Chapter 25

This week will be regionals week. And I'm still down since everyone are prepare for regionals and I had nothing. I dont even have Mike with me. Since I saw him in Breadstix and dancing with another woman, I feel like he already found someone else to replace me.

Now I really dont care with regionals. I dont care if Rachel gonna get solo anymore or not. I guess I lost everything in my life. I lost my appetite and I dont care with my dream.

"That's it. I'm done. I'm leaving this classroom, and I'm going to beat that Sebastian kid's ass!" Finn says angrily and stand up from his seat.

"Finn, chill." Dad says to him.

"No, I'm not going to chill. I-I'm done chilling." Finn protest.

"The official show choir rule book states that any real or perceived threat of violence, vandalism or humiliation will be met with a swift and unquestioned disqualification of the threatening party's team with extreme prejudice.  It's right here. Page 72, by-law 15, section six, article 44." Artie says to us.

"Guys, I contacted the headmaster of Dalton." Dad says to us.

"Like you did when Sebastian almost blinded me? What did they do then? Same thing as they're going to do now nothing." Blaine protest.

"Look, none of this matters now anyways, okay? We're not going to let him beat us like this. I'm going to perform at Regionals." Rachel says to us.

"Even if he's going to post a photo like this of me if you do?" Finn asks Rachel.

"Finn, I'm not going to negotiate with terrorists." Rachel says to Finn.

"If someone posted a picture like that of me online, I'd probably kill myself. Twice to be sure I was dead." Sam simply said.

"Look, you guys are just going to have to deal with things like this. The more successful you get, the more garbage people are going to make up about you. They're going to love to tear you down." Rachel says to us.

"I can't believe you would do that to me." Finn frown at her.

"I'm going to be married to you. Don't you think I'm going to suffer the consequences as well? I mean, I just I don't care about stuff like that. I love you, and we'll we'll manage this together. Okay, the important thing right now is that we win." Rachel says to Finn.

"So you wouldn't care if I Photoshopped a photo of you like this and put it on the Internet?" Finn asks Rachel.

"Look, our future depends on us winning Regionals. It'll help me towards my NYADA application." Rachel says to Finn.

"Hmm. Hope you get in." Finn simply said and walk out from the choir room.

"Finn." Dad sighs.

"I guess we still can win without Rachel perform on regionals. Last sectionals even we didnt have Mercedes and Santana and we still won. Now we might dont have her but we still have The Troubletones with us and any other singer." I said to them.

"What? No! Mr. Schue, you said that you will give me a solo so I can put it into my NYADA application if we win." Rachel protest.

"This is regionals not Rachel Berry show!" I yelled. "You think only you who is senior here? Other people matters! You make thing worse, Rachel. All you think is only about yourself." I shake my head.

"I'm not!" Rachel protest.

"Enough!" Dad yelled. "You make thing worse, Paris. Stop this thing!" Dad yelled at me.

"I make thing worse? You know I have an awful week by myself, dad. Oh your daughter is Rachel now? Change her last name with yours then. Dont try to find me tonight. I wont perform at regionals. You guys can perform without me. I'm tired singing back up song and swaying for Rachel." I said to them and walk out from the choir room.

Tears slowly fall down to my face. I cant believe that dad yelled at me like that in choir room and defended Rachel. I hold this for the past three years. Sit down there swaying and singing back up song while she got all the solos.

I had an awful week by myself. He knows that. I lost everything in my life now. Nobody loves me. I know that. I wont go home tonight. I also wont go to my mom's house or dad will find me.

I open my locker and take my bagpack. After that I walk out from McKinley's building and waiting for a cab as tears stil slowly fall down to my face.

"You okay, kid?" Coach Beiste asks me.

I shake my head and let my head down. "Can I stay with you for a night coach? I dont mind to sleeping in the sofa." I turn my face at coach Beiste.

"Come on. Calm yourself down." Coach Beiste says to me and walks lead me to her car.

I wipe my tears away and get into her car until coach Beiste drive away from McKinley building. I just let my head down as I'm still sobbing.

"Dont tell dad that I'm with you." I said to coach Beiste.

"I wont tell as long as you want to tell me what's going on." Coach Beiste says to me.

"Dad yelled at me in choir room when I just defended myself and my friends there." I'm sobbing.

Coach Beiste just park her car in front of her house. "Come on in. We can talk inside." Coach Besite says to me.

I went out from her car and get into her house. "Thank you, coach." I said to her.

"It's okay. Your dad and I are bestfriend." Coach Beiste says to me. "I'll be right back."

I'm sitting down on the sofa and wipe my tears away as I'm still sniffling. Coach Beiste walks back to the living room and give me blanket and pillow.

"Sadly, I dont have any guest room here." Coach Beiste says to me.

