Chapter 10

Warnings for this chapter: Harry will be down and sad but there will be no self harm in this story. No suicide thoughts or stuff like this.Louis dirty talk and Larry smut ahead though. Enjooooooy.

Will craved the feeling to tower over Harry from the beginning of their relationship on, he wanted this boy to be completely dependent on him.

Will craved Harrys freedom, his self-determination.

But seeing Harry laying on the bed with his pants tugged down, pale and violently shaking made him furrow his brows.

He felt that Harry was slipping.

Through his fingers like sand would rinse through hands if you make the mistake and loosen the tension up a little.

"Harry.." Will coaxed lightly and sat down at the edge of the bed, right next to Harry's shoulder. He had his head turned away from him.

"What happened.." Will mumbled as he brushed some curls out of Harry's face. They were too long.. Will held back a tut before he let his fingers travel over Harry's arm up to his shoulder blades.

But Harry only tensed.

"Baby.." Will hummed and moved on Harry's bum, still wearing his pants as he placed his hands on Harry's back and started to massage the tight knots that he found in his muscles.

"It's nothing just.. Fuck me if you please to" Harry said quietly and closed his eyes again.

It didn't matter. Nothing did.

He felt empty. Without any ambition anymore.

Louis enriched his life.. But he wasn't good enough for Louis. How was he so foolish and thought otherwise?

Harry's eyes fell close, he was numb to Will's touch and to his surprise he didn't fuck him right there.

Instead he laid down next to him, lifting his leg up to entangle it together with Harry's naked ones. His chest was pressing against Harry's back.

But Harry didn't feel like he was here. His body was, yes. His mind was still back at Louis'.

Harry's body started to tremble violently as the argument of Louis and him ghosted through his mind again.

He felt weak, his chest falling and heaving rapidly and he fisted his hand in one of the sheets but just closed his eyes.

*Harry, Harry easy. Breathe with me. In and out.. In and out..*

Louis was speaking inside his head until Harry mouthed the words after.

In and out. Again.

"Harry.." Will breathed out into Harry's neck but he didn't react in any way.

"Tell me what's wrong."Harry took a deep breath and turned around to the man that was cuddling up behind him.

"Just have a really throbbing headache.." Harry whispered, voice small and he felt so sensitive, so worthless that he couldn't even ask Will to get him an Aspirin.

"Be right back.." Will whispered though and pressed his lips to Harry's forehead. Harry was too lost in himself and Louis that he didn't even know what was going on with Will.

Will sensed that something wasn't going the way he wanted things to go. Harry was slipping from and he didn't quite like that.

As he returned with an Aspirin and a glass of water, he helped Harry up and gave him the glass of sparkling water to swallow the pill down.

"I could've went myself.." Harry whispered and flicked his eyes up at Will. They were so dark.

There were few people on earth who had such dark eyes you could barely separate the pupil from the iris. But Will was one of them. It had something.. Animalistic to it. Something incalculable.

"No no. You stay in bed.. Let me change you mh?" Harry exhaled shakily and shook his head.

"I don't really wanna move.. Can I sleep in this? .. Please?" He added after a second, taking another drink of water and placed the glass down on his nightstand. He wore the boxershorts from Louis..

Will looked at him doubtfully. But he gave in and settled down after a moment of thinking, moving his body next to Harry's who was letting out a deep breath.

"I.. Thanks for being here" Harry whispered and hugged a pillow to his chest like he would so many times when Will had a .. Bad day.

"Will stay the night if you want me to.." Will replied softly, dragging his fingertips over Harry's arm and caused the younger boy to shiver with closed eyes. He rubbed gently, taking more and less pressure to let his fingers ghost over Harry's skin. Harry was his. And he liked to mark his territory.

"If you want to" Harry just replied and snuggled into his pillow even when he felt like he actually deserved to sleep on the floor. Freezing.

"Good night, Harry.. If anything's not right, wake me up" Will mumbled with a yawn and rubbed over Harry's tummy but the younger boy was already passing out due to exhaustion and the overwhelming feeling of sadness.

~ two weeks later ~

Louis was going crazy. The books lost their fascinating scent, the colours around him lost their brightness and just like the November he felt.. Cold. Empty. Like a tree that was loosing his leaves. One by one, for each day passing it got worse. And then snow would settle soon, burying the trees and his emptiness alone under massive layers of snow.

