Dreading It

Dreading It

Chapter 32

 Monica's POV 

    I don't feel like myself anymore. I'm trying so hard for Chandler's sake to come around, but it's nearly impossible. Sure I'll put on some fake smiles at work and when Rachel, Joey, and Phoebe are over. The truth is I'm dying inside. In fact, I truly think a part of me died with Ross. 

   Nothing excites me anymore. Going to Central Perk, shopping, cleaning, and cooking. I try to find things to distract myself, but distractions are temporary. Pain is long lasting to permanent. 

   I miss Ross. I miss him every minute of everyday. I look at old pictures of us and bawl my eyes out every time I do. Also, I have cleaning out Ross' apartment hanging over my head. The landlord wants his place cleaned out within the next week. I've been trying to get a little bit of motivation to do so, but I can't. Instead, I've been lying around and doing close to nothing. 

   Maybe it'll be more bearable if I get Chandler and the rest of the gang to help out. That way I won't be alone and the apartment can get cleaned out a quicker rate. 

Hoped that you guys liked this chapter. -Mary :)