"Thank you so much, coach." I said to her.

"What happened huh?" Coach Beiste asks me.

"Dad yelled at me in choir room. I was just defended myself and my friends there. Rachel was too selfish. I mean it's like she run the glee club for her and make that glee club is hers. Then dad yelled at me and said that I made everything worse. For the fact that I'm jealous. Dad always defended Rachel and give her everything there and I didnt get it and I'm his daughter." I said sadly.

"Dont be sad. You are your dad number one and he loves you more than anyone else. And ran away from your house will make him more upset, kid." Coach Beiste says to me.

"I dont know coach." I sigh.

"Stay here. I'll buy dinner." Coach Beiste says to me and walk out from her house.

I let out a sigh and cover my body with the blanket and lean my head against the headboard.

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Mike's POV

I cant stop thinking about Paris. She must be run away from her house since he fough with her father. But we are broke up and I dont know what should I do.

"Dude, we need to talk." Sam standing next to my locker.

"Talk about what? I broke up with her and you can get her." I simply said and shut my locker.

"I want to apologize." Sam blocks my way. "What I did was totally out of the line and I shouldnt do that. I know. I was insane. I really like her but I realized that she loves you. Only you. I kissed her but I swear, she didnt kiss me back. She was shocked. I told her to met me and forced her to sing a song with me."

"And you can get her now. You won." I simply said.

"No. Look. I dont want to win like this. She loves you and I know you love her. When The God Squad performing on Sugar's party. I saw her enter Breadstix but then she saw you danced with another girl and she went out. I saw that. I will back off. I dont want to break a friendship only because of a girl. She loves you and I will never ever can win her heart. Get her back." Sam says to me and walk away.

I let out a sigh and being quiet. I know this is too late but I want Paris back into my life. I really love her. Only her. Nobody else. And this is driving me insane. I shouldnt say that words to her or dance with another girl when she was crying over me. This is stupid.

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Paris's POV

I'm still sitting down on the sofa in coach Beiste's living room. I cross my legs and cover my lap with the blanket. I take my backpack. I take my phone and my phone cant stop vibrating because dad cant stop calling me.

I reject his call and turn off my phone. I put my phone inside my backpack and lean my head against the headboard. Until I hear a sound of door open.

"Hey, baby. Come on go home with daddy." Dad kneel down in front of me and hold my hand.

"I dont want to." I shake my head. "Why dont you go home with Rachel?"

"Honey, Rachel has her own house. I'm sorry what I did okay. Your mom and I cant stop worrying about you. I called her and she said you werent there and I was confused and worried where you were. But glad coach Beiste want to tell me the truth after I forced her. Come on, we go home and we can talk about this at home. Dont make difficult to coach Beiste." Dad says to me.

"After you yelled at me like that in choir room? You know that I had awful week, dad. And then you yelled at me like that and defended Rachel in choir room. I'm your daughter not her. But it seems like you love her more than me." I'm crying.

Dad sit down next to me and hugs me and make me lean my head on his chest and he rubs my hair. "I apologize for that. I'm really sorry for that. Sweet Pea, I love you so much. More than anything in this world. More than I love myself. I know that was first time I yelled at you like that and I shouldnt do that especially in front of your friend. I'm really sorry for that. What do you want now? A solo for regionals? You will get that." Dad kisses my forehead.

"No. I'm just jealous." I shake my head.

"Dont be. You're my little princess. Not Rachel, honey." Dad rubs my hair and kisses my forehead. "I'm really sorry. And we better go home okay."

"Stay here little bit longer. I already bough dinner with extra chicken." Coach Beiste says to us and sit down on the seat opposite us.

"Thank you, Shannon." Dad says to her. "You've been crying all week and stop that now." Dad says to me and wipe my tears away.

"Here. Everything with extra chicken." Coach Beiste says to us and take her food from the paperbag.

Suddenly dad's phone is ringing. I left his shoulder and he take his phone from his flannel pocket and answer that call and gasped.

"What happened?" I ask dad.

"David Karofsky attempted suicidal because of bullying at his new school." Dad frowns at us.

"Jesus." Coach Beiste gasped.

I didnt say anything and dad just hugging me and kisses my head. I hug him back and just being quiet. I cant believe that a bullying can make everyone crazy like that.

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I'm standing in front of my locker and mark the things that I should to do for today. The school become awkward since the news about Karofsky attemped suicidal. I know that things scared everyone. Even dad cant stop apologize to me about what happened in that choir room that day.

"Hey, can I talk to you for second?" Rachel suddenly standing next to my locker.

"Ugh yes. I want to apologize. I was really mean that day. I just had an awful week and I cant handle it and it was just like hell." I said to her.

