Chapter 29

Today is Camila's birthday and after some serious debating I finally convinced Normani and Dinah to let Camz and I have some alone time before she hangs out with Dinah. Pretty much I get Camila for the morning, Dinah has her for the afternoon and we all get her for the party.

It isn't exactly what I wanted but I will compromise if it means spending at least a little time alone with my girlfriend.

I wake up super early so that I can start off Camila's birthday with breakfast in bed. I decide on making her famous waffle, eggs, sausage and bacon wrap. Considering the heat today I figured I will just cook in my bra and underwear that way the birthday girl can wake up with two surprises; I'll let her decide which one she wants to eat.

As soon as I finish cooking I go to wake up my sleeping beauty.

"Birthday girl, wake up." I straddle the younger girl and kiss her tenderly. I move the hair that was covering her face and kiss her once more, this time I feel her lips pucker and kiss back.

I smile into the kiss before breaking it. "I made you breakfast." I point to the plate of food I prepared for her.

"The way you're dressed are you sure you aren't my breakfast?" Camz kinks up her eyebrow and I can't help but blush.

"I can be." I smirk and move my hand slowly down her torso.

"The thing is Lern Jergi, if I start, I won't stop then Dinah wouldn't be too happy with either of us." Camz sits up and wraps her arms around my waist.

"Fine, no birthday sex for you." I stick my tongue out at the younger girl playfully.

"Hey now, Dinah and I aren't hanging out all night, we'll get alone time." Camila brings her lips to mine softly before reaching for her food.

I chuckle and get up so that she can grab her food and eat. The entire time I'm supposed to be eating breakfast I spend it staring at her. There is something that is so mesmerizing about her, no matter what she is doing she is still so unbelievably beautiful.

By the time Camz finishes up with her breakfast I only have about an hour left to spend with her before I have to hand her off to Dinah.

"Oh!" I jump up and reach into the dresser that I have at Camila's house.

"I bought you something, well I bought us something I guess." I grab the small jewelry box and walk over to Camila.

"So a few days ago I told you the story of the sun and the moon and how much it reminds me of us. I told you how you were the moon to my sun because you have this beautiful glow unlike anyone else. You are so important to me and I just want everyone to know it." I hand her the box.

Her face lights up as she opens it. "Lauren this is so cute. I feel bad this must have costed a fortune." She looks up at me and I smile. "You can't put a price on the way that I feel for you." I reply.

Camila takes the necklace out of the box and stares at it. I got her a diamond necklace in the shape of the sun and I have the matching diamond necklace in the shape of a moon. "You get the sun because it represents me and I get the moon because it represents you, that way no matter what we are always together."

I take my half out of the dresser. "When you put them together they fit like two puzzle pieces. As cheesy as this is, you were that missing puzzle piece. I never felt complete until you came into my life and that's what this symbolizes. When you're off selling millions of records and performing at sold out venues I want you to wear the necklace and know that even if I am not physically there, I'm always here." I sit on the bed and place my hand on Camila's chest.

"You're always on my boob?" She jokes and I laugh uncontrollably.

"You can't just let me be cute for one minute can you?" I chuckle before I feel her soft lips attaching to mine.

"I don't know what I did to deserve you but you are the best thing to happen to me. Promise me one thing." She says after breaking the kiss.

"I know I made you promise before but promise you won't leave me. You're my puzzle piece too and without you I won't be complete. Also I need for you to not break my heart. It's very fragile and you have all the power so promise me." She looks at me and I can tell she is genuinely scared that I will be like everyone else in her life and leave.

"I promise I will never break your heart, it means too much to me. Also, I hate to break it to you but you're stuck with me. I'm not going anywhere though if we don't get dressed Dinah may kill me." I chuckle and glance at the clock.

"Dinah can wait." The birthday girl whines and I kiss her nose. She is so cute it actually hurts.

I grab an old shirt from The 1975 concert that I went to last year and pull it over my head. I grab a pair of black booty shorts as well and pull them on. I purposely turn over so that my ass is facing Camz as I put the shorts on.

"You are such a tease jerkface." Camila pouts once I turn around and I giggle.

"Don't worry you can take it off later." I wink and toss a shirt at her.

"As much as I enjoy your lack of clothing I enjoy being alive just as much and I won't be if I don't get you to the diner in time." I say as I put my moon necklace on.

