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"Good morning babygirl," the first thing I heard when I opened my eyes in the morning.

"Good morning," I mumbled into Changbin's neck.

"Can you tell me why you were crying last night?" he asked when our eyes met.

"I don't want to talk about that."

"But why?"

"It's not important."

"You couldn't even breathe, I know that no means no and when you don't want to have sex with me it's okay, but why were you crying?"

"I-uhm, I just miss my parents and I just wish you'd met them, my dad would've love you and my mom would've cook just for you everytime you'd come over," I said, technically it wasn't lie and I really wanted them to meet him, but it's not why I was crying yesterday.

"Oh babe," he said, pulling me closer to him, "I'm so sorry."

"It's okay. Just don't worry about it, just enjoy yourself," I said to him and he just kissed my forehead.

Next stop for the was in Melbourne, the bus drive from Sydney to Melbourne would've took around 10 hours and even when we had the bus available for travelling all day to the other side of the coast, the management decided that would be easier for us to took a 1,5 hour flight so the boys should rest more in the hotel and prepare for the next day.

"I think I'm gonna use a bathroom," I said to Changbin, when I stopped the video we were watching on his phone, already on the plane. Changbin would totally ask me if he can join for, of course, pleasure entertainment, but after I told no to him, he doesn't even want to touch me beside my hands and face.I think I fell in love with him even more.

"Sure," he said with a smile on his face and stood up so I can go.

I was slowly approaching the bathroom when my eyes met the black one on the end of the alley, just couple seats from bathroom. I quickly looked away and got in.

I was slowly breathing in and out, trying to focus that Changbin is just there, he would help me right away. He's just there.

My thoughts immediately dissapeared when I heard soft knock on the door.

"Just a second," I said and slowly opened the door, but I wished I stayed in forever.

"I need to use the bathroom, get out," the very annoying voice spoke. I get out of this way but he stopped his lips next to my ear again, "I'm excited for tomorrow kitten," he said and shut the door behind me, letting my heart sink into my stomach.

I sat next to Changbin, trying to forget the words that fucker told me just seconds ago.

"Everything's good?" he asked when he looked at me. I hate how he can do this all the time.

"Yes," I said and put the most fake smile I could and it worked.

"Okay," he said and grabbed my hand again, resting his head on my shoulder.

When we get out of plane it was already about 2pm.

When we got to the hotel at around 3pm we took a shower and layed into the bed, even when others went to the city in the afternoon to enjoy the view, we stayed in and watch movies all day till we fell asleep.

I woke up first, cleaned my face and changed my clothes and Changbin was still sleeping, I cuddled next to him but I decided it would be better idea to go to Hyunjin and Felix's room, because my thoughts couldn't be alone, even if he was sleeping next to me.

I softly knocked on the door and I heard response right away.

"No we don't want any more strawberries," I heard Hyunjin's cute english accent.

I opened the door and see Hyunjin's angry face.

"What?" I chuckled.

"We just wanted champagne and strawberries because they said it's on the hotel but then they wanted to charge us for more," he said, smile appearing on his lips.

"Where's Felix?"

"I don't kno-"

"Chan hyung had sex!" Jisung flew into the door.

The dramatic face Hyunjin gave me was the funniest thing I saw in months.

"Let's go," he jumped out of bed, I followed him through the door.

"I woke up everyone this is insane!"

"We're in the hotel shut up-" Changbin said when he appeared behind me.

"Hi," I said and put a small kiss on his lips.

When we entered Chan's room Felix, Minho, Seungmin and Jeongin were already there.

"Can we all calm down?" Chan said, standing topless in the corner of his hotel room, hickeys all over his chest.

I closed the door behind us and we were all looking at him, waiting for his explanation.

"Hey! Give me the shirt you undress me from!" Chain shouted at Minho.

"Tell us right now and don't scream at my boyfriend," Jisung insisted.

"W-we were out yesterday, you know, and I met her at that little pier close to that beach we were at, and I-I know her from childhood and s-she was my first kiss when we were still going to school, and we lost contact because she moved in h-here and and I gave her my number and I invited her here and one thing lead to another and we slept together," he said, stuttering many times during his explanation.