"I respect that. Thank you. I also want to apologize. I was out of the line. I know you were jealous and think that I'm gonna steal your dad away right? But no. I have two dads. And it's-it's just what you said was right. I'm too selfish and I guess I'm the most selfish person in this world. I made up my mind. I wont perform on regionals and you can have that solo." Rachel says to me.

"No. I told my dad that I dont want it. You still want that right? You werent join our sectionals and it will be unfair if you not also not join us. I'm fine with that. This is your senior year, Rachel." I said to her.

"But you were amazing during sectionals. Well, I'm still can perform on regionals but you have the solo. How?" Rachel smiles at me.

"I'm not sure my dad will let me." I chuckle.

"He will. Mr. Schue knows how talented his daughter is so he keep that for nationals next year. Everyone in that choir room said that you are glee club secret weapon and I'm sure you can do that. I'm totally fine." Rachel smiles at me.

"Are you sure with that?" I ask her.

"Yeah. It's a good thing to do right?" Rachel smiles at me.

"Thank you so much." I smile back at her.

"Okay, I'm gonna hug you now." Rachel giggles. I smile at her and she hug me and I hug her back. "I'll see you around." Rachel smiles at me and waves at me.

I smile back at her and turn my face to my locker. I continue mark my list and looking at my journal at the same time. I'm still have about ten minutes before emergency glee club that dad make.

Suddenly someone shows me a stalk of red rose. I turn my face and Mike is standing next to my locker and smiles at me.

"A beautiful rose for the most beautiful girl in this world." Mike smiles at me.

I smile back at him and take that rose. "Thank you. I will put it here." I said to him and put the flower in my locker.

"I miss you and I was so stupid to said that things to you." Mike says to me.

"Although I lied to you?" I ask Mike.

Mike takes my hands and holds my hands. "I was so stupid to not believe you. I know you didnt lie to me. I'm really sorry. It sucks to know you not beside me because you are the most amazing girl in this world. I'm lost without you. I miss you so bad. I miss your laugh, your story, and I miss when you sing a song for me so I can sleep. I also had an awful week without you. I just really love you."

I smile at him and kiss him softly as Mike kisses me back. Then I hug him. "I miss you too. Thank God that you believe me." I smile at him.

"So are we fine?" Mike asks me.

"Yes. Back to be normal." I nodded.

"Come on, we have glee club now." Mike put his hand around my shoulder and smiles at me.

I shut my locker and put my hand around his waist and walk next to him. It's glad to be back to Mike's arms and being his girlfriend again.

We are smiling at each other then walk enter the auditorium. Everyone already there and make a circle. I'm sitting down next to Mike and looking at each other until dad walks in and bring a jar of peanut butter and a spoon.

"Mr. Schue, why do you have a jar of peanut butter with one spoon?" Mercedes asks dad.

"Yeah, there are 16 of us here, and I'm only comfortable sharing a spoon with about half of you." Sugar says to us.

"Well, it's come to my attention that our good friend Rory Flanagan has never tasted peanut butter." Dad grins at us and points at Rory.

"You've got to be kidding me." I chuckle.

"I also cant believe that. This is one of my daughter favorite food. I even still can remember her first expression when she tried peanut butter when she was one." Dad chuckles and points at me.

"We never out of peanut butter and cream cheese." I chuckle.

"Rory, if you don't mind." Dad says to Rory and give him a spoon of peanut butter and he eats that.

"Oh, God Oh, my God. That's the best thing I've ever had." Rory grins at us.

"Mr. Schuester, wow, that's incredibly moving." Mercedes says to dad.

"Yeah, Mr. Schue, what's the point of all this?" Finn asks dad.

"The point is Rory just had a brand-new experience, something as simple as peanut butter. You guys are young. I want you to promise me that, no matter how depressed you get, no matter how hopeless or alone you feel, you'll try your best to imagine all of the amazing experiences you have ahead of you." Dad says to us.

"Mr. Schue, look, I know we're a little dramatic sometimes, but I don't think anyone will ever consider taking their own life." Mercedes says to him.

"I did. I ever told this story to Paris. It was junior year. That was a tough year. I, uh, I cheated on my math midterm. Peeked at the answers of the guy next to me and the teacher saw me do it." Dad half-smiled at us.

"Just 'cause you got caught cheating? I get caught cheating all the time." Puck says to dad.

"They called my dad at his office, and he was coming to pick me up. How was I supposed to look him in the eye? I just kept cturing my dad so disappointed in me. So I walked up to the roof. I went right to the edge. One step and all the pain and humiliation would be over." Dad says to us.

"Is that true?" Kurt asks.

