Chapter 6

''Do you want to cuddle?''

As the words left Louis soft red, plump lips he felt good.

A spreading warmth  was making its way from his curling toes up through his belly, where butterflies were flying around in a wild chaos,  to his beating heart.

Yes, he wanted to cuddle Harry badly.Louis wanted to run his slim fingers through Harry's messy curls, he wanted to hold him, he wanted to whisper through his curls that everything is going to be okay, that Harry was safe with him.

He wanted his trust.

He wanted his smile.

He wanted Harry's happiness.

Harry's pupils widened lightly but other than that he was rigid. Due to shock? To insecurity?

Harry didn't know himself. All he knew was that he was staring at Louis blankly for a whole minute causing the smaller boy to shift in nervousness, and hell Louis' cheeks were blushing the most beautiful color.

Why did Louis wanted to cuddle him?

Out of all the people out there that had better skin than him, a better body, a more handsome face, a better personality.

Why him?

Harry's hand that was stroking Fluffy stopped, long fingers buried in her fur and he forgot to breathe. As his lungs started to burn though, he tried to inhale greedily, wanting to fill them back up with oxygen, his eyes fluttering close.

He couldn't breathe.

Harry felt like he was falling, falling deeper into his mess that couldn't be called sane anymore.

He was having a panic attack.

He was completely still but his insides were tightening, no air coming inside anymore.

''Harry'' Louis breathed out, moving closer, Fluffy who was sensing that something was wrong meowed once before she was licking at Harry's hand and jumped down on the floor making room for Louis arm's to fully wrap around Harry's lanky body and so he did, pulling the curly haired boy to his chest, hand going straight to bury in his long soft curls. He wanted to do that for such a long time.

''Breathe, breathe with me. Feel my chest against yours.. extending with air and falling again. Heaving and falling, Harry, listen. ''

Harry's ear was pressed against Louis chest and he could feel his heart beat, whimpering a little and fisting his hand in Louis Halloween sweater, holding tightly as he felt his head heaving and falling together with Louis chest.

''L-Lou'' He gasped out earning a cooing sound from Louis and he was stroking over his back keeping Harry against him and it was calming him.

There was something about Louis that was calming him down. And he was so thankful for that. He hadn't have someone like Louis in his life.. Since his mom and Gemma. But that made him only sadder.

''Breathe in.. feel the air filling your lungs, yeah just like that, that's a good boy'' Louis whispered and it made Harry's head go blank but he was doing was Louis told him, focusing on his breathing again and suddenly it was easier, he was gaining back control.

This wasn't the first time. He had panic attacks quiet often. When everything got too much.

A few minutes passed with Harry and Louis breathing together and Louis was worried at first but as he felt Harry relax against him, cuddling into him further he smiled down at the boy, making soft rocking movements that made Harry's eyes drop peacefully.

''Do you want to talk about it, cuddly boy?'' He whispered in Harry's ear, his smaller hand sprawled out over the lanky boys back keeping him safe and secure against his body. Harry cuddled even closer as Louis called him like that.

''Have those sometimes.. when everything gets too much'' Harry said quietly, the most of it muffled by Louis sweater but he was able to understand. Louis was almost loosing control at the way Harry was snuggling so tightly against his body, his mind almost going blank but he had to take care of Harry, be there for him.

''Okay baby shh I've got you..'' He whispered, not wanting to upset the boy in his arms any more. He was curious about what caused those attacks but he knew better than to interrogate Harry about it.

He would tell when time passed by.

''It's embarrassing Louis..'' Harry was whining in his neck, sounding like a little boy that got bullied by mean classmates and was seeking comfort from his daddy. It made Louis heart flutter. His soft hands moved to Harry's face, pulling him up to him so that they nose almost brushed together.

Louis was looking in Harry's eyes and he was staring right back with soft swollen eyes. He was crying. A little.

''No. It's never embarrassing, Harry. You never have to be ashamed of your feelings, they are a part of you and they are important. Very important to me..I'm here for you okay?'' He smiled and leaned forward, his forehead touching Harry's, nose brushing together in some kind of Eskimo kiss.It made Harry smile a little.

Harry nodded with a soft sniffle, causing Louis head to move with him since he was leaning against him.

