Chapter 13

"Brighton's seafront offers all the charms of an English sea-side resort – there are ice-cream vendors- I love ice cream!" Harry giggled and bit down on his lip, wiggling his feet in anticipation down from his seat as he continued reading the review in the Internet

"Carousels, casinos, and dozens of fish-n-chip takeaways. Truly as English as it gets!!" He looked up, brown curls bouncing as his green eyes met Will's.

"That sounds really nice.." Harry cleared his throat and swallowed though because he'd rather do the road trip together with Louis.

His eyes fell to the ground before Will lifted his chin back up with a slight tut. "It'll only be for a few days, love. The coast in Brighton is very beautiful.. I just want you to relax since you seem to be a little.. Tensed."

Will smirked down at the younger boy whose cheeks were blushing.

"C'mon you and I.. We haven't done something together in a while now, have we?" The tall man purred and leaned down, capturing Harry's lips with his.

Curls bounced as Harry nodded his head.

"I like the sea even if it's.. A little cold in England" he giggled adorably.

"Are we doing a trip along the coast? I love looking out of the window and see the ocean and beach.." He said shyly, tucking a few curls behind his ear before he got up and snatched his phone.

"When will we be going? Tomorrow?" Harry was hoping he'd get at least a chance to talk to Louis today before he just disappeared.

"What about in an hour? I took a few days off for it.." Harry's eyes widened with his boyfriends words but he just nodded slowly. If Will wanted something, he was going to get it.

"Just going to pack my bag then.." Harry said shyly and ran a hand through his mess of long messy curls that started to annoy him. So he put it all up in a messy bun, missing Will's gaze on him before he trotted up into his room.

To Louis:Hey you.. Um. Got surprised with a little road trip. I'm sorry we won't able to talk today I.. Miss you. x -H

Harry frowned. He didn't like cancelling people, especially Louis.As he waited for his reply he started to pack.

"Niall I can't do that, it's killing me" Louis whimpered in the phone, hugging a pillow to his chest as his eyes scanned over Harry's text a couple of times.

"He'll be away from me and.. What if something happens. What if he returns to me with a body that is beaten up black and blue. Ni I can't.. I literally can't live with or without him. I can't do this when he's with me and when I see the bruises on his body, when he's sad because he has to return to a man who isn't .. Good for him. And I can't be without him because I miss that curly boy just so freaking much. I just..-"

Louis sobbed out, biting down on his quivering lip as he rubbed his eyes weakly.

"I can't bear the thought that he's not entirely mine whenever he's with me I.. It breaks me, too."

Niall frowned on the other line. He only wanted Louis to be happy. To be happy with a man that loves Louis just as much as Louis loves the man.

The thing is, he believed in Harry loving Louis. And he knew that Louis loved Harry. But it was so hard to hear his best friend completely devastated on the other line.

"Louis. I know you love that boy. But sometimes, if you want to help people.. Some of them drag you down to their lost place, too. And no one is worth that, Lou. You're such an adorable, happy person and you can't let someone drag you down there."

Louis sighed. He knew that Niall was right. But was Harry dragging him down? With him? Louis swallowed.

"Give him another week.. Talk to him. And then you've gotta clear this whole thing out. Y"know whatever happens, I'll always be there. I'll always catch ye and bring ye back, mate."

Nialls strong Irish accent kicked through and that made Louis smile a little.

He hasn't given up hope.

Meanwhile Harry was having trouble with the navigation system. He just.. He wasn't a big fan of today's technology.

Harry pouted and started the thing once again, pushing his thumb on the address button and looked back at the online booking paper Will has printed.

"So once again.." Harry mumbled and sighed starting to type in their destiny address of the hotel they would be staying in. It was fancy. At least Will said that.

His tongue stuck out a little as he concentrated on pushing the right buttons while Will's hand tightened around the steering wheel.

Will was an impatient man.

"Harry love would you hurry up so I know when to leave the highway?" A deep annoyance swung in his voice that made Harry perk up shyly.

"Sorry I.. Just guess I'm too stupid to handle that thing."

Instead of a reply Harry just saw Will's jaw muscles tighten. He swallowed and tried desperately to just type in something.

"Don't we have a map in here??" Harry squealed happily and leaned down to open the little store room in front of his seat, unfolding a huge map and holding it up, half blocking Will's sight.

"God damn Harry!" He suddenly yelled, hand raising threateningly. It had Harry crouched together in his seat, eyes fixed on Will's hand that was raised high. He knew that pose all too much.

Will though let it fall back down to his steering wheel, seeming to get control over himself back.

"I-I just wanted to help.. M good at reading maps" Harry whispered and folded the map back together neatly, placing it back in the store room and leaned against the window while Will pulled over.

He was still fuming and the only thing he wanted was to.. He grit his teeth sharply together. Not yet..

He snatched the navigation system from Harry's lap, typing in the address himself and plucked it to the front windshield, listening to the annoying female voice, babbling.

Will turned his head back to Harry, slowly reaching over and holding his hand.