"That day, I promise you, it felt like it was the end of the world. But you know what? It wasn't. You know, for some of you, getting caught cheating isn't a big deal. But there's something everyone has something that might take them up to that edge. And look at all the things I would've missed out on. I would've never have a child. I would've never met you guys. I would've missed out on everything. So, right now, I want you all to think of something that you're looking forward to. Big things." Dad says to us.

"Someday, I want to earn enough money to buy my folks a new place, so they don't ever have to go through losing their home again." Sam says to us.

"I'm most looking forward to meeting Rachel Berry's children." Mercedes chuckles.

"I want to be there to see my kid's first steps." Artie says to us.

"I want to be there to see Sex and the City Part III." Sugar says to us.

"Wow." Dad chuckles.

"I'm sort of embarrassed to admit it, but I really do want to graduate high school." Puck says to us.

"I'm gonna petition the Army to change my dad's dishonorable discharge status to an honorable one." Finn says.

"I'm looking forward to graduating from Yale at the top of my class." Quinn says.

"I'm looking forward to the day when my grandmother loves me again." Santana says to us.

"I want Lord Tubbington to kick his Ecstasy addiction." Brittany simply said.

"I am looking forward to marriage equality in all 50 states." Blaine says to us.

"I'm looking forward to the first time I dance at Carnegie Hall." Mike says to us.

"I'm looking forward to get a solo for nationals next year." I grin at them.

"I just want a song." Tina chuckles.

"I'm looking forward to watching my dad make a difference in Congress." Kurt says to us.

"I'm looking forward to being friends with all of you for the rest of my life." Rachel smiles at us.

"I know this sounds silly, and the peanut butter really is amazing, Mr. Schue, but do you know what I'm looking forward to? Winning at Regionals." Rory grins at us as we are chuckling at each other and smiling at each other. Yeah everything is fine now.

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"I guess I will considering changing my name to be Mickey since you cant stop calling me that." Mike says to me and pinches my nose.

"I like Michael Robert Chang Jr better." I grin at him.

"We are kind of down because of Karofsky attempt suicidal." Mike sighs.

"Yeah right after dad and I heard the news. Dad just keep hugging me and protect me like he doesnt want to let me go. I know what he did was out of the line and he was kind of lost or something and that bullying was really out of the line. I checked out his facebook page and what they said was 'better luck next time' or 'try try again'. This is insane." I sigh.

"Do you know what I miss the most about you? When you become criticism like this." Mike smiles at me.

"By the way, Rachel hugged me and told me that I can have solo for regionals. I havent tell dad yet but I guess he will be agree and now I'm confused what song I have to sing." I said to Mike and walk to my table and look at my computer.

"Umm maybe you could sing a song with upbeat music so you also can improve your dance skills?" Mike turns his face at me.

"Dad wont let me." I shake my head.

"I will let you." Dad walks in.

"Dad..." I roll my eyes.

"Yes, I know I shouldnt be eavesdropping your conversation with Mike but listen to me." Dad says and sit down on the sofa in the corner.

"What?" I raise my eyebrows.

"You're young. You are sixteenth and you have a lot of things that you have to do and wait for you. Dont messed it up." Dad says to me.

"I already follow what you said to accept everything." I said to him.

"Let's just call it accept more. You accept everything but not yourself. This time I want you to accept yourself too. Sweet Pea, you have time to built your dream. I cant imagine if what happen to Karofsky it happen to you. That's why I just wanna hug you all night long and never ever let you go from my hand. I should've understand that at your age you become so criticism with everything because that was what I felt when I was at your age despite of thinking about your mom. What I'm going to say is, do whatever you want to do. I wont stop you as long as you know your line. Believe in yourself. You said that we can win regionals without Rachel Berry right? Of course we can because we have Paris Schuester. I cant stop blame myself about what I did to you that day. I believe you can do this and you can choose your own song." Dad smiles at me.

"I guess I will sing Trouty Mouth on the stage." I chuckle. "Oh no, someone will be jealous." I smirk at Mike and walk to dad and hug him. "Thank you so much, you always know good things to say after I mad at you."

"You always learn from your mistake. I taught you that but I didnt know how come I didnt teach myself one." Dad says to me.

"Old people problem." I simply said.

"Oh dont come to daddy when you cant sleep at night and need someone to cuddle with you." Dad simply said.

"Daddy, dont spread that in front of Mike!" I groan.

"Well, just let your boyfriend know that his girlfriend is the most spoilt girl in this world also daddy's little princess." Dad grins at me.

"That's right, Mr. Schue." Mike chuckles.

"Ugh get away now. I will come downstairs when the dinner ready." I roll my eyes and push dad's body from his behind.

"Alright have fun!" Dad shouts.

I turn my face at Mike and he just shrugs and smiles at me. I shake my head and walk to my table and sitting down in front of my computer and hugging my pillow.

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