Camila puts on her necklace and then picks up the flannel shirt and buttons it halfway up before picking out a pair of skinny jeans to go with it. My jaw drops at how gorgeous she can look in an everyday kind of outfit.

Camz decides to pull a me on me and turn around so that her rear is facing me as she wiggles the pants up. I bite my lip and grab my car keys off of Camila's dresser.

I drove as slowly as possible on the way to the diner because I did not want to leave the presence of the younger girl. I pull up to the front of the store and pout.

"Don't leave me." I whine as Camila unbuckles her seat belt.

"You can always join, I'm sure Dinah won't mind." Camila offers but I shake my head no. As much as I would love to crash the party, Normani would not be very happy with me if I left her hanging with the party decorations.

"I don't want to interrupt your tradition, I will see you very soon." I lean over and kiss Camila. I reluctantly pull my lips away after a few seconds and allow her to go into the diner with Dinah.

I drive to Normani's house which is where the party is going to be. Honestly my last party didn't go so well but I am hoping that this one goes a lot better.

"Hey." I smile at my best friend as I enter the house.

"Finally what took you so long?" She questions and I roll my eyes.

"Nice to see you too." I chuckle and grab a soda from her refrigerator.

"It's nice to see you Lauren now can you help me put up the happy birthday decorations and make sure no one touches her cake." Mani said and glanced at Sean, Dinah's cousin.

"Don't worry I won't touch the birthday cake, I'm watching my figure." He smirked and I laugh.

"Sean you literally ate an entire pizza pie by yourself 10 minutes ago." Normani chimed in.

"And my diet started 9 minutes ago, what's your point?" He sassed.

"Oooohhhh he told you." I instigated and took a sip of my soda as Normani glares at me.

"What are you two even good for." She mumbles.

"Ask Camila." I smirk and Sean does the most hysterical and over dramatic laugh I have ever heard.

The rest of the afternoon was spent bickering with Normani just for fun before a few people started to come. I didn't notice most people but I kept it friendly, greeting whoever came through the door.

About an hour after most people started to arrive I see the one person I didn't want nor expect to come here.

"Hailee.." I fake a smile and nod as she smiles back. I can tell her smile is faker than her whole innocent persona which if you ask me is pretty damn fake. After seeing her I know that if I want to make it through the night, I am going to need a drink or two.

I go straight to the cabinet and open up a bottle of vodka and take a huge sip.

I can already feel myself loosening up a bit and I check my phone looking for the time.

It's already past 8, Camz should've been here already. I take one more sip and walk back to towards the door.

The next 20 minutes were spent talking to random people and waiting for my girlfriend to get here.

I take my phone out and decide to call her but then I see Dinah. I sigh in relief and walk up to her.

"Hey D, where is Camila?" I ask.

"She's outside, she kind of figured it was a party by the amount of people outside though, ooh girl I can smell the booze on your breath where is it?" She changes topics and I hand her the half empty bottle that I forgot I was holding onto.

I walk outside and look around for my girlfriend. I spot her figure and start walking towards her before noticing she wasn't alone.

I can tell she was arguing with Hailee but I wasn't close enough to hear what it was about.

Before I can confront them Camz storms off in the opposite direction. I walk straight to Hailee and shove her.

"What the hell is going on? This is her birthday party and you come here with all this drama?" I yell at the brunette girl.

"You really want to know why we were arguing?" She smirks. I remain silent not knowing if I actually want to hear what the argument was about or not.

"We fucked. I told her she needs to tell you but she just doesn't want to. Stubborn girls, they are the best. She's so kinky too I love it." Hailee beams and before I can stop myself my fist connects with her jaw.

As much as it hurt, it wasn't nearly as much as my heart hurt hearing that Camila cheated on me.

I leave the brunette on the floor clutching her jaw as I stumble into the house. My eyes burn and I can feel the tears trying to escape but I am desperately fighting it back.

"Lauren are you okay?" I turn around and see Brad. I'm not sure if it was the alcohol or the heartbreak but I grab him and kiss him. I can tell he was taken aback but that didn't stop him from stopping the kiss.

The only thing that stopped it was the sound of glass falling on the floor. I jump back and see Camila standing there, a broken glass at her foot.

