♥ 𝕋ℍ𝔼 ℙ𝔸𝕊𝕋 (𝕁𝕂𝕤) ♥

TRIGGER WARNING: THIS CHAPTER WILL INCLUDE VIOLENCE AND SELF HARM. I MADE A PLAYLIST ON SPOTIFY CALLED MY STEPFATHERS FRIEND, YOU CAN LOOK IT UP OR MESSAGE ME FOR THE LINK :) SONG I LISTENED TO WHILE WRITING THIS CHAPTER:

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JUNGKOOK POV

I woke up around three a.m just laying there in thought about everything and thinking back to when I was like Y/n.... I was young and confused and didn't know what I wanted out of life but I knew this life wasn't it for me. I hated the idea of having to hurt people for money or having to worry about my future children and wife.... Their lives at stake every single day being involved in this.

FLASHBACK

MR.JEON: Jungkook you need to get your head out of your ass and decide what you want to do with your life sooner than later...

JUNGKOOK: Dad I know what I want.... I know what I want to do with my life.

MR.JEON: To take over this business.... its the only thing...

JUNGKOOK: NO I don't want this life sir.

MR.JEON: It was good enough for me but not for you? Is that what you're saying to me?

As he started walking toward me and grabbed my face with his one hand.

MR.JEON: I don't care what aspirations you have this business is your first priority.

JUNGKOOK: DAD I.... I don't want this.... I don't want to kill....

MR.JEON: You need to start training and watch me to learn... You can't be a little bitch your whole life

JUNGKOOK: I'm 14... I'm a kid dad. I'm not a bi....

He cut me off....

MR.JEON: I wasn't much older than you when I became involved. It's time to learn your place.

As he walked away from me..... I sat there and knew I didn't want to do this and I absolutely refuse too. I can't!

TWO YEARS LATER

I had no choice but to train with my dad and his men. I remember this one day that my dad wanted me to handle this job for him, I didn't know too much information about the place or the people but the driver took us there and once we got there I realized it was my friends dad's shop. I was already battling with my own thoughts in my head about doing this....

This wasn't right but we continued to walk into the building and the guards grabbed him and took him to the back of the shop and I had to question him about where our money was and i was informed that if he couldn't give us our cut I would have to kill him.

MR. SOO: Jungkook is that you?

JUNGKOOK: Do you have my fathers money?

MR.SOO: I just need a little more time.

JUNGKOOK: We don't have time Mr.soo.

Mr.SOO: I can have it by tomorrow morning.

JUNGKOOK: I.... I can't.........  What time?

GUARD: NO boss said to kill him if he didn't have it today.... KILL HIM JUNGKOOK!

JUNGKOOK: NO.... We can give him a break and get it tomorrow!

In my head the whole time I was freaking out because I couldn't let my dad down he would kill me.... but I couldn't bring myself to do this... to Mr.Soo or my friend from school.

I spent about five minutes trying to bargain with the guards until my father walked in and grabbed me by my shirt....

MR.JEON: YOU FUCKING LITTLE BITCH... KILL HIM! this is in your blood Jungkook....

MR.SOO: Mr.Jeon please....

My dad hit him so hard in the side of the head..... I closed my eyes and Pulled my gun up and aimed it at Mr.Soo's head.... My dad looking at me smiling.... I just grew angrier....

MR.JEON: Do it already pussy....

My eyes became watery because I knew I no longer had a choice...... I looked Mr.SOO in the eyes and mouthed " I'm sorry " as I pulled the trigger *BOOM * and his body became lifeless. That night I tried to take my own life for the first time. I couldn't live with what I've done to Mr.Soo and to my friend..... I went into my dads room and stole a bottle of pills from his nightstand and some alcohol from his table and went into my room locked the door and drank myself sick and when I got to that point I took the whole bottle of pills..... Shortly after everything went black.

