Chapter Twenty One: The Reveal

After he said that, we both stood still. We didn't dare move a single part of our bodies, keeping close eye contact with one another. I was in trauma, I couldn't say anything even if I wanted to.

Finally, Sehun broke the silence "Tell me the truth, is that you, Luhan?"

I opened my mouth to reply, but I couldn't force a single word out.

He was now frustrated "Is it?!"

"Yes it is, okay!" I barked at him "I'm Luhan!"

Silence beckoned over us again. Sehun let out a sarcastic chuckle, taking a seat once more and buried his face onto his hands "I-I don't believe you. There's no way- Luhan- Could actually turn into a girl!"

My face dropped to the floor "You know everything about me, Sehun. You know I don't have a little sister. You know if I had left somewhere I would have told you. And-"

"You know, that's not even the most unbelievable part!" His removed his cupped hands from his face and looked at me straight in the eye "I told you everything! I told you that I actually had a gay crush on you, I told you I liked you as who you are now, and- we actually kissed! I actually fell in love with you!"

"Sehun, I-"

"Did you actually really love me too?" He interrupted "Did you actually mean it when you said that to me?! Or were you just playing with me this whole time?!"

"Of course I love you, you idiot!"

Sehun stood up, never breaking eye contact with me "If you really did, you would actually take my feelings for you seriously by telling me the truth. I don't even know what you would get out of a fake relationship, but haha joke's on me, right?"

He walked past me heading for the door "I'm tired, I just came back from the tour."

"Sehun." I looked at him, tears forming in my eyes "I'm so so sorry."

"Luk- Luhan, I don't want to see or talk to you right now." His voice cracked "It's not going to be the same anymore."

Sehun closed the door behind him, deserting me alone in the room. Too many thoughts ran through my mind to actually express what I'm feeling.

But if there's one thing I do know,

I deeply hurt him.

He has done so much for me yet all I did was break his heart.

Why me? Unknown, whoever you are, I congratulate you.

If fucking up my life was your plan, then you did such a great job.

. . .

"Sorry Luka, but he won't come out of his room." Suho said, scratching his head "He's in a really bad mood and even I have no clue about it. But whatever the reason is, the others and I have to go do some recording, so we'll just leave him be in the mean time."

I frowned "Oh, okay. Do you mind if I stay here then?"

"No problem at all." He smiled and slung his back pack on his shoulder "Come on guys, let's go."

Suho and the other eight exited the dorm. I slowly walked towards Sehun's door and stood there for a minute. I held out my hand to knock, but I was scared. Scared that about how'd he react, how he'd see me, how after this, nothing will be the same. I'm surprised Sehun didn't tell the others yet, seeing that Suho called me by Luka moments ago. I took a step backwards. Maybe I was being too clingy. It has been just an hour since he found out, I should just give him time alone.

Just as I was about to leave, the open swung open. I turned my head to see Sehun standing before it. His face was blank "I knew you'd be here."

I answered back "I was just about leave."

"No, you won't." He stepped aside "Come inside, we'll talk. While we're at it, you can get some of your stuff back. You didn't claim everything after all."

I did as he said to come inside, but I didn't bother getting my stuff because that's not important right now. I took a seat on the bed I slept it months ago and surprisingly, Sehun sat beside me.

"So how's it like staying here again?" He asked out of nowhere

"I miss it a lot." I barely smiled "Listen, I know you're mad at me, and-"

"I'm not really mad at you, because you know I can't stay mad at you forever." He interrupted "But I am upset and disappointed."

"You have every right to be."

"Well, I kinda get why you had to hide it. I did tell you I liked Luha- I mean you unexpectedly when we were trapped in the practice room. And there's the fans and media to worry about too. And then you didn't suspect that I'd have feelings for you now so I reacted a bit too much." Sehun sheepishly smiled and scratched his nape "And I'm sorry for that. I should have thought about your feelings too."

I patted his shoulder "It's fine, really. I shouldn't have lied though. I knew at least one of you would eventually find out, you can't hide something forever."

"Although I have a question." He leaned forward towards me "How's it. . . Like having a feminine body?"

I blinked twice "What."

"I'm just curious." Sehun said "Like when you have those periods."

I laughed "Yeah it sucks. It's still awkward every time I take a shower."

"So if you're Luhan. . . Meaning you were once a guy before. . . Do you mind if I do this?"

He groped one side of my chest. I yelped, jumped back away from his, smacked his hand away, and slapped his face "NO, YOU CAN'T DO THAT. WHAT THE HECK SEHUN, I'M STILL A WOMAN AS OF NOW. GOSH HAVE SOME RESPECT, THIS IS ALSO WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL YOU, YOU BYUNTAE."

Sehun burst into a fit of laughter "I bet you touch yourself every night."

With that, he deserved another slap and he got one on the other side of his face "YOU NEVER CHANGED, DISGUSTING AS ALWAYS."

He again started laughing. After a few seconds of seeing him, I began to laugh with him too. I miss those times when Sehun and I would just joke around like the friends we were.

"You said your dream was to act, right?" He said "Well you acted pretty well as a girl, not breaking your identity, you should be an actor."

"I fussed up a few times and you almost caught me when I hid in the shower, asking you to not come in and shower with me."

"Was that the day you turned into a girl?"

I nodded.

"Well then. . ." He sighed "I guess I should have went inside the shower then."

Again he deserved some sort of pain so I flicked his forehead "I hate you."

Sehun started smiling to himself like the idiot he is and let out a chuckle "I miss hanging out with you like this."

I grinned back at him "So I do."

"Even if a lot of stuff happened and we can't change nor take it back, can we still be friends? Like, still be ourselves like we used to?"

"F-Friends. . .?" I questioned "I think you didn't understand me awhile ago."

His eyebrows furrowed and titled his head at me "What do you mean?"

"When I said it, I said I meant it. What by 'I love you' do you not understand?"

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