Tears were already forming in her eyes and even though she hurt me, hurting her was the worst pain imaginable.

Camz turns and starts to run towards the door. I chase after her for the millionth time and grab her arm.

"Don't fucking touch me Lauren!" she yells and pulls her arm away.

"Why are you mad? You think it's okay to cheat but suddenly when you get cheated on you're the victim?" I slur.

"Are you kidding me Lauren? Again with this delusion that I am cheating on you? Have some fucking confidence in yourself and stop always.." she starts but I cut her off.

"Hailee told me everything!" I scream and I am done trying to hold back the tears.

"I find it so pathetic that you will trust anyone over your girlfriend. Nothing happened between Hailee and I, I told her that I didn't want to be friends anymore because I didn't want anyone coming between us. THAT is why we were arguing but I really hope that kiss was the best damn kiss of your life because it just ruined us. Don't chase me, don't call me, don't even think about me."

"Everyone was right, they said 'don't get involved with her she's just going to break your heart' and I didn't believe them. I learned my lesson. How could you do this? How could I be so stupid to think someone like you could want someone like me? Congrats Lauren you broke me. Again. So much for your promises that you wouldn't right?" Camila says through tears and I feel so stupid.

I knew how manipulative Hailee was and I still let her get to me and I still let her get in between Camila and I. I have no words I just stare at the younger girl as everyone stares between the both of us.

"It's over." She wipes the tears from her eyes and walks away.

"Camz wait.. Please give me a second chance.. I.. I love you." I say between sobs.

I finally had the courage to say the three words that I have felt for so long. I love Camila. More than that, I am in love with Camila. I always have been but I was too much of a pussy to tell her the truth. I didn't want her to say she didn't feel the same way but right now it is all or nothing.

"What a shame because I hate you." Camila whispers before walking out of the door and walking out on us. At that point I no longer cared about everyone around.

My knees gave in and I buckled to the floor sobbing. I just lost the love of my life and I can never get her back.

I look up and Dinah is staring at me. "I... I'm sorry.." I sob.

"Fuck you Lauren! You aren't sorry! I can't believe I ever had faith that you could change and actually have a heart. You are such a pathetic fucking excuse of a girl. How could you do that to her? She let you in. She told you things that she didn't even tell me until YEARS after knowing her. All she ever did was give her all to you and you do this bullshit?" She screams.

"Dinah enough!" Normani yells back at Dinah.

"Oh go ahead take victim Lauren's side Normani because little Lauren can't do ANYTHING wrong right? I mean who cares that she just broke Camila's heart. How would you feel if I did that to you? Or do you not give a fuck either?" Dinah turns to Normani.

Normani looks like someone just slapped her in the face and I want to defend her but I don't even know what to say.

"Fuck you Dinah." She replied. She tried so hard to pretend like she wasn't hurt but I know her more than I know myself and I can tell Dinah's words cut deeper than any knife ever could.

"You did that. Maybe you should fuck Lauren next, it's obvious you two only play around until you get what you want, you deserve each other." Dinah spits.

"Get the fuck out. Now!" Normani screams and I follow the eyes of everyone at the party as Dinah storms out of the house and Normani wipes her eyes.

"Mani I...." I start.

"Lauren save it. You were fucking wrong. Party is over everyone get out." Normani said.

Once she saw that no one was moving she raised her voice.

"I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!" She screamed and this time everyone followed her orders. Within a matter of minutes everyone was gone and Normani fell on the floor crying.

My already broken heart shattered more at my best friends pain and knowing I am the cause of it. What a shocker, Lauren screwing everything up all over again.

"Mani.." I whisper.

"Just go Lolo.. Go home." She sobbed and even though I know that I should stay, I walk away.

Instead of walking to my house I decide to go to Camila's house. I can't give up, not that easily.

I stumble to my car and get inside. I take out my phone and tried calling Camila but all I got was a voicemail.

I pull off and speed towards Camila's house. My vision is so blurry and I can't tell if it is from the alcohol or the tears that are still streaming out.

I look down at my phone and type a text message to Camila, she can ignore my calls but she can't ignore my texts.

I love you. I'm sor

I stop and look up at the road quickly.

The only thing is I no longer saw the road, the only thing I saw was a tree. I tried to swerve the car but the feeling in the pit of my stomach was telling me I was too late.