I woke up three weeks later and My dad put me in a psych ward. He kept me in there for a solid six months trying to teach me a lesson about trying to leave him and his precious business. He finally let me out of here and I came home. It was close to my seventeenth birthday and he told me had some news for me. So Come to find out my dad was battling lung cancer... The rest of the year continued on and my dad became very ill and I had no choice but to take over and do everything as he would and I started becoming very cold like him. I hated him... I hated this life.. I grew to hate myself but I kept on going. I kept fighting. I lost my dad eight months after him telling me about his Diagnosis.

FLASHBACK OVER

Even when he was sick and frail he would tell me how much of a little bitch I was because I wasn't like him. Hearing him call me this day in and day out drove me crazy..... I hated those words.....When he died I was almost relieved but at that point I was already so involved in this lifestyle. I sold everything of his in Korea and moved to America to start over new and now the mafia is stronger than when my father was running things. We run everything. The cops cant stop us, they wont even try.

I've dated girls but I never got attached they were all so fascinated with this lifestyle most of them came from normal families and just wanted some excitement. They also wanted my money, my house, cars and my dick of course. I never met anyone I actually took interest in until I met Y/n but I knew she was very young but she was already exposed to this kinda shit. I liked how she wanted out like I did. We had so much in common back then but she has more fire in her and she has more of this life in her than she knows. All I want to do is protect her with everything but I have to also teach her lessons because I'm still Jeon Jungkook, no one can make a mockery of me.

Y/n lifted up her head to look at me and said " are you okay, why are you up? ".

JUNGKOOK: Just thinking, go back to sleep.

Y/N: Are you good?

JUNGKOOK: Yeah... I'm fine.

Y/N: Why don't you tell me the truth? You eyes are watery....

I looked over at her....

Y/N: Just tell me....

JUNGKOOK: You and me are more alike than you think we are.

Y/N: why do you say that?

JUNGKOOK: do you really want to know?

Y/N: YES

So I continued on to tell her my story about the past and how I got here. She just sat and patiently listened to me and even looked kinda sad and emotional.

Y/N POV

I had no idea about who Jungkook really was and where he came from and now I know why he is the way he is.... and why he got so mad at me for saying the things that I said to him.

Y/N: I'm sorry for saying what I did too you... I shoulda never said that.

JUNGKOOK: You didn't know.... I shouldn't have reacted to you like that.

I got closer to him and climbed on top of him he was sitting with his back up against the headboard so I was sitting straddled on his lap. He put his hands on my thighs while he looked at me.

JUNGKOOK: what?

Y/N: Nothing can't I just sit here...

JUNGKOOK: You know things will happen if you act this way with me, and I can't always control myself.

Y/N: who says I want you too?

JUNGKOOK: To what?

Y/N: control yourself...

JUNGKOOK: stop it... You don't know what you're getting into with me and losing control.

Y/N: Maybe I want to find out....

As I started taking my shirt off. He grabbed my hands and pulled my shirt back down.

JUNGKOOK: No....

Y/N: what? do you think I can't handle it?

JUNGKOOK: I want to save that side of me for after we get married and were all alone in our home..

The way he said " our home " Made me get butterflies for some reason.....

Y/N: why do you want to marry me so quick?

JUNGKOOK: I just want to marry you y/n... Does there have to be a scheme behind it?

Y/N: I just don't understand who you're trying to be.

JUNGKOOK: what do you mean?

Y/N: one minute you're all over me... The next you're telling me no because you want to save it and don't want to hurt me?

JUNGKOOK: Do you like the mean side of me?

I looked down at my hands on his chest.... " no... That's not what I' trying to say "

JUNGKOOK: It sounds that way.

JUNGKOOK: Do you like it when I grab you like this..

As he grabbed my hips and Squeezed them kinda hard...

JUNGKOOK: or when I do this ?

He grabbed my butt and squeezed... which made me let out a moan " ooaahh "

JUNGKOOK: so you like that? or when I did these to you...

As he pointed and ran his fingers over the marks he left on me from before.

He pushed me off of him onto the bed.... and held himself over top of me.....

JUNGKOOK: Are you broken like me y/n?

SORRY I HAD TO LEAVE YOU GUYS WITH A CLIFFHANGER