Chapter 64: Telephone*

I go in to work for a few hours the next day just to get reacquainted with my job. I don't even see patients in person, I check up on charts and see how some patients are still doing, many were even discharged in my time away. The majority of my time there is spent talking to people who show up to hug me and tell me they're so glad I'm okay and that I'm back even in short time periods. I appreciate the warm welcome, however it is exhausting. Whenever it's nearing lunch time, which is the time I had cleared it with my boss and with Alison to leave before the day even started, Alison comes in my office and sits down. She's 7 months pregnant now and pretty big. I sit down at my desk and ask her "you get your bridesmaids dress figured out while I was otherwise engaged?" She chuckles "you mean otherwise engaged surviving? Yes, I managed to get that accomplished." She rubs over her stomach like pretty much every pregnant woman does. I smile warmly and ask her "did you ever find out the gender? I'm sorry I'm so behind on literally everything in my life." She smiles and nods "you're fine, Annie. It's a boy. We are naming him Elliot Jackson." I smile "Elliot Jackson Alvez." Alison nods, happily rubbing her stomach. I look at her and say "well, it's been fun, but I'm exhausted and I think I'm going to have to have phone sex with Spencer tonight or he's going to either murder somebody on the team or be murdered by somebody on the team and they all know how to make it look like an accident." Alison chuckles "why is murder on the table?" I sigh in exasperation "because Emily came back from the dead and Spencer is mad at JJ because of it." Alison blinks at me and I tell her "I know, I don't really get it either but I have to be supportive because he's been very supportive to me through this whole process and all of my irrational moments." Alison nods "fair enough. Keep me updated. I love drama that doesn't really involve me." I smile and tell her "you got it." I leave my office while she goes back to hers. It works out perfectly timing wise honestly because around the time I'll be ready to come back full time, she will need maternity leave and we will probably take on a new clinical fellow for me to supervise as well. Fun times. As I'm leaving the hospital I get a call from Spencer. I answer "hey, baby, you okay?" I hear him grunt in exasperation as he says "I'm just so pissed at JJ! She didn't have the decency to tell me that Emily was actually alive while I cried with her and with you about it for 10 weeks." I nod to myself and respond "baby, I need more information, I've been up to date with this part." He sighs and slows down "I know. She confronted me about being angry with her. She thinks I'm mad because I didn't see through them at the time so I'm mad at myself about my profiling skills not being good enough. I told her that the only reason I didn't see through her was because I trusted her. I also told her I thought about taking dilaudid again. She said I didn't and I told her that I thought about it and left." I nod to myself again as I get in my car "okay, I'm up to speed. Where are you now?" He sighs "outside of the police station. Where are you now? It sounds like you're in your car." I hum "um, yeah I went into work for a few hours actually." Spencer asks "what? I thought you were going to wait until I got back?" I tell him "yes, that was the plan, but I needed to get up to date on patient charts and stuff. I didn't see any patients today. I really only saw coworkers who just fawned over me like I was a porcelain doll who could break any second. Oh and I found out Alison is having a baby and they're naming him Elliot Jackson." Spencer responds "I'm sorry I'm not there for you today. I'm happy for Alison and Luke, next time you see her, tell her I love the name." I nod and smile to myself. I tell him "hey, I have a surprise for you actually. Get Morgan or Hotch or somebody to teach you how to use FaceTime by bedtime tonight. That's all you need to know. Just trust me on this." Spencer just says "okay, but only because I trust you." I chuckle to myself, for a kinky genius he can sure be oblivious sometimes. We say our goodbyes and I feel better about sending him back off to be on the case around his teammates again. I'm still driving home, so I call Morgan. When he answers I ask immediately "don't say my name, Spencer doesn't know I called you, right?" Morgan chuckles and I hear a door shut. He says "I didn't tell anybody you were calling me. What's this about?" I sigh and tell him "promise me you won't make fun of Spencer or me." He chuckles and I say "Derek Michael Morgan, Spencer told me all the comments you make to him about me only liking sex with him because I was a virgin before and you're lucky I didn't hurt you for