Initiation

Simaya:

It was the day before Abel's birthday and he was coming over tonight to spend the night with me after chilling with his boys. Since Valentine's day he's been amazing and wished things could stay like this forever. While opening Gizmo's canned dog food my door bell rang. Placing a couple of tablespoons in his bowl I washed my hands and went to answer.

"Hey Amina I wasn't expecting you"

Moving to the side letting her in I closed the door behind her.

"Sorry for coming here unannounced but you're the only person I can trust with this"

Amina looked scared and nervous which was something out of character for her.

"What's wrong?"

"My, well.. I haven't had my period and I might think that I'm pregnant"

"Ohh my god!! How exciting! Let's go get some tests so we can find out for sure"

"Maya I'm scared, what if Cash doesn't want it? We only been together for 4 months and he's always gone"

I could see why she worried and I understood her fears of Cash being gone, I felt the same when Abel would leave.

"Before you start thinking of that let's go get some tests before work and find out. And even if you are Cash is in love with you and would be hapy about this"

"Thanks My, I love you"

"I love you too Mina"

Driving to a drug store we practically bought every pregnancy test they had and went back to my place so Amina could test herself.

"Okay these three tests take two minutes and these two tests take three minutes. Um, I guess just dip the stick in the urine and wait?"

"This is gross Maya!!"

"Just make sure you place those tests on top of the towel,I don't want your piss all over my sink!!"

Amina came walking out as I looked down at my watch reading the time.

"Maya can you check them for me?"

"We have a minute to go but I'll check"

The last minute seemed like an eternity but it was time to read the tests. Walking in my restroom I saw pluses or two pink lines.

"Amina they all say that you're pregnant"

"I knew it, now I gotta tell Cash"

"Stop stressing, he will be happy about this. And you should be too"

"You're right, it's just that I wasn't expecting this. Thank you for everything, I'll see you at work"

Walking her to the door I hugged her comforting her. Walking back my phone went off because I had a text message.

Abel:

I can't wait to see you tonight

Me:

I'll be home around 3 baby

So don't come too late, I want to ride it out

Abel:

Shit you kno I'll be there I love you

Me:

I love you too baby

Going to work was becoming dreadful by the day. Every night before I would go on stage I would think of Abel's offer about me quitting. A part of me did because I knew he hated the fact of other guys touching on me but the other part of me was scared. I didn't want to depend on him or make it seem like I was with him for money. Another fear I had was Abel thinking he owned me, because of his habits he was very unpredictable even sometimes acted bipolar.

I was really in a tough situation.

Abel:

Going through the plans for my London shows, my boys and I would drink and get so high we would lose track of time. Chilling at Lamar's he had bitches everywhere ready to initiate. High off lines I wasn't going to stay for when that happened. Getting ready to call a cab to take me to Maya's Lamar approached me.

"Yo Abel so what's up with you and that one girl from the club"

Since Maya brought up what happened with her and Henny I kept our relationship as private as I could. My boys were used to initiating and passing girls around they didn't think I would be the one to take one serious. The only person that really knew about us was Cash, he was more mature and understood where I was coming from.

"Simaya? She's cool, we chill"

There's only so much I could hide from Lamar, he knew me all too well.

"Nigga stop lying, you don't go back to the same girl unless you like her. You did the same with Valerie and Alice"

Valerie and I always had an on and off relationship, between those off times there was also Alice who I thought was the one for me.

"I ain't gonna lie, I like her and we are going to see where things end up"

"I'm happy for you and all bro but once you hit the road for shows and tours you think she's going to trust you with all the bitches throwing themselves at you? Think about it, we all know you go hard as fuck and it's bound to happen that you end up with a different girl every night"

Knowing Maya and I didn't have a commitment gave me grounds to do what I want but I also knew she didn't want me to be with other girls. Lamar was right, I had little self control and Maya was bound to get hurt.

"You're right, but I like this girl and all I can do I try right?"

"Good luck nigga, cuz you're going to need it"

Smirking at Lamar I flipped him off as he laughed.

It was almost four in the morning when I got to Maya's. She was asleep when I went to the restroom to wash my face to sober up a bit from the lines of coke I did. Drying my face I looked down at the trash canister and saw boxes of pregnancy tests. Ripping a piece of toilet I picked up a test and saw a plus sign, flipping the box over it read that the test was positive.

"What the fuck?"

Simaya:

In a deep sleep I could feel someone one shake my shoulder to wake up.

"Simaya wake the fuck up"

"Abel what's wrong with you?"

"Are you pregnant?"

Still groggy and half asleep I didn't understand why was he asking me that question.

"What are you talking about?"

"Stop fucking playing, I seen the tests in your bathroom trash. You fucken lied to me when you said you're on birth control!"

More awake I realized that he saw Amina's pregnancy tests.

"Abel calm the fuck down, and yes I am on birth control-"

"You fucken lied to me, you're trying to trap me like those other bitches"

Squeezing my arm and pulling me out of bed he really scared me, he must be high.

"Abel let me go, you're hurting me! Let me explai--"

"Nah fuck you Maya, get rid of it. I'm not ready for a kid and you know that"

Pulling my arm away from him he stormed out and left.

Sitting back on my bed I was in shock, what just happened? Not able to hold it I bursted into tears. Knowing about his trust issues I never gave him reasons to not trust me.

Abel:

Not believing what just happened I turned off my phone and walked home to shake this feeling off. How could she lie to me? I should of known better not to use protection with her, and she was the only one I fucked unprotected.

Getting to my loft I threw myself on my bed wanting to sleep. What a way for my birthday to start. Closing my eyes I drifted off to sleep.

"Bro wake up! You gotta get ready for your party tonight!"

Opening my eyes I saw Cash standing there with Hawk.

"What time is it?"

"Damn nigga, you were like in a coma"

I heard Hawk laugh.

"It's 5 in the evening"

Getting up I struggled walking to the shower. As soon as the warm water hit my face I remembered what happened between Maya and I. Out of fear and being paranoid from the coke I reacted like an asshole.

Now sober I wouldn't mind having a child with Simaya, I was just afraid that I would end up like my own father, not being around.

Walking out of my room I saw Hawk playing PS4 and Cash at my dining room table texting.

"Are you good now?"

"Yeah, I overdid it last night. And I fought with Maya"

"Damn already? I don't know bro, it seems like you two fight more than get along"

"It's my fault, I was high as fuck and acted fucked up towards her"

"You need to chill on that powder, it makes you a whole different person"

Cash was right, when I did coke I was someone different. It was the ugly side of me, the cheater, the fucked up person, the one who had no heart.

"It's hard though, seeing those pregnancy tests just made me flip"

I noticed Cash's eyes widened.

"You think you're having a baby?"

"I guess, I left her place not letting her explain. I accused her of trapping me and told her to get rid of it"

"Bro, I need to tell you something. Amina is pregnant and she was at Simaya's when she took those tests. I think you got mixed up"

Now I really felt even more fucked up but another part of me felt disappointed that she wasn't carrying my baby, thoughts ran through my head that maybe a baby would tame my wild ways.

"So you're saying I fucked up? And congrats on the baby"

"Pretty much and thanks"

After Cash told me about the mixup I tried calling and texting Maya but she didn't respond. It was already 11 at night and we were headed to the club to meet with threst of the crew to celebrate my birthday. The whole car ride there I was hoping she would show up so I can apologize for her.

Walking through the back of the club we walked through the crowds of people to get to our VIP section. Having bottles ready for me I took shots of Patron waiting to see if Maya would show up.

Smoking on my blunt I looked toward the bar area and saw her with Amina making her way toward us. I really needed to make up for this fuck up.

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