was slowely beginning to except the fact that I was ready to die. I felt my legs give out and fell to the ground. It was no use, I truly did try. I did try, and there was nothing else to do but wait. What better time to reevaluate my life. Did I accomplish everything I would've liked to? In that moment I realized, no I did not. I didn't have a single kid, didn't graduate, didn't have a house, I'm not married and I didn't get to see my grandchildren. Basically my goal in life was to have a perfect life, a perfect family and everything you see in the movies. I then figured out, life is nothing like the movies. Everything happens for a reason and on the bright side, I am getting reunited with my parents. I began to say my wishes to everyone that has done me good. 

"Thank you mom. Thank you dad. Thank you..." I slowly let out.

Who else did I have to thank? God of course, but that's it. There was no one else in my life to thank. Then a thought occured, that was all I ever known. My parents. Everything else in life had sucked and I began to cry. My life was a waste, I was a waste of space and no one loved me. I was ridicuous and in that moment I realized there was nothing more I wanted but to be dead. It would save me a lot of suffering and emotional trauma. Right now I was in the worst yet the best of moods. The worst considering all the excruiciating pain and suffering I'm in but the best because I know I will soon be out of it and reunited with my parents. I sniffeled and a memory flashed in my mind. Harry. 

I had the sense Harry did care about me. I felt so safe around him and so protected. Like nothing could harm me, he promised he would never let anything hurt me. He promised. That must be a lesson, don't ever trust anyone. No matter how much they want to keep their promise, nothing is ever for certain. Harry didn't mean for this to happen, so I didn't blame him. Afterall I was the one who got myself into this, so no, I was not upset with Harry in the slightest. I was actually grateful for him. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have lasted as long as I did. He gave me the smallest sliver of happiness left to my name. Even though I've only known him for five days at the most, he still gave me happiness. That boy Harry, everything about him seemed perfect. I wish I got to know him better, I wish I met his family, all his friends and ask what he plans to be when he's older. I wish I knew and I realized that was the only regret from my life. Before I die, I want to know more about Harry. Sometimes we can't always achieve our goals, that's life but I just wish I had more time to get to know the curly haired boy who saved me. 

My eyelids grew heavier and I knew who was going to win this battle. My eyelids always eventually won. Goodbye world, goodbye mom, goodbye dad, goodbye Harry. I felt my eyes win for the very last time. And in this moment, I will never forget the boy who saved me.

ITS NOT DONE YET. :) CONTINUE NOW  (that should've foreshadowed something)

HARRY'S POV

I plunged into the icey cold water. I swam as fast as I again forgetting that there was a boat behind me and forgetting all the risks I just took. I felt like I found something I was looking for, for a million years. As I dawned closer I knew for sure it was Kai.

"KAI!" I screamed.

No reply. 

She was laying down, maybe sleeping? Relaxing? I thought of the worst but pushed it out of my head, there was no way she was dead. I kept swimming and eventually I felt my feet touch the bottom. The sand. I started pushing off the bottom and kicked my way to shore and ran up to Kai. She looked horrible. She was pale white, her mouth was slightly open, her hair was all matted, it looked like everything has been sucked out of her. I wanted to crumple to the floor. I leaned over her and whispered,

"Kai...?"

No reply.

"Kai." I said a bit louder.

No reply.

"Kai!" 

No reply.

"KAI!"

No reply. 

I knew I shouldn't do this for health reasons but I shook her. I couldn't help it. 

"KAI!!' I screamed

Before I knew it I was crying. Kai why Kai? My tears were falling like a leaky faucet. I lost her and there was no going back. I fucking lost her and it was all my fault. Maybe if I decided to come a bit earlier, then I would've just... Maybe I could've... DAMN! I sobbed into her chest with no means of leaving. 

***

I paced back and forth throughout the hospital waiting room. Kai was in there for a while. I wasn't sure if she was dead, they wouldn't tell me anything yet. I hated hospitals, they reminded of the dead and it smelt too much like doctors. I sat back down in a chair and stood back up right away. I couldn't keep still. I can't anymore. I began to cry again, and eventually I gave in and sat down. I leaned foward into my chair and put my head into my hands. What have I done? I sobbed until I cried everything away. Then I realized something, I was exhausted. The chairs had bars so I didn't give a crap. I fell asleep on the floor. 

***

"Harry Styles?"

I immediately woke up and stared at the doctor. I awaited for an answer and I waited this long, this was the moment of truth. I would find out whether she was dead. If she was alive. Whatever happens, I know it was because of me. My mouth was dry as I tried to speak so i just nodded. 

"She isn't awake, she is currently in a coma. We aren't sure how long this can last, it can be anywhere from a month to never waking up. There's no guarantee she will wake up with her memory if she is to wake up. Sorry. You can visit with her if you'd like."

My heart dropped to the floor. If she were to wake up she wouldn't remember. It wouldn't be that bad would it? I mean she didn't really know me first off, and then she wouldn't remember all the pain she went through. I would still think it to be bad for her and I would be kind of upset if she didn't remember me but all I could think of was, IF she woke up. I followed the doctor to her room and he opened the door. There she was. She was cleaned off and peacefully in a coma. No worries, just rest. I walked over to her and sat down. I took her hand in mine and began to cry a bit. It was my fault. I began to sing;

AN: LISTEN TO MOMENTS WITH THIS!

"Shut the door, turn the light off

I wanna be with you, I wanna feel your love

I wanna lay beside you, I cannot hide this

Even though I try."

My bottom lip trembled.

"Heart beats harder, time escapes me

tembling hands touch skin, it makes this harder...

and the tears stream down my face...

If we could only have this life for one more day...

If we could only turn back time..

You know I'd be your life, your voice, your reason to be...

My love, my heart is breathing for this,

moment in time, I'll find the words to say... before you leave me today."

I gulped and continued,

" Close the door, throw the key..

Don't wanna be reminded, dont wanna be seen.

Don't wanna be without you, my judgements clouded

like tonight's sky.

Hands are silents, voices numb

try to scream out my lungs,

it makes this, harder...

and the tears stream, down my face...

If we could only have this life for one more day,

if we could only turn back time

You know I'll be your life your voice your reason to be,

my love my heart is breathing for this

moment in time I'll find the words to say...

before you leave me today.

Flashing lights in my mind, going back to the time,

playing games in the street, kicking balls at my feet.

Dancing on with my toes, standing close to the edge, there's a pile of my clothes at the end of your bed

when I feel myself fall, make a joke of it all...."

I couldn't continue, a tear rolled down my cheek. I rubbed her hands with the back of my thumbs.

"If we could only turn back time..." i whispered...

AN: EEEEK I REPEAT THIS IS NOT THE END OF COURSE NOT LUNATICS. How can this ALREADY be the end, i have ALOT more in store >:) Vote, comment, plus add this to your library! LOVE YOU! :)