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JUNGKOOK POV

I knew what happened pushed everything so far that I don't know if there is any repair for us.

I knew I shouldn't have killed Lisa.... but the biggest betrayal for me was Y/n trying to shoot me.

She didn't know that the gun wasn't loaded, her pulling the trigger thinking a bullet was in the chamber sent me over the edge.

I love her more than I've ever loved any human being in the world. We are both just monsters in each others eyes.

I'm not sure where things go from here but I meant every word I said to her..... 

I will never leave her alone, so she has to get use to me... even though we've both damaged our relationship with our choices.

I love her.

I miss her.

I need her.

Y/N POV

It's been almost a month since I lost Lisa and Jackson.

The cops came and questioned me since I was their closest friend but they didn't push the issue, I'm sure Jungkook or Dongchul played a huge part in that though.

The first couple of weeks I felt like I was going to die, now I'm numb. I still want to kill Jungkook for what he did though.

I love him but I don't know if I can forget what he's done. I know I've done my dirt too, I don't know how he could ever want to trust me again considering the gun situation.

I've been spending a lot of time with Bianca, She even slowed down her schedule to be with me. I haven't spoke to Jungkook this whole entire time.

It's been peaceful but I know at some point he might try to come back or maybe he really is done. I plan to leave soon.

Bianca gave me a good amount of money to leave. I'm free to go especially since I'm eighteen now. I want to go to a place where he wont find me.

We have been looking into multiple places in the west coast, so I hope that will be good enough for awhile anyways.

I finally found this little apartment in Santa Maria, It's a loft apartment. I'd be living alone but the building has security at the front door. 

This is what the apartment looks like. I plan to move next week but I have to keep quiet about it so Jungkook doesn't find out. I know it's going to be hard but its possible, since its been this long since I've talked to Jungkook maybe I wont hear from him at all.

SKIP to friday

People are starting to get here for dinner, its crazy how Dongchul, Bianca and everyone else acts like nothing ever happened.

They are happy, smiling, enjoying themselves and I just feel nothing. Jungkook hasn't been coming to any of these which works for me.

I grabbed my food and went and sat next to Bianca and started eating.

We were talking about furniture and decorations and how she planned to fly out with me to help me get it together.

I think this has made our relationship stronger. I haven't felt this close to her since we were small.

Everything was going smooth until I heard the door open and in came Jungkook.

I didn't know what else to do but stare at him...... He was looking back at me.... but didn't say anything to me.

Y/N: Why is he here?

DONGCHUL: He is our boss y/n... why wouldn't he be?

JUNGKOOK: Hi Everybody...

Everyone was saying their hellos and I just sat there disgusted, Feeling like I don't even belong with my own family.

I can't wait to leave this place.

I just rolled my eyes....

He sat across the table from us and I decided to get up and start gathering my silverware together....

DONGCHUL: Have a seat y/n!

Y/N: I'm gonna head back upstairs.

DONGCHUL: This is our last real dinner together as a fam....

As I cut him off.....

Y/N: what? no its not....

He just looked at me and Bianca looked up at me.

DONGCHUL: Just have a seat...

I sat down... I have a feeling Jungkook already knows... and that Dongchul might have already told him.

I just sat there looking around at everyone, listening to their conversations. I kept accidently looking over at jungkook...

I didn't mean to, it was like my eyes just scanned the room but only they always landed on him.

I haven't felt anything for weeks but when I looked up and seen him walking in.. My heart skipped a beat... I finally felt something again but I didn't want that feeling with him.

I looked down and started fiddling with my fingers and Bianca noticed and grabbed my hand and held it.

She knew how I felt..... She's helped me through all of this.

JUNGKOOK: Chul, why is this the last dinner the family will have together?

DONGCHUL: Um....

JUNGKOOK: Is there something you aren't telling me?

DONGCHUL: Just that Y/N will be busy with school....

I looked over at Dongchul and he was sweating.... I guess he didn't tell him after all but I don't know why Bianca thought to trust him with this in the first place.

Jungkook grabbed his cup full of whiskey and drank it all... and looked over at me..... He looked annoyed... I knew he was either drunk or high on something.

JUNGKOOK: I just feel like there is something I don't know..... are you guys gonna tell me willingly or will I have to get it forcefully?

DONGCHUL: Uhh Jungkook.. no..... Y/N....??

I looked over at Dongchul and shook my head no...

He raised his brows and I knew what he was about to do.

Y/N: NO... DON'T CHUL!

DONGCHUL: Y/N is moving...

Jungkook was gritting his teeth you could see it through his jaws.... I know I'm fucked now.

JUNGKOOK: Moving huh?

Y/N: Yeah I am.

JUNGKOOK: You think it's just that simple?

Y/N: Yeah... It's very simple.... I'm moving away.... from here...

JUNGKOOK: No... You are not.

Y/N: Say's who? you? You aren't my boss... You ruined everything... I meant what I said to you.

JUNGKOOK: Let's talk in private, shall we?

Y/N: No we shall not...

He got up walked over to my side of the table, put his hand out and said " Come on we have things to discuss ".

I shook my head and he grabbed my hand and pulled me up...

Y/N: I'm not going anywhere with a monster like YOU!!!

As I shoved him away from me

He looked down at me.....

JUNGKOOK: I guess that makes you a monster too, considering you were gonna shoot me in the head when the night before that you were telling me how much you loved me.... and how you were on my dick!

Y/N:  what I did was based off of how you handled everything.... You killed my best friends... You think I'm just gonna forgive you like everything is perfect? no... FUCK YOU JEON JUNGKOOK!!!

As I sat back down at the table.... He just looked around at everyone....

JUNGKOOK: Y/n... I'm not going to ask you again....

Y/N: cool, don't.... GOODBYE!

He snatched me up off the chair by my arm and pulled me behind him.... I kept telling him to stop and to let me go.... I was trying to fight his hands off of me but I failed......

JUNGKOOK: You're going to talk to me.... I DONT GIVE A SHIT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT!

He pushed me into Dongchul's office... and closed and locked the door behind him.... I kept trying to fight him to get out...

I bit him on the arm and ran for the door, once I got to the door I went to unlock it until I felt him grab my legs and pulled me down to the ground and just sat on top of me hugging me..... while I was fighting.... I guess he did it until I was wore out and couldn't fight him anymore.

It worked....I was laying on my stomach with him sitting on my back with his legs straddling both sides of my body with my arms in between his legs with them holding them in tight, All the wiggling and squirming and crying wore me down...

Y/N: fine.... I won't fight anymore...

JUNGKOOK: you're probably too tired to fight anyways.