them yet. If you make fun of this I will make you regret both of those. Believe me." He let's out a whistle and says "damn, okay, what do you need?" I sigh and say "1. Get other sleeping arrangements or at least just be out of the hotel room until I tell you otherwise." Morgan says "uh yeah I can just crash with Hotch, why?" I sigh and say "2. Teach Spencer how to use FaceTime." Morgan says "oh I see where this is going." I chuckle "yeah, I'm going to try to help y'all out because I know Spencer is extra pissy right now. We've talked about phone sex but never implemented it. After talking with him a couple of times I'm going for it in hopes of preventing a murder within the team." Morgan laughs "he is about to get voted off the island. Consider the hotel room his for the night and I'll be sure he knows how FaceTime works while we eat dinner. Should I give him tips for phone sex or do you want it to be a surprise?" I sigh "you probably know more about it than he does, but Derek Morgan, I swear to God, if you make any virgin comments to him or make him feel inadequate in any way, I will hang your balls as ornaments on our Christmas tree this year." Morgan coughs and says "noted." I nod to myself "good. I'll call him 9 pm y'all's time in Oklahoma, so it'll be 10 pm here. I don't expect anything from him except for him to be alone in the room and not pissy." Morgan responds "understood, I'll make sure he's prepared." We both say our goodbyes and hang up the phone. As soon as I get home I take care of Ryder and plan to take a nap before tackling all the things that need to be done like shaving pretty much everything, painting my nails and toes, picking out lingerie, moisturizing, makeup, hair, pretty much just everything that'll make Spencer tick in a good way.

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Around 9:30 pm DC time I get a text from Derek that says "He's ready for you. He knows what's going on. He's excited." I smile and text him a simple "thanks for your help." I get back an even simpler "yw" from him and finish up moisturizing before changing out of my big t shirt and into my lingerie. I put on a new extremely light purple lingerie set. It's almost white and I picked that on purpose because I think Spencer secretly loves that he corrupted me and took my innocence. I'd be lying if I said I didn't love it, too. At the last minute I decide to put the big t shirt back on, clarification: a big t shirt of his, over the lingerie to just kinda tease him a bit more. At 9:55 pm my time my phone lights up with a FaceTime call from Spencer. I smile and answer "why, Dr. Reid, you're early." He smiles "Morgan prepped me a bit for what you have planned, but I still wanted to talk to you about your day without impeding on your plans. So, how was your day?" I blush and talk to him as I lay on my stomach on our normally shared bed, holding my phone with my right hand. I tell him about my day, about how sad I was to learn just how many patients I didn't get to say goodbye to before they were discharged. He gives me a sad smile and says "I know how deeply you care for your patients, I hate that I'm not there to help you through this." I give him the same sad smile back. I tell him "well you're helping me now on the phone. That's more than enough." Spencer chuckles "why are we suddenly trying phone sex out of the blue?" I shrug and tell him "you just seem really stressed and, if you're up for it, I'd love to try to alleviate the stress over the phone like I would if you were on a case at home." Spencer blushes just a bit and says "well, I appreciate that, but, as always, I want you to cum first. So, will you do something for me?" I smile and nod, feeling the butterflies in my stomach flap away at his words. He tells me "go pick out a toy from the closet, any toy, just show it to me when you get back to the bed." I nod "yes, daddy." He blushes and says "good girl," through a deep chuckle. I leave my phone on the bed as I quickly run over to the closet to go through Spencer's toy box. He usually picks things out so I don't know my way around it that well. I see something that I don't really recognize or know what it does, but I decide to be adventurous and grab it. I also grab the wand vibrator from our drive home from New York just in case the other one ends up being something I can't really use by myself. I walk back over to the bed and sit cross legged before grabbing my phone and talking to him. I tell him "so I grabbed two because I wasn't sure what one of them was and didn't want to have to get back up if it was something you didn't really want me to use." Spencer chuckles "so you didn't follow my instructions?" My jaw drops as I respond "I was just trying to be helpful and save time." He chuckles and nods "okay, let me see what you picked