16

As much as yesterday was an eye opener, I can't help but feel heavy, knowing that this between Chan and I will soon come to an end.

I have enjoyed his company, and I have grown to really like him.. but it hurts so much knowing that it all started as a fucking bet. How disingenuous could someone be?

I don't doubt his current feelings, but knowing how they started just doesn't sit right with me.

The foundations aren't stable.

I would never move on from it.

Knowing Yua and Frankie are aware of it as well just makes it even worse.

It has to end.

I got out of bed carefully, not to disturb Chan, and I put some clothes on to get some air.

I walked out of the balcony doors and made my way over to the back of the villa.

I sat on the grass looking out to the mountains, and I waited for the sun to begin peaking out from behind them.

I love a sun rise.

There's something so tranquil.. so zen about them.

I need that balance within me today.

I need to keep my cool, because no doubt today will be hard.

I need to find the perfect time to out him, though.

He doesn't get to do that to me without repercussions, so it needs to be just right.

Although..

I at least want proper sex before shit hits the fan.

He owes me that, at least.

As the sun lit up the sky, I heard a small gasp from behind me.

I turned to see Chan stood with his phone, taking a photo of the landscape.

"I could never get tired of this view." He gushed.

He then walked over to me and bent down to kiss me on the head, before showing me the photo, which of course, had me in it, looking back at him candidly.

It was a nice photo, I have to admit, and he was acting rather cute, but I wasn't in the mood to get butterflies.

He has hurt me.

I need to remind myself of that.

I got to my feet, and as I walked back to the room, Chan patted my ass while following me.

As we reached our four walls, I decided now was the time to instigate sex again.

I walked up to Chan, and he smiled at me, pulling me closer to him to engulf me in his arms.

"I'd like for us to try it again.." I whispered into his ear, and he let out an inquisitive hum.

He then slipped his hand under my t-shirt to caress my waist while giving me a flirty smirk.

I hadn't seen this look from him before.

Come to bed eyes.

My legs felt like jelly, and I wondered if this is what it would feel like every time, knowing that it would feel good for both of us from now on..

He held my jaw, stroking it gently, before connecting our lips softly.

My heart was racing already.

Chan then let out a short panicked breath and pulled away, furrowing his brows.

"Only if you're sure?.." He quizzed back with worry in his tone, second guessing me.

He's really making it hard to hate him.

I didn't think he'd put my feelings first so often as he does.

"Will it happen again?" I mumbled, and he pecked my forehead, rubbing up the side of my body.

"It shouldn't do.. but I'll take it slow.." He reassured me, and I felt a little excited at the prospect of it actually feeling nice, but also knowing he has enough self awareness really helps calm my mind.

"What if you just do what you would normally do?" I suggested, and he seemed unsure.

"What I normally do might not feel too nice for you.."

I stared at him, waiting for him to elaborate.

That doesn't make sense..

Chan then cleared his throat.

"My style is a bit more.. rough.."

Oh.

I annoyingly felt butterflies.

The thought of Chan dominating me like that makes me throb..

I still like this guy, even if he has hurt me. My body wants him. It needs him.

"Like what? Hair pulling? Choking?" I then suggested openly, walking my fingers up his chest, and he nodded.

Oh, my.

"I'd like that." I smiled at him, ignoring my head right now.

I want something intense.

"I don't want it to be too much for you, though.." He worried, but I dismissed him.

"If I tell you it's too much, will you be able to calm it down?" I asked him, and he nodded profusely at me.

"You can trust me."

Hmph.

The fuck I can.

But I'll take his word for it in this sense.

I began undressing for him, and he did the same, then slowly married his lips with mine, guiding me back onto the bed, peppering kisses down my body.

I never even noticed he slipped the condom on, and things moved so quickly from that moment, so intensely, that before I knew it, he was teasing his cock inside me.

I've never felt so aroused before.

It's like my whole body tingled from his touch.

He bit and sucked my neck, and I knew he'd be leaving me a love bite. Marking me like I am his.

I don't care for it, though.

It'll serve as a reminder that he is just trash, wanting to get his dick wet.

He ran his fingers through my hair, then held a tight fistful, making me let out a pained cry.

The sensation of the hair pulling helped to distract me from the initial discomfort of his cock settling inside me.

It doesn't hurt as much as before, but the surrounding intensity is helping to mask it.

"Fuck, oh, baby." He exhaled, pushing deeper inside me, and I felt like I was gasping for air that escaped my lungs.

This feels insane.

"Chan.. choke me.." I urged him, and his hand travelled to my throat as he pumped into me faster.

Fuck.

So this is how it feels..

I felt a building climax, and by the look of Chan's face, he did as well.

He squeezed my throat just enough so I was struggling for air, and in a moment of frustration, he picked me up and slammed me back down onto the bed.

"Chan!" I cried, feeling overcome with my building release, and he dropped down to kiss me desperately, increasing the velocity of his trusts to chase my orgasm.

I gasped as it reached its point, and I felt my legs pulse and shake as it  just ruined my senses.

"Oh my god.." I let out, completely exhausted, and Chan eased his movements off for my recovery.

"Oh, fuck..

Did you finish?" I panted, and he nodded with a cheeky smile.

"Ages ago. I didn't want to cut yours short.. But luckily I was still hard." He chuckled awkwardly, and as he pulled out, we noticed a little bit of blood again, but also my juices.

"How does it feel to orgasm like that? That was the sexiest thing I've ever witnessed." He gushed.

I felt myself get shy, and I pulled him by his shoulders to kiss me.

"Incredible." I giggled, then got up off the bed for a pee.

I stood in front of the bathroom mirror, and I was taken aback by how red my neck is. This love bite is huge.

Maybe not the best idea.

I made it back to the room, and I got in bed with him.

"Can we cuddle for a moment?" I suggest, and he nods at me excitedly, wrapping his arm around me.

I'm so nervous to tell him.

After what we just shared, it feels wrong to ruin the vibe, but at least I got what I wanted, and he did as well.

Chan interlocked our fingers together, and I rested my head on his chest.

Here goes.

"Chan.." I started, exhaling as I tried to compose myself.

"Yes, baby?" He responded casually.

"I know about the bet."