nineteen

- Gulf -

P'Mew is still not talking to me and I think he has no plan to do so. Several times I tried to open my mouth to start a conversation with him but his silence scares me. This is so hard. My mouth is itching to talk but it looks like my tongue was cut off.

We are now driving to the nearest supermarket, with no one talking. Only the soft sound of an indie band is heard, nothing else. 

The car stopped. We are already here. I unfastened the seat belt, waited for P'Mew and got out of the car. I looked at him as I close the door from the other side but he's still avoiding my eyes. Aaaaa. P', when will you talk to me? 

I followed him inside. Thanks to his long legs, I lost him. I tried to look around to see a tall guy in his white shirt and black pants, but there are many of them. I turned left and there I saw a tall guy, dazzling in a white shirt that complements well with his white, silky complexion, standing in front of the entrance of the supermarket. 

"Why did you disappear all of a sudden?" 

As expected, he did not utter a word. So you're playing hard-to-get now, huh? Okay, challenge accepted. Bring it on!

I went to the shelves of shampoo and took a bottle. I also added a conditioner. I walk towards P' and showed him what I got in my hands. He just looked at it  so what I did, I pointed at the bottles, and pointed at him, and weaved a sign like that of like in Facebook in my hand. He looked so confused so I repeated the sign language. I am conveying, if he likes the shampoo and the conditioner that I picked. If he nodded yes, then I will put it on the cart he's pulling. 

He also gestures a like sign in his hand so I put it on the cart. If P' says yes, then it's a yes. Hihi.

We continued being like that until I got all the things I needed. I find it quite fun because we understood each other even without saying anything. I also caught him smiling when I am turning around to ask him but then pulls back to being poker face. I saw it, P'. I saw it. I saw it 

"That will be 940 baht, sir."

I was about to give her my card when a prominent bulging veiny hand extends from my back, almost embracing me, handed his card to the cashier. I heard the sound of the register but what I am most worried about is the deafening sound of my heart. Calm down.

"Come again, sir."

I felt P'Mew pushed me a little on my back so we can give way for the next shoppers. He grabbed the plastic bag and and walked on his own, leaving me again without a word. I run to catch up to him.

Just look at this guy. Being so sulky but he still cares for me. He even bought me my necessities. I am so happy.

P'Mew stopped which also made me stop. He looked at me as if he's battling if he'll say it or not. Just say it, P'.

“I'm hungry.”

Just imagine a guy looking so hot even with just a plain white and then suddenly tells you he's hungry like he's a seven-year old boy.

“You're no longer angry with me?”

“Hmp.”

His hair bounced as he rolled his eyes and turned somewhere else.

“I didn't say I'm angry.”

“Then, why are you like that?”

“And I didn't say I'm not.”

“Huh?”

“And I didn't say you can hang out with your roommate.”

I pulled P' away from the crowd since we're already drawing everyone's attention.

“I didn't know he'll be there. I swear it. And that picture, I have no idea who took it.”

“It doesn't matter who took it. What matters is the image it caught.”

“No, P'. I accidentally spilled sauce on his shirt that's why I helped him. That's all.”

He took out his phone and showed me again the picture.

“This near???”

“Then, how far should it be?”

“Three feet. Keep a distance from him, at least three feet. Understood?”

“Uhh~”

He automatically smiled upon agreeing to him. What a childish.

Right then, we went to a restaurant and ordered some food.

“Didn't you already have dinner? Why are you eating like they didn't feed you?”

P'Mew said looking at me surprised as I eat.

“Oh. I didn't eat much.”

Lie.

My stomach is already full and I am still stuffing myself with food. I think I am eating myself to death now. It's just that I don't want to upset P' by eating alone. What's the point of having me around if I will not eat with him, right?

We finished eating and I feel like my stomach's about to burst in any minute. What did I do to myself? Aaaaa.

“Gulf.”

I looked at P'. We are now inside his car, ready to go home.

“Can't you just live with me?”

“Huh? What do you mean?”

“I mean, move out of your dorm and then we'll find a place where we can be together.”

He held my hand and looked me in the eyes, telling me he is serious about it.

“It's just that I don't like the thought of having him as your roommate when you can just have me instead.”

“Uhh~”

He then pulled my hand nearer to his face until his soft lips touched the back of my hand.

“Thank you. You made me so happy.”

I know very well that he's uncomfortable with New but still he chose to help him earlier and I am thankful for that. Maybe it's a good idea after all. He'll be then free from his weird thoughts that always lead to misunderstandings. Hays.

Plus.

I will get to see him everyday.

From the moment I open my eyes.

Until I shut my eyes close.

I will be seeing him always.

Just as how happy I am in my thoughts, there goes a bomb exploding just to interrupt it.

And when I say bomb.

Yeah. Bomb.

A very dangerous bomb that I just wish is real and could take my soul with it.

“Looks like someone badly needs a bathroom now, eh?”

“P'!!!!!!!!!”

When we already reached my dorm, I was about to open the door when P'Mew stopped me.

“Can you just stay with me tonight? At my place?”

Due to panic and fear of exploding something right here in public, I just agreed to him without even realizing what was he just asked. All I know, I need to release this thing or else.

“I'll just park and wait you here.”

That was hell of an experience. Good thing I was able to hold it in well because if not, I don't know which planet to live in next.

It was just right when I was about to lay down my back when I remembered P' who is still waiting for me.

Geez. What am I thinking to just agree to everything he asks?

I quickly packed some of my clothes and went down already. My roommate was there, already sleeping.

When I reached the car again which reminds me of something really unforgettable that I wish to erase from my memory and his, I saw P'Mew smiling from ear to ear.

He lowered his window.

“Let's go!”

Why do I smell trouble? Like, something bad is going to happen? Aaaaaaaaaaa. Help!

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