out." I pick up the mystery toy and show it to him. His face breaks into an expression of mischievous delight upon recognizing it. He chuckles and says "you picked a good one, Annie." I'm still utterly confused and ask him "what is it?" He shakes his head and chuckles "I'll just let you figure it out. Here, I'm going to get more comfortable while you explore the toy a bit, hmm?" I nod with an expression of confusion as I turn it over in my hands. It almost looks like those things that you see ads for that suck the black heads out of your face. With that thought comes a metaphorical light bulb above my head. I turn on the switch and stick my pinky in the little hole and yelp at the realization. I look back up at my phone I had propped against one of the many pillows in our room to see Spencer, now shirtless, chuckling at me. He smiles and asks "figure it out?" I nod and tell him "I feel like this one could be painful." Spencer shrugs "possibly in an overstimulating way, but not painful like a flogger is." I nod as I continue to look it over. Spencer says "you know I love how you look in my clothes, but am I going to get to see any more of you tonight?" I blush and bite my lip as I nod, standing up on my knees and removing the t shirt of Spencer's I had been wearing. I sit back on my haunches after removing the t shirt and my eyes meet his through the phone. I chuckle at his speechless expression. Once he finds his words again he clears his throat and says "holy fuck...uh um...I j- I just was not expecting that." I chuckle and tell him "I'm hot enough to make you stutter, but skilled enough to fix it," punctuating my statement with a wink. He chuckles and says "I'm glad, because I think I'm going to be stuttering a lot for the next few weeks if you keep walking around dressed like that." I chuckle and look back at him "do you want this to be you instructing me, me instructing you, or like some kind of parallel play?" Spencer chuckles "parallel play?" I look at him and scoff "you know what I mean. You do your own thing and I do my own thing separate from each other." Spencer chuckles "I don't know separate it will be, but yeah, let's try that." Spencer then leans the phone against something, I'm assuming a pillow, on the other side of the bed while quickly and smoothly removing his boxers. His hard member stands at attention and falls against his stomach when he lies back down on the bed, his left hand behind his head while his right hand strokes his cock up and down. The tip is glistening with pre cum as he strokes himself, almost making my mouth water. Spencer chuckles and says "you gonna parallel play or are you just going to watch, Annie?" I snap out of my daze, leaning back on some pillows and planting my feet on the bed. I decide to let Spencer have the full view and remove my bra. He lets out a quiet moan in response to the sight, making me feel more confident in my body. Next, I reach my hand down, simply moving my light purple thong to the side as I take my right hand down to rub through my folds. I moan out in pleasure at the feeling, it's been a while since I touched myself. Spencer speaks up "try the toy, I can't wait to see your reaction to it." I raise an eyebrow at him and say jokingly "this parallel play is turning perpendicular, Dr. Reid." Spencer chuckles and nods "just do it." I grab the toy and turn it on, honestly terrified of its power. I use my left hand to open the lips of my heat before lightly ghosting the toy over my clit. Even just the softest sensation made me arch my back and yelp in surprise. Spencer chuckles "it's intense." I nod "yeah, it is. When did you get it?" Spencer shrugs "I think I bought it when I was afraid we were going to have to ease into sex more than we needed to, so now it's just a bit of extra fun." I smile to myself and ask Spencer "was this for you to use on me or..?" Spencer smiles and says "my first plan was to let you work your way through what you needed and then we could implement toys if that's what you wanted before I even came into play. I wasn't even planning to be there unless you wanted me to be there." I pout and give him a sad smile "thank you for being so patient with me, Spencer." He smiles "absolutely, baby, you don't have to thank me." With that little reassurance, I suddenly feel more confident in this moment and decide to give the new toy a more involved attempt. Spencer is still stroking himself slowly as he watches me slowly bring the toy up to my clit and let it latch as intended. It feels like my soul is being sucked out of my body as I hold it to my clit for as long as I can stand it before ripping it away. I try to catch my breath as Spencer chuckles. He asks me "that feel good?" I nod with a whimper. Spencer chuckles "this time see if you can hold it there until you