Chapter 15 - Memories

Warning: If you are not comfortable with a little smut and abusing, please skip this chapter.

Baekhyun POV

I was looking at my calendar when I felt someone hugging me from behind. I smiled when that familiar scent hit my nose. "Chanyeol" I said as I turned around.

It was then did I realized that our face was only inches apart. I stared into his brown eyes, getting lost in it. Chanyeol slowly leaned forward as I closed my eyes. His soft plump lips touched mine as I returned the kiss. The kiss soon became steamy and passionate as Chanyeol used his tongue to explored every corner of my mouth.

His lips slowly travelled down to my neck and as he nibbled on my sweet spot, I moaned. When Chanyeol realised he had found, he began to nibble there, leaving love marks while I moaned in pleasure.

His hands slowly went down and gave my butt a squeeze causing me to moan again. "Fuck Baek, you are turning me on." Chanyeol growled. He lifted me and laid me on the bed as he hovered above me. Then, he crashed his lips onto mine again as I savored his sweet tasting lips. His hands went under my clothes as it roamed around. Chanyeol swiftly removed my clothes, leaving me half naked on my bed.

He stared at my body as I blushed and covered my face. "Hey babe, don't cover your face, you look hot. Don't worry." Chanyeol reassured and my face turned even redder. He then began grinding my crotch as I moaned. I could feel his member hardened.

As he was about to remove my pants, memories of my father and his friends raping me flooded in my head. I grabbed the sides of my bed till my knuckles turned white.

Flashback

I was in my room shivering in fear as my father and his bunch of friends were partying in the living room. They were all high on drugs and I don't know when they might barge in and do somwthing to me.

Suddenly, my father opened the door forcefully and he and his group of friends came in. "Here he is. Have fun with him." My father said before starting to laugh.

Then he pointed at me, "You... Pleasure them... They paid alot to me..." he slurred since he was drunk. Tears began flowing down my cheeks.

"Jebal... Appa... Don't do this..." I begged but he ignored me and just closed the door leaving 4 of his friends in my room. I could clearly tell that they were not in a clear state of mind.

"Please... Just stay away from me..." I begged them as I cried. One of them came and started touching me as I smacked his hand away. He was in shock for a moment but he came back and slapped me hard on the cheeks. At that moment, I knew there was nothing I can do but let them do whatever they wanted.

And so, they raped me, took turns to put their huge member into me before leaving. It was painful. All I felt was pain and not pleasure. How could I feel pressure when they only cared about themselves. They just thrusted in without caring whether I was in pain. Yes, I lost my virginity to those 4 perverted old man who were friends to my asshole father.

End of flashback

I wasn't ready to do it with Chanyeol yet. I was scared. I didn't want to experience another pain like before.

Chanyeol POV

I was kissing Baekhyun when I felt something wet on his cheeks. I broke the kiss and saw that he was closing his eyes as tears flowed down his cheeks. His hands was gripping the edge of the bed tightly. He looked very uncomfortable. Maybe I shouldn't have done this.

"Mainhe. Jinja mainhe. I didn't mean to do that to do. " I said as I got off him. Baekhyun then opened his eyes and stared at me.

"Aniya. It's not your fault. I am just not ready yet." He said and smiled slightly at me. He then patted the space beside him, signalling me to go over. I complied and went over.

Baekhyun POV

I felt Chanyeol break the kiss and I opened my eyes. He got off me and apologized. I felt guilty. It wasn't his fault, it was mine.

"Aniya. It's not your fault. I am just not ready yet." I said and patted the space on the bed beside me. He came over and laid down, wrapping his arms around me while I snuggled close to his chest, enjoying the warmth of him.

Just a little smut. It's my first time so yeah. Please tell me how to improve it. I really have no idea how to write smut tbh. Don't worry, I will try to write a full one in another chapter. Hope you have enjoyed it.

And yay!!! My exams are over well, tbh it ended like last week but me being lazy and procrastinating so I obv didn't update sorrie!! 😂 I'll just try to update more but no promises cuz my teacherd are still giving homework urghhhh 😢

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY CUTE LIL BAEKKIEEEE!!!!! Keke

I swear I love him soooo much 😍❤️