025

" trust your instinct, don't worry "

chuu, loona - so what

Haewon's POVthe twilight began to display like a tangible mutter of the stars to come. we all remained crowded round the pink haired member as we suspected our thoughts. lisa was the first to vocalise her own.

"That fucking bastard!" Lisa called out, piqued. "I should have finished him off when I had the chance."

"How are you so sure it's Wooyoung?" the stellar eyed male queried.

"The initial is J, nobody else had a deleterious obsession with Jennie apart from him, he easily could have kidnapped her."

"Lots of people have the initial of J in their names Lisa: Jennie, Jimin, Jung Wooyoung, Jeong Yunho and Jongho."

"Fuck off." the two snapped in unison.

Mingi chortled amusingly at their responses while the rest of the group were deep in the puzzle. I took this as the opportunity to speak to San privately.

Pinching at the fabric of his black hoodie, I pulled him like a obedient hound only a few metres away.

"Is something wrong?" he asked regarding.

I wasn't sure how he was going to take it but there was no need to drag the secret any longer.

"There's something I need to tell you."

"Go on."

Drawing uneasy breaths, I drew the courage and looked at him face on.

"Whilst you were abducted, Yunho and I had sex. We were mildly drunk and got carried away an-"

"Haewon, it's okay."

I stared at him in awe, a loss for words. Was I just overthinking everything?

"I admit I have feelings for you, but we aren't together. You shouldn't be apologising as if you cheated or something." the dimpled man enlightened.

Problem was that I really liked San already but was feeling something mere for Yunho, I didn't want to start up a imaginary love triangle.

"I have feelings for you too San." I returned.

His smile was one of happiness growing, much as a spring flower opens. I could see how it came from deep inside to light his eyes and spread into every part of him. Rosy red made his cheekbones ashamed.

"I could tell."

We gazed at each other, the backscattering flames created a shining effect on our orbs. It was remarkable.

"But, I will need some time Haewon. I know you had no bad intentions, but I can't deny that I am a little hurt." he told earnestly.

The sudden slap in the face startled me inwardly, but that was enough egocentricity. If San wanted time away from me, I acknowledged why and needed to accept as requested.

"I understand."

San wrapped his arm around my slim shoulders and pulled me close, gently rubbing my arm. Despite the heaviness in my belly, it fluttered at the feeling of my body pressed against his. I sunk into the warmth of his side, appreciative of the innermost gesture.

"You will wait for me right?" he pondered.

"Yeah."

Truth was, I didn't know. I didn't know how long this sudden departure would last. I just had to let destiny decide what was right for us.

"Once you guys are done over there, could you come over?" Yeji asked politely.

Just as I was about to let go, San pressed his body in opposition to mine and used his hands to oblige my thigh to envelop his well built frame. My arms followed my femurs, wrapping round his neck as my pointy chest rested on his shoulder blade. Carrying me to the group, he plopped me down sweetly. Arm remained rested on my waistline.

I noticed Yunho twitched at the sight of motion, irritated but keeping his composure carefree.

"I believe it's best if we all go back to how we were in the beginning, away from one another." the boss declared with utmost modesty. "At some point, we will contact you guys when we find a lead on either Jimin, Wooyoung or Jennie. Hopefully, you do vice versa."

"Fine by me, I'll see you guys around." Manoban concurred, turning on her heel and strolling down the pavement's cobbles.

"I will take Yeji and Haewon back to Seoul." Seonghwa proclaimed.

"I have some business to attend to in Seoul as well, I'll come as well." San chirped.

"So it's settled then, the rest of us will remain here." Hongjoong stated. "We will be in touch."

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The car journey was ebullient at first, but one by one as we fell asleep it was silent. With Yeji snoring in front seat and San snoozing up beside me, Seonghwa and I were left awake.

"You should get some rest Haewon, you have been through a lot. We all have."

"I'll try to, you sure you're going to be alright?" I wondered compassionately.

He chuckled, "Don't worry about me, this isn't the first time I've driven without proper sleep."

I gasped at his rash statement.

"Take care of yourself! Seriously Seonghwa." I mothered protectively.

"I will, I will, now shush before you wake up these worn out lot."

I sneered at his utterance before finding my comfortable position and trying to rest.

Through the window, wands of rising branches became dancing silhouettes in the moonlight. The moon played hide and seek as my orbs met it's globular shape at last. My habit of watching the moon move as we did from a young age never left, even though it never actually did move - oddly enough, the illusion always entranced me.

Gaping for as long as I could, eventually my body yearned for rest and gave way. In my dreams, I manifested me and San married with a healthy baby girl.

Dreams were only shards of our mind's deepest desires, if they wanted to they could possibly become reality. It's a place where life is full and death is afar. No worries other than your own, no rules other than the ones you chose to govern, no pain other than the grief you bestow upon your own dreamlike shoulders.

There are wonders beyond your own comprehension and fear, waiting to be faced and tackled. Pleasure in the awaiting danger and pain in the stillness of the desolate voids. It's a hidden world that never will be silenced, as long as you believe it won't.

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