cum." My eyes widen, but I nod, trying to strengthen my resolve to hold it there. I can definitely see Spencer using this in a punishment to overstimulate me. That would be so hot, but also torturous. I readjust and slowly move the toy back to reattach it to my clit. I moan out in pleasure as I try to hold it there as long as possible. I look at Spencer and chant out "please." Spencer says through the phone with authority "hold it there, cum when you're ready." I look to Spencer and cry out "I can't." Spencer tells me "you're so close baby, cum for me." I pull it away before reaching my climax, panting. I look to Spencer and apologize "I'm sorry, Spence, it was too much." He gives me a soft understanding smile "it's okay, baby, it's a lot. I'm not upset at all." I smile and let my head fall to the side "good." Spencer chuckles "you can keep playing with that or you can do something different, whatever you want to do, baby." I hum and lazily move my hand down to rub slow circles on my clit. I look to Spencer on the phone screen and smile and say "I like this." Spencer gives me a soft smile back, still slowly pumping himself, he responds "then do that, baby." I moan softly and look at him "I don't want to cum by myself. I want you to cum with me." Spencer smiles "you sure? We can do that after this round?" I nod "I'm sure, that toy is intense." Spencer chuckles "are you close baby?" I hum and nod "you?" Spencer scoffs "I've been close since you took off my shirt, angel." I laugh and look at him "you have not." He nods while he grins like an idiot "promise." I giggle and look at him through the phone as a wave of pleasure rolls through me. I ask him "please cum with me, Spence?" Spencer smiles and nods "cum with me, baby." My legs shake and my toes grip the sheets as wave after wave of pleasure rolls through me. I cry out his name as I keep my eyes on the phone, watching him stroke himself, spreading the precum along his hard length with each fast pump. His chest heaves and he thrusts into his hand as I watch ropes of cum shoot up and onto his stomach. He catches his breath and grabs a tissue from the nightstand, cleaning himself off. I lean forward and grab my phone, readjusting to lay on my side and look at him on the phone screen. He smiles lazily back at me and says "I love you." I grin like an idiot and respond "I love you, too, Spence." He blushes and smiles to himself. We sit in silence for a minute or two before he speaks up again "I miss you. This first case back in the field is harder than I thought it would be." I give him a sad smile and nod "I know, bubs, but think about it this way: in a few weeks you'll have some time off after the wedding again." Spencer smiles and nods. We are taking time off for a honeymoon, but we are just planning to go stay in an air bnb near Virginia Beach or something after the wedding to just have time to ourselves as newly weds. Spencer says "I can't wait to call you my wife. You'll be Mrs. Reid." I blush and nod "I can't wait either, Dr. Reid."

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The next day, the team solves the case and comes back home. I plan to surprise Spencer and pick him up at the tarmac, just in case today didn't go well. I haven't heard anything from Spencer and Morgan told me he hasn't been as pissy today, but he's still not himself. Ryder and I wait in the car for the jet to land and wait for Spencer to get off the plane. I'm just in a sweatshirt and leggings with my dirty hair up in a pony tail, but Spencer gets off the plane and looks at me like I'm ready to walk the red carpet for the Oscar's. He quickly walks over to me and closes the distance between the two of us, enveloping me in a big hug. We hold each other for a good 15 seconds before Ryder's barking ultimately divides Spencer's attention from me. Spencer walks over and pets Ryder through the open window, finally calming him down. Rossi walks up to me and looks between the two of us "carbonara cooking class at my place tonight, you're both invited." I smile and nod, looking to Spencer. He doesn't meet my eyes as I decide to respond "thanks for letting me know, we'll try to make it, Dave." He thankfully doesn't push the topic, I think because he knows it's up to Spencer to decide if we go or not tonight. We say our goodbyes to the team and I drive us both home to the apartment. I grab his hand as I drive and ask him "was today better?" He hums and says "yeah, I think I'm feeling better. It's just going to take time." I nod in understanding. I ask him "so is that a yes or no on carbonara at Rossi's? I'm down to go if you are." He smiles at me and nods "okay, sure, let's go tonight." With that statement and that smile, I know that Spencer is on the right track towards healing his relationship with about half of the team.

