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TRIGGER WARNING- There is violence in this chapter. Specifically: choking.

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Y/N POV

When I woke up to see all the messages and calls from Lisa, my heart started pounding out of my chest because I knew it was Jungkook and I knew it was all my fault that this happened to Jackson. Lisa called me three or four more times and I finally answered, I felt so guilty.

LISA: y/n where have you been? I'm so scared for Jackson please come to the hospital as fast as you can!

Y/N: Lisa I can't.

LISA: why can't you?

Y/N:  um... I.... I can't tell you.

LISA: you can't tell me, what can't you tell me y/n?

Y/N: I'm scared to tell you....

LISA: scared? of what? oh my god... y/n.

Y/N:  yea.

LISA: why?

Y/N: because I met up with him last night to ask him what Jungkook said to him. I didn't know I was being followed and watched. I had suspicions but I didn't know for sure. This is all my fault Lisa. I did this to Jackson.

LISA: y/n... this isn't your fault.... you didn't know how far this thing was going to go and to be completely honest. Jungkook didn't seem this crazy, this gone.

Y/N: how bad is it?

LISA: they had to reconstruct parts of his jaw. He might not be able to talk again. He could be deformed from this for the rest of his life.

Y/N: oh my gosh.... I'm going to come...

LISA: no, it might not be a good idea. I'll keep you updated on what's going on. Don't blame yourself.... this isn't on you... he's just a psychopath.

Y/N: I feel like this is on me. Please let me know how he's doing.

LISA: I will, I promise. I love you y/n!

Y/N: I love you too... I'm so sorry.

I hung up the phone and just sat there scared, sad, and broken. I don't know what to do, I mean there isn't anything I can do but listen to what Jungkook says. Every time I do opposite of what he says, something really bad happens. This was definitely on me, this time.  I have to do better. I made the decision to talk to Jungkook. I decided to fool around with him. I stayed when he told me to go, I was so immature and selfish. Jackson didn't deserve any of this. I hate that I can't be there with him and Lisa. This is torture.

TIME SKIP TWO HOURS LATER (by the way its Friday)

I walked down the stairs for dinner to see all of my stepdad's little friends here and sure enough when I walked into the dining room there sat Jungkook looking directly at me smiling. I felt sick.

He looked at me with those eyes and that smirk knowing damn well what he did. He has no conscious just like the rest of these assholes. I sat across the table away from him and he looked like he didn't like that but I just can't sit next to him without blowing up on him right now. He knew he had me where he wanted me and that's the thing that made me so angry.  Bianca ran in and was yelling " Y/N "

Y/N: yeah?

BIANCA: Did you hear about Jackson why are you here and not there? come on I'll drive you.

Y/N: Yeah... uh Lisa said she would keep me updated.

The whole time Jungkook was just staring at me and watching my reactions and I kept looking over at him from time to time and he made me feel nervous and I couldn't tell anyone about it besides Lisa. It's not like they would do anything about it anyways.

BIANCA: Y/n he is one of your bestfriends come on.

As she grabbed my arm pulling me up out of my chair.

Y/N: Bianca, no it's fine. I don't need to go.....

BIANCA: Y/n..... What's wrong with you? like you never act like this.... did you guys have a fight or something?

Y/N: No.... The hospital is probably just crowded and I don't need to overwhelm him especially after what he's been through.

BIANCA: I thought I would ask y/n it's just weird of you.....

As Jungkook cut her off " she said she doesn't want to go, leave her alone "

BIANCA: Fine... You don't have to be an ass Jungkook!!!!!!!

I sat back down and started playing with my food with tears in my eyes. I looked over at Jungkook and he was acting like he didn't do anything wrong, like everything was so normal and fine. He caught me staring at him and he shot me a smile and a wink. I looked away like I didn't see it. I really don't want him having any kind of satisfaction about any of this. Everyone was talking and laughing, and I just wanted to leave and go be with Jackson and Lisa, but I would just put him in danger even more. Jungkook, Bianca, Dong-Chul was in deep conversation with everyone else, so I decided to sneak away to the bathroom down the hall to call Lisa to see how Jackson is doing.