He shoved his hands in his pockets and bit down on his lip hard, a frustrated chuckle leaving through his teeth.

Louis left hundreds of messages and calls behind on Harry's phone.

Because Harry said that Louis should please never give up on him.

But to what point was it fair? If Harry wasn't in the stable situation to receive any help, how could he do anything? He couldn't even reach through to him.

They saw each other the last time two weeks ago. Two long cruel weeks in which Louis' mind went crazy on him. In most nights he woke up sweaty, panting with nightmares of Harry getting beaten up, Harry whimpering and crying and it was killing him.

A new layer of tears was threatening to fill his eyes but he tilted his head up towards the grey rainy sky and blinked rapidly. No crying in public..

His eyes though, felt like the sky. They were slowly but surely turning from a bright blue to a grey blue. Louis didn't like the affect Harry had on him.

He walked down the street he, Niall and Harry went down on Halloween and a small smile came up on his lips. It seemed like the only memory he'll ever have of Harry is his giggle.

Louis shook his head and wrapped his jacket tighter around him, shivering once before there was warmth surrounding him as he stepped in the small grocery shop.

He grabbed a basket and started to stroll around the shop, filling it with food. Because his fridge was empty. He didn't eat much this whole two weeks.

Louis bit his lip as his eyes caught a green oval looking fruit and happily snatched the Avocado off the stand before he continued walking, eyes scanning over the many fruits as he moved along the shelf.

Harry, on the other side was placing a bunch of bananas in his basket eyes, eyebrows drawn in concentration because, well as always, he forgot to write down the things Will told him to get. But he loved bananas so that's in for sure.

But what was that other words? Something with A.. He pouted slightly and continued to walk further, his mind wandering and his eyes were glued to the floor.

Bump. Harry and Louis both gasped and they landed on their bums.

"Oh I'm sorry!!" Harry squealed quickly, his cheeks were blushing a crimson red colour as he bend over to quickly got all the things stuffed back in the strangers basket.

"I um.. Wasn't paying attention, I'm really sorry Sir" he rambled and grabbed his bananas, sitting back on his knees with his basket on his lap and looked up for the first time, his breath hitching as Harry's emerald green eyes met Louis blue ones.

"Louis?"

"Harry?"

They both whispered out at the same time, eyes never leaving the other ones. It seemed to be like they saw each other for the first time, really now.

"Oh god" Louis was the first one to blink and gain control over his body back while Harry was just staring.

He looked around frantically before his eyes seemed to look satisfied with what they found. Harry just watched him with parted lips and felt Louis delicate hand wrap around his wrist, so gently pulling him up to Louis.

His eyebrows creased while Louis pulled him wordlessly into an old storeroom they barely use here anymore.

Harry didn't know what was going on in him. But it was like he tried to stay clean for two weeks only to fall back so hard into the wonderful drug that Louis was for him.

Louis breathing got heavier as he closed the door behind the two, moving against the wall and fisted his hand gently in Harry's shirt to pull him closer. Their noses were almost brushing.

Neither one of them said a word before Harry let out a whine and stepped closer.

"Lou.." He sobbed out quietly and closed the space between them, pressing his lips towards Louis, so desperately now as it would be the air he needed to breathe.

Louis hand was making its way into Harry's curls but he knew deep down that he'd only got hurt. But not again.. He was going to help Harry because he needed it. He wanted this, it was good for him and whatever else he lived in his other life.. It wasn't good for Harry.

"I'm so sorry Louis I should've told you everything I-I'm such a bad horrible person I-"

Harry got silenced by Louis lips on his. He was shaking with the feeling of it.. But in a very good way. Harry's nervous hands fisted lightly in Louis shirt as they kissed, soft but passionate.

"I know.." Louis whispered and leaned his forehead against Harry's.

"I know it's hard for you but fuck Harry. I'm here for you, you understand?"

Louis was turning him now, pressing Harry against the wall who wrapped his legs around Louis waist. Harry felt a sweet tingle of pure lust run through his body, something he barely felt with Will.

Even though he was being very sweet the last couple of days.. Of course he'd eventually turn away but he was sweet. Took care of Harry.

But as Louis teeth nip on his lip he got snapped back to him and slid his long tender fingers in Louis hair.