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Spencer and I go to the carbonara class, it's honestly just a more informal dinner at Rossi's, but with no kids this time around. Spencer has finally resolved things with JJ and I'm assuming with Hotch and Emily as well. He's in better spirits tonight, letting himself enjoy his friends. As we are sipping wine on Rossi's balcony following the dinner, Morgan clears his throat and says "so pretty boy, we having a bachelor party for you or what?" Spencer blushes and clears his throat before saying "um I'm good, really. I don't need the stereotypical 'last night of freedom' because marrying Annie is what I want to do." I roll my eyes and tell him "fuck it, Spence, just go have fun with the guys and celebrate our impending nuptials." Morgan chuckles and says "you picked a good one, Reid. So...does that mean a strip club is a yes or no?" I turn to Spencer whose eyes are pleading with me to say no. I chuckle and say "fine, as long as his clothes stay on, I don't care." Spencer looks at me in response like I just signed him up for the Hunger Games. Penelope claps her hands and says "so does that mean we can do a bachelorette party for you?" I laugh and nod "sure, pen, why not?" Penelope squeals and I chuckle in response, happy to make them all happy. It'll be fun to do all the stereotypical bachelorette things with the girls anyway. I laugh and say "we even have a built in DD with Alison being pregnant." Emily smiles with realization "oh my God, I forgot she was pregnant. How is she doing?" I smile and nod "she's doing well! The pregnancy had some rough morning sickness in the beginning, but she's doing a lot better now. She's close to her 7th month now, I think. Hopefully by the time we get back from our honeymoon she can go on maternity leave and the timing will all go smoothly." Emily nods "that sounds good. Where are you two going on your honeymoon?" I look at Spencer and back to Emily before saying "I think we are just getting an air bnb at like Virginia Beach for a week or so just to get away for a bit, but not like anything crazy." Emily nods "good plan." JJ speaks up and asks as she swirls her wine glass "how's the house coming along?" Spencer speaks up "well, right now, we have a mattress on the floor of our bedroom, a few boxes of random things on the living room floor, and like two frozen pizzas and a pan in the kitchen." Rossi speaks up "well what more could you need?" I cackle "says the man with the mansion." Everybody laughs, Rossi lifts his scotch glass to me and says "touché." Hotch speaks up and says "if you two need help packing or moving, let us know, I'm sure we'd be happy to help. Many hands make light work." Everybody nods in agreement and my heart melts at the generosity. Rossi speaks up "well, I'll pay for the moving truck." We all laugh, and the conversation turns to Emily adjusting back to her normal life, thank goodness.

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About a week or so later, I get a call from Penelope. I answer to hear her frantic voice saying "hey so the girls and I scheduled you something we think is really nice but you can say no if you don't want to do it we just thought it might be a nice reclaiming your confidence typa deal and it's totally your body your choice but Emily vouched for him and he's gay and we are all going to do your hair and makeup and you'll look so pretty but only if you wanna do it and we can stay there with you the whole time if that'll make you more comfortable and-" I have to almost shout into the phone to interrupt her "Penelope, slow down, what are you talking about?" Penelope sighs and says "we kind of booked you a boudoir shoot?" I choke out a surprised laugh and say "oh my god why?" Penelope hums and says "well we know things have been hard since your abduction, but we thought this would be a nice thing for you to get reacquainted with your body and it could be a cute gift for Spencer on your wedding day. His eyes only, unless you just want to show it to us or something." I chuckle and nod "okay, fine, but I want to surprise Spencer with it." Penelope giggles and responds "okay deal!" During that phone call, we discuss logistics and plan to do it the Saturday before, literally a week before, the wedding. Morgan is involved and said he will occupy Spencer while we do it so we can maintain the surprise until the day of the wedding. We are planning to do the bachelor and bachelorette parties Thursday night, then the rehearsal dinner will be Friday night, and then the wedding will be Saturday night. This entire week is going to be insane and there's no way I'm going to remember everything