''Okay..'' He mumbled, causing Louis eyes to flutter. Harry smelled like .. Harry. Soft and gentle, caring and loving, adorable and sweet. He was falling in love at that second, fast and full force.

But he didn't care because this felt right. Nothing felt ever better to Louis so he leaned forward to capture Harry's lip with his, kissing him so gentle and caring like he was made of glass that was so fragile it would break with the lightest touch.

Harry didn't break though. His mind was exploding as Louis lips pressed to his, his head was spinning with fireworks and sparks, Louis Louis Louis was ringing in his ears. He was enchanted by him. Totally lost under his spell.

The world around them went still for a few seconds, they were creating their own little perfect world as their lips were colliding in the sweetest kiss, Harry's shy lips pressing back after a while embracing Louis. Louis cleared Harry's head.

It felt like all the poisonous fog was disappearing.

''God Harry..'' Louis was breathing out against Harry's soft swollen lips, looking up to meet his eyes that were looking back at him.

''Y-Yeah?'' Harry's low raspy voice was shaky. To be honest, his whole body trembled under Louis touch. To Harry, Louis touch felt like fire on his skin. Hot and burning.

Devouring.

''Breathe.'' Louis gave him a cheeky smile, placed a hand on Harry's chest and pushed him back ever so gentle slowly climbing over him and dipped down, stopping and hovering over Harry's lips for a while until he was giving in and kissing the younger boy which ripped a throaty little moan from him.

Harry never got kissed like that.Not with that much love,never with that amount of passion, and he could feel it all through Louis' lips. And shouldn't this be normal?

Shouldn't you be together with someone who gives you this feeling?Harry was pulling away breathlessly, a shy giggle slipped out of his lips.

''Louis you're not helping me with breathing.. At all.''

It made Louis smile and coo down at him.''Right.. sorry, not sorry'' He placed a gentle kiss on top of his nose and leaned back pulling Harry with him.

"Wanted to actually watch Dracula right?'' Louis flashed his teeth and buried them playfully in Harry's neck who shrieked and laughed attempting to push himself off of a biting Louis.

''Bet your blood would taste sooo good..'' Louis licked his lip. He could think of a few things that would taste good on Harry. A few naughty things.. He smirked and got up turning the movie on and returned to Harry.

What was he doing?

He was hiding that he was in a relationship with an other man.

He was hiding that from Louis. Louis that just kissed him, that made him feel alive.

What was wrong with him?

But before his thoughts could eat him up any further Louis laid next to him again, pulling Harry's body back up on his, Harry's ear pressed to Louis chest, listening to his heart beat.

''Thank you.. ''Harry nuzzled in Louis neck, soft green eyes locking on the screen.

There were no more words to be said.~As Harry crawled in his bed, he already missed the warmth from smaller Louis.He barely knew Louis for two weeks.. wasn't it too early to share a kiss? It was definitely not right to let Louis kiss him when he was being in a relationship.

But the more time Harry spent with Louis, the more sadder he felt when he had to leave and return home.

To Louis:

''Got home safely.. tonight was good. very nice.. um.. thanks for that. thanks for enduring me being all awkward.''

On the other line Louis was smiling at Harry's text. He missed the feeling of Harry's body on top of him. How his large hands gripped Louis shirt tightly and holding it like he never wanted to leave Louis again.

To Harry:

''Your lips feel so soft.. perfect Harry. That's what you are.''

Harry exhaled shakily. It was hard for him to believe.

They chatted the whole night through and Harry could actually hear Will leave the house at 5 am in the morning and he groaned rolling around in bed.

To Louis:''okay it's way too late.. or too early. I gotta sleep, Boo. Good morning x -H''Harry smiled and bit his lip as he was looking at his screen. He never felt this excited over a text that he was awaiting.

To Harry:''Sun is peeking through my curtains. Ew. Gotta draw them tight again. Sleep tight, sweet Harry. Nice dreams of me.. ;) Special Halloween lunch at Starbucks?''

Louis was being cheeky. Harry loved it.

To Louis: ''You bet x''

He fell asleep smiling.

AN: (Read this and tell me what you thiiink please)Excited for Halloween in this story!! A lot will happen.. Larry though! well thanks for keeping up the reading and I'm loving this book (:

Just decided to give you a cute Larry moment before drama starts. Keep it up!! x