"I'm sorry, darling. You know I'm not a man of patience.. Won't happen again" he whispered and leaned over, pressing his lips to Harry's cheek who sniffled.

"Aye don't cry, let's turn the music up and just have a nice road trip hm?"

Harry was quiet for a long time. His mind hurt from thinking of so many things, of Louis, of Will; of what they had.

His eyes eventually fell close and he pulled the blanket he took with him (Harry was always one who got cold quickly in cars or planes) and snuggled up to it, starting to dream of a feathery brown haired boy that would worship every single inch of his body.

Louis, a few miles away now turned on his couch again, eyes glued to the little screen on his phone. He decided to turn on Netflix, just to distract himself with anything.

His mind was wandering off to Harry so many times and it was hard to concentrate on something.

Hannibal though helped him. What he saw was way too disgusted to somehow connect it to Harry. He scrunches his nose up at the show and eventually gave up. He couldn't do anything..

Louis flinched though as he saw his screen flashing up with an incoming call of Harry. Harry with black kitten ears he wore on Halloween. Louis took a picture of him how he bit in a chocolate bar, pretty pink lips stretched and eyes looking up at him innocently.

Louis wanted to ravish him that night. Well he always wanted to but this night, Harry was driving Louis wild.

He pressed the tiny green button on his iPhone and held the phone up to his ear, kind of.. Afraid who would pick up because it was already late. He sat up straight and cleared his throat.

"Hello?" He was tasting and bit down on his lip, heart beating quicker as he heard Harry's low raspy voice.

"Hi Lou." He rasped out, voice lowered."Miss you.. Lots" Harry whispered and slid down against the bath tub wall, butterflies filling his tummy from how lucky he was to hear Louis' voice.

"We just arrived but.. I want to be with you, Louis. I know I suck for saying something like that in the situation I am now, but it's true" Harry exhaled softly and giggled shyly.

It brightened Louis sucky day up in a matter of seconds.

"I miss you too.." He whispered and ran a hand through his hair, sighing.

"Louis I want to talk to you right now.. I just. I shouldn't have cancelled you like that and I don't want to repeat all the mistakes I've done to my family" Harry bit down on his trembling lip.

"You can just.. Listen and I understand if you don't want to talk to me after okay? I understand every reaction of you, I promise. And if you want me to leave you be, I-I'll accept that t-too."Harry's heart was thumping heavily in his chest.

"Harry I-"

"I know, Louis. Please. Just listen" he smiled and heard Louis sigh, rustling and probably cuddling himself in a fluffy blanket. It must look adorable.Louis always looked adorable.

"Okay.. My name is Harry Edward Styles and I'm 21 years old.. I have an older sister Gemma b-but we don't have contact anymore." His voice was quivering a little.

"My mom Anne and my dad Ben don't talk to me, as well. U-um. It's because I pushed them away. Let's just.. Start at the beginning, yeah?" Harry laughed humourlessly and ran a hand through his hair.

And then he started to tell Louis his story. How he met Will, how their relationship turned out to be, all the hateful things he said to his parents and his sister, too. It was killing him. And then Harry told Louis how Will has started to abuse and hit him, how he reached that Harry was lost.

"R-remember that time I showed up in the book store for the first time? L-Louis y-you were the first one that was nice to me a-again. I came from home a-and he raped me the night before and you can't even imagine how ashamed I am of all of this. It's so hard to tell you all of this.. It's so hard to be with him right now. All I want to do is yell. B-but I'm scared.." Harry bit his quivering lip and skipped the little detail that Will was close to hitting him again today.

It would only make Louis worry more. And he didn't want this.

"I'm anything else than a good person, Lou. And I know that. I'm just.. Trying to find a way out of this and to you.. I just won't be able to do it alone.." Harry's voice got quieter to the end and he closed his eyes, leaning back against the bath tub wall while he listened to silence.

Did Louis fall asleep with his boring talk? Or did he-

He heard a sniffle on the other side and swallowed heavily.

"Harry, I'd kill to be with you right now. You're not a bad person.. Sometime good people just have to deal with mean people who drag them down in their own depression. I'm going to help you.." Louis whispered. He was left in shock.

Harry nodded and rubbed his eyes tiredly.

"I'm there for you.. I promise" Louis whispered and smiled softly closing his eyes. He was crying, his heart ached with it all.

"I'm going to get you out of there, I swear."

Harry smiled through tears and exhaled shakily.

"Thank you.. I mean it Louis. I don't deserve any of this.." Harry sighed and got up again, sitting down on the closed toilet lid as they told each other their sweet wishes for the night.

Louis had to think. And Harry understood.

"Darling, what are you doing get back in bed.." A sleepy Will was standing in the doorframe, messy hair all over the place as he mindlessly stretched his hand out for Harry.

He took Will's hand, letting himself get led back to the bed where he laid down.

"Silly boy.. It's late. What were you up to" will yawned and cuddled behind Harry, spooning him.

"Nothing.." Harry replied and closed his eyes.