I'm supposed to do. The Saturday of the boudoir shoot, I stay in bed until Spencer gets up to go do something with Morgan, I have no idea what they're doing but it will keep them both busy for a few hours so we can do this surprise so that's fine. I trust both of them. After Spencer leaves, the girls come over to help get me ready for this shoot. JJ does my hair, Emily does my makeup, Killian picks out my outfit, Penelope is doing my nails and toes, and Alison enjoys the show. My hair is curled in soft loose curls, going down my back, my makeup is done in a soft glam smoky eye with red lipstick, and we found a couple of different pieces of lingerie for me to wear in white, purple, red and black. Killian smiles at me as she looks through my collection of lingerie "our little girl is growing up. She's a regular slut now." I chuckle, rolling my eyes, "I'm only a slut for Spencer, okay?" They all chuckle, JJ says "good, I'd really hate to have to kill you for hurting our genius." I raise an eyebrow at her, not knowing if she's serious or not. Once everybody's finished up with their respective tasks, I stand up to look in the full length mirror and stare at a reflection I hardly recognize. We bring an entire bag of things we may need for this shoot, they wouldn't let me see the contents so I'm a bit scared. We ride over there in two different cars, Killian is driving me with Alison in the back. Killian tells me "if you want to take a break today say 'rutabaga' and if you want to stop all together say 'pineapple,' okay?" I chuckle and nod "I appreciate it. I'm doing better now that everything is healed for the most part. I don't really want to showcase my scars today but I also don't want to hide them either." Killian nods while Alison speaks up from the back seat "they're battle scars, sweetie." I look at her in the rear view mirror and smile, nodding and not saying anything. We pull up to an office and park outside of it, Emily pulls up behind us and parks as well about a second later. JJ gets out of the car and gives me an excited smile "you ready?" I smile and nod "yeah, um a bit nervous?" She gives me an understanding nod "you're beautiful and Spencer is going to love this so much." I chuckle "weird that my almost husband's coworkers are helping me make something he will eventually jerk off to." JJ grimaces and says "could've done without that mental image." I laugh "sorry." We walk into the door and meet a tall white man with short blonde hair who is built like Spencer, aka a pool noodle. He looks at us and claps "you're here! Now, Em, which one is the bride?" I raise my hand as Emily walks over to me. She tells the man "Christian, this is my friend Annie. She's been through a lot but she's getting married next week and we need a rushed but amazing boudoir session and photo book by next Saturday." Christian smiles and nods "oh hell yes, sweetie, we can make that happen. Come on, doll let's get, ready. I see they have you all gussied up already and that's half the battle, I swear to God." He makes "God" almost 4 syllables long. I start walking up the stairs with him and he says "now we can include the whole crew up here but as soon as Annie banannie says beat it y'all all better scram or you'll find out what it feels like to be hit with a camera." I cackle at his sense of humor and follow him up the stairs. I tell him "these girls make me feel safe and loved and beautiful. I don't want them going anywhere." Christian smiles "I'm so happy you have your tribe, honey, but still if that changes for whatever reason I'm not afraid to whip somebody with a real whip...and not in the fun way." I laugh and blush at that. Christian chuckles "oh so you're a little bit of a freak?" My jaw drops and I stutter to answer "I-I-" he smiles knowingly "mm hmm, I love it. Now, why don't we start with the traditional 'white and pure' trope that's totally outdated and sexist but still classic?" I smile and nod "yeah that sounds good, work our way up to the whips and chains." He throws his head back in laughter "oh I like you." I do the shoot in a white lingerie set first. I feel a bit uncomfortable and exposed, but Christian and all of the girls are nothing but encouraging. We do a lot of innocent poses on the bed and on the floor. This man does touch me to pose me, but I feel safe and I'm sure at least two of the girls across the room have a gun somewhere on them. We do similar shots in the other lingerie sets, particularly getting more racy with each set. The purple still has a bit of innocence tied to it but it showcases a bit more of how I've explored my sexuality with Spencer. The red and black both show how comfortable I