"Stay with me now" Louis smiled against his lips and he was so beautiful Harry was sure he'd loose his mind.

And as Louis lips pressed back to his, something inside him exploded with joy and passion, he started to move his lips with Louis despite the fact that all of this was probably wrong.

He didn't care.

A small smile formed on Harry's lip before their tongues rejoined, caressing each other and dancing a dance only Harry and Louis knew.

"Missed you so much, ngh I think I never missed someone like that ever.." Louis was whispering, hands placed underneath Harry's bum as he picked him up and slide him up the wall.

His crotch right by Harry's bum.

Louis words were soothing.. Something in Harry told him that Louis wasn't lying, that he meant all of this and it made him cry in happiness.

"You're my drug.." Louis whispered with a soft smile and dragged his thumb over Harry's cheek who only panted heavily, eyes opened wide as he looked at the brown haired boy that was holding him up.

"A drug that I can't get clear of.."

Harry was swallowing hard and tilted his head back, exposing his neck to Louis and just closed his eyes. He couldn't believe this was real.

His eyes were playing tricks on him that he didn't notice. It had to be like that.. But his hands that felt Louis and his nose that inhaled his soft vanilla smelling scent was telling him otherwise.

"I don't want to get clean.." Harry whispered and swallowed hard. There was so much they had to talk about. So much.

But in their desperation and craving for each other they were making out heavily, Harry's lips latching on Louis hungrily.

"Louis.." Harry whispered out, a shaky moan following his word and Louis didn't need more. He was grabbing Harry's bum tighter, kissing him hungrier with tongue and teeth and yes it was messy but they both loved it.

Louis was growing hard against the younger boys bum and Harry could feel it. Their kissing got heavier, their touches rougher as they lost themselves into the other one right there in the grocery shop.

"My pretty boy.. So good, so gorgeous" Louis mumbled sweet nothings as he dove in Harry's neck, kissing and sucking the skin there.

"Missed you so much.. Missed your pretty long body next to me. Your voice, your eyes Jesus everything about you" Louis almost whimpered. He couldn't believe his luck.

"M-missed y-you t-too" he breathed out, too gone into Louis that he could speak properly anymore. Louis was growing harder and harder against his bum and kissing suddenly wasn't enough anymore, Harry was hard and leaking and needed anything. Needed Louis.

"Lou please.. Touch me" Harry's eyes were fluttering and his voice was so deep and low. Louis smirked and slid his hand from under his bum up into his skinny jeans and it was a wonder but he somehow managed to slip into Harry's boxers, moving down until he could feel Harry's fluttering rim underneath his pointer finger.

Harry was moaning out immediately, rubbing against Louis belly. His bum was clenching with the need to be filled.

"Need you.. Inside me" Harry was breathing heavily now causing Louis eyes to widen.

"Easy love.." Louis whispered and kissed him once more, admiring his already swollen lips.

"Looks so pretty like that.. All wrecked from me" Louis grinned proudly causing Harry to blush and kiss him again happily.

Louis removed his finger causing Harry to whine out but he was only lifting it up for Harry to suck on it. Harry's lips latched happily around Louis finger and he moaned as he sucked causing Louis to wonder what those lips would feel wrapped around something else.. He returned his digit dripping wet with spit to Harry's rim and circled it lightly.

"Would love to eat you out.." Louis whispered and smirked

"Bet you'd taste so sweet.. You're my sweet boy aren't you?" He cooed and had Harry nodding quickly before he buried his face in Louis neck as his fingertip breached Harry's rim.

But so careful and so gentle that it made Harry's eyes roll back.

Louis cock gave a twitch underneath Harry's bum and he just grounded against him as his finger was sliding so gently inside of him, knuckle by knuckle.

Harry was moaning in Louis neck, so much that Louis didn't need much more to release.

Harry's ringtone went off causing Louis to furrow his brows before his pupils went wide. Oh. Harry was so gone into his touch that he didn't notice so Louis didn't stop to move his finger, making rocking motions into Harry's pretty little hole as he fished his cellphone out of his pocket.

"I love you.." Louis mumbled reassured and crooked his now full fitting finger inside Harry up, brushing against the sensitive bundle of nerves right as he answered the call.

"Harry? It's Will..."