"Our Channie hyung is not a virgin anymore," Jeongin chuckled and everyone joined.

"How you know?" Chan asked and immediately looked at Felix.

Felix was quick enough to hide behind the Changbin. He was probably the one who didn't keep this secret.

"You're not a little baby anymore," Changbin chuckled too but whole room just turned to face him.

"Don't act like Minji isn't your first sex experience," Chan said and whole room started laughing except me. I was surprised.

"For real?" I asked and the laugher was even louder.

"Yes," Changbin whispered, "but let's not forget what Chan did," Changbin changed the topic and all the faces turned to Chan again. This is my favorite things to witness. All of them making fun of each other but the fun that doesn't harm anyone. Because they love each other.

"But she isn't a stranger and I think we will keep in touch I don't want to ghost her it was amazing. She was so cute and cari-" he explained but his friends stop him.

"Okay okay okay bye," Jisung said and all of them left the room without any other words. I left standing there alone.

"It's really nice of you that you want to keep in touch," I smiled at him.

"Thank you," he chuckled.

"And thank you that you told Akuma what you told him. I just was lost and he promised he'd show me the way and he just ran away," I explained with my lie.

"No problem. Just be careful around him. He isn't very..I don't know. Just be careful. I know what I'm talking about," he said but I didn't want him to stop talking. I wanted know more.

"Okay, thank you," I said and left the room going back to Changbin.

"You were a virgin?" I asked when I layed down next to him.

"Yes," he said confidently.

"I don't believe it. You knew exactly what you were doing our first time," I said shocked.

"Really," he chuckled, "I never met someone who I can trust with stuff like that and I didn't want one night stand. Also we had dating ban so that wasn't possible," he explained and everything made sense.

"That's so cute," I said and snuggled onto him. Never suspected someone with that appearance having no experience with women.

It was already evening when we entered the arena. I couldn't see Akuma yet but I think that was his plan. Not be seen and appear like a ghost from one second to another and I was sure about it. Because that's what he did again.

"Shut up," he said when he put his hand on my mouth from behind and pulled me away from staff members I was following throught the hallway.

He pulled me into the one of the empty rooms full of old hangers, chairs, boxes and lamps.

"What the fuck do you want now?" I said when I aggressively get of his grip.

"You," he said and grabbed the lem of my t-shirt.

"I want you," he repeated and pushed me against the door. His lips were just inches from mine.

"But I don't. Find someone else," I said, really trying to push my head more against the door even through the pain, so our lips won't touch.

"I want to ruin your little fragile body and make you beg for me. Admit it. You want to be fucked so bad," he said and place on of his hand on my waist tightly.

I want to say something but he licked my lips.

I tried to get out of his grip but he grabbed my waist tighter.

"I'll let you go now I have to work, but you should prepare yourself for later," he said angrily.

"No," I said but he grabbed my neck.

"You will do what I tell you or else your fuck boy ended in the music industry. Besides that, he can't do anything else just to be a fucking clown on the stage," he said but I slapped him so hard I thought my hand is broken for the couple of seconds.

"You like it rough? Get the fuck out," he said, his mood changed from one second to another, he opened the door and pushed me away which made me fall onto the floor.

I quickly get out and wiped my tears from my face. I ran through the hallways and I stopped next to the big stage where boys had their soundcheck at the moment.

I could see Changbin's smile when he was talking to Hyunjin. He was laughing so hard, he has that smile that can light up the room. He is everything I ever wanted.

"My beautiful girlfriend," he said into the mic. It was heard through the big arena.

I stepped on the stage and they all started playfully cheering for me.

"This is insane," I said looking around.

"I know right? Don't you want to be infront with fans in Europe?" Changbin offered.

"Yes yes please," I said and hugged him tightly.

"Minji! I need help!" Akuma's voice interrupted us from behind.

"See you later," I kissed Changbin and left to see Akuma. That was bad sign.

I slowly followed him and we entered another empty room.

"Get on your fucking knees."

"You're sick. You just sent me away minutes ago," I chuckled sarcastically.

"Get. On. Your. Knees." he said slowly staring deadly into my eyes.