am in my body, even in racy suggestive poses I would've never done before Spencer. After I think we've finished, Penelope and JJ come up to me. Penelope tells me "we have an idea for one more thing." I nod JJ says "we will leave for this part, but we were thinking that you take all the makeup off, let your hair down, and take everything off for a few photos." I furrow my brow and look to Penelope for clarification. Penelope says "Spencer doesn't really care about all this sexy stuff, sure he will like it, but what he cares the most about is you, the natural you." I nod, mulling it over. I look at Penelope and say "don't get me wrong, I love you, but I just want JJ to stay. She's seen me naked and in a much worse state than this before. I'll feel much safer if she stays in here even though I'm sure Christian is harmless." Penelope smiles and nods "I completely understand. Makeup wipes and hairbrush are in the bag, I'll get the rest of the girlies to go downstairs with me for a bit." I smile and nod, thanking her before she leaves. I walk over to the bag and start taking everything off of my face, wiping away the act that I play sometimes for fun to reveal one of my most vulnerable versions of myself. I brush out my hair and take out the Bobby pins that were keeping it out of my face. The last thing I do is take off the black lingerie set before walking over to the bed where Christian is standing and waiting for my return. JJ is standing across the room and keeping a watchful eye. She's not staring but she's also making sure nothing weird is going on and that I'm comfortable. We do a few poses where the sheets cover my most intimate parts, almost making it look like a lazy Saturday morning in bed. We do a few where I lean against the wall and hold my boobs with my hands, not revealing anything for the camera in this shot. My phone starts ringing at one point and JJ hands it to me. I see that it's Spencer and answer with a smile as I run to the other side of the room for some privacy and a robe I brought with me. I say "hey baby, what's up?" Spencer asks me "are you out of breath?" I swallow some air and say "uh yeah just tried to find some privacy from the girls." Spencer says "oh, okay, I just didn't know where you were and wanted to know when you'll be home? Your location is turned off so I was worried." We had done that so he wouldn't spoil his own surprise. I chuckle and say "well the girls and I are just planning a surprise for you and we didn't want you to spoil it." Spencer says "oh huh okay, will you be home soon?" I nod and say "yeah, hopefully within the hour I think." Spencer responds "okay, I'll see you then." I put my phone down and walk back over towards Christian. He smiles and says "was that your man?" I blush and nod. He chuckles "okay, get back on the bed you little whore." I chuckle and nod, following directions. At one point when I'm readjusting, my back is facing Christian and I'm hugging my body because it's cold. He stops me and says "stay just like that." He moves my hair over my shoulder and takes a picture of my back. He then tells me "now give me a strong flexy pose and still face that way." I nod and flex my arms and shoulders a bit without trying to look like I'm in a body building competition. Christian says "fuck yes, you guys have got to see this." JJ and I both get up to see the pictures. The first one shows my scars and it makes me look a bit vulnerable and scared. The second shot shows me looking strong, like the battle scars didn't stop me, they only made me stronger. I tell Christian "I love these." He smiles "me too, it'll be the perfect ending to the photo book and I think the perfect ending to the shoot?" I smile and nod "I agree, plus Spence is wanting me home anyway." Both JJ and Christian smile and nod, agreeing it's time to wrap this up. I get dressed back in my clothes and grab the bag before going downstairs to gather the girls to go home. I ride back over to my apartment with Killian and Alison, I feel strong and confident. I feel happy in my own skin and I don't think I've ever felt like this before. I'm so glad we did this. I say goodbye to the girls as Killian drops me off at the door of my complex. I jog my happy self up to our apartment and walk in the door. As I walk in I notice it's really dark except for one light on in the kitchen. I also notice Spencer's bag by the door before I notice Spencer holding a glass of scotch while also scowling at me as I open the door. I'm looking between the bag and him and, as I'm about to ask him what's going on, he says "we're done. The wedding is fucking off. Maybe make sure to end the call next time you're done talking."