JUNGKOOK POV

I was talking about work stuff with the boys. I think Y/n thought I was completely distracted that I wouldn't see her get up and leave the table but I have been watching her all night.

JUNGKOOK: excuse me fellas, I need to take this call.

I lied as I took my phone out and acted as if someone was actually calling me. I got up and decided to walk behind y/n slowly. she was so wrapped up in her phone she didn't even hear me as I followed behind. She called her friend to check on her little boyfriend, I see.

Y/N POV

LISA: Hello?

Y/N: How is he?

LISA: He's doing better, but his jaw had to be wired shut. (as she started to cry)

Y/N: WIRED SHUT? no.

LISA: yeah, it's going to take a long time for it to heal. He's kind of cheerful though since he woke up.

Y/N: I feel so sick about all of this.

LISA: y/n stop it. You are going to have to learn that this wasn't your fault you don't control what Jungkook chooses to do.

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As Lisa continued talking, I opened the bathroom door and started going in and was about to close the door but as it was almost shut someone pushed it open and forced their way in, it was Jungkook. I looked at him and I felt terrified. He walked in and I put my back against the door while holding my phone up to my ear and I know he wouldn't be happy about me being on the phone asking about Jackson.

LISA: y/n you there?

Y/N: yeah ...mmm...uhm. I'm here.

LISA: Are you okay y/n?

Jungkook reached his hand over to my phone and pulled it away but as he was pulling it away, I was saying " yeah I'm good, I have to go " and he hung the phone up. He put my phone in his pocket. I started shaking but I was trying to hold it together so he wouldn't see it. Y/N: you... you didn't have to do that to him. I wasn't going to talk to him again.

JUNGKOOK: you mean like you calling to check on him. You're awfully worried about him... for him not to be a " boyfriend "....

Y/N: He isn't my boyfriend, He's one of my best friends you asshole. You could have killed him!

JUNGKOOK: but I didn't... this was just a warning for him and you both. I'm no longer taking it easy on you.... you hold all the cards in your hand on how this relationship goes.

I cut him off....

Y/N: Relationship? is that what this is? I feel more controlled.... like a doll.

JUNGKOOK: this is a relationship with me, if you would have listened to me from the beginning we wouldn't be here in this situation.

Y/N: Honestly I don't want to date anyone, I want to be left alone.

JUNGKOOK: It's a little late for that sweet heart, I'm invested.

Y/N: well uninvest, I'm not that damn interesting.

JUNGKOOK: but that's the thing, you are too me.

Y/N: What do you want from me Jungkook? like tell me honestly.

JUNGKOOK: I want you, all of you.

Y/N: you can't even give me a real reason.... a real fucking answer. I'm so fed up with your bullshit.... I HATE YOU!!!!

JUNGKOOK: HATE ME?

He turned around and gripped the counter in anger. Tears starting forming in the corners of my eyes, I was doing my best to fight back the tears.

JUNGKOOK: YOU FUCKING HATE ME Y/N?

He turned around and grabbed me by my chin.

JUNGKOOK: Honey I can get much worse than this. Do you want to see that side? I can be fucking LUCIFER. We can go all the way.

Y/N: Just kill me. I'd rather be dead than deal with you any longer!

JUNGKOOK: You want to die? I can do that.

He grabbed me by my throat and started squeezing, and I could no longer breathe. I didn't bother to fight him... after a couple more seconds everything went dark and quiet.

JUNGKOOK POV

I feel guilty for doing this to her. I slid down until I was sitting with my back to the counter on the floor next to her body. Her body laid out on the floor in front of me. I know I'm not right in the head. That's why I run a mafia, not just anyone could do a job like this. It starts fucking with every aspect of your life. I know she didn't deserve this.... but the crazy inside of me can't stop once I hit a certain point.

20 MINUTES LATER

She started moving around..... so I said " Y/N " .

Y/N POV

I opened my eyes to see the ceiling of  the bathroom and out of the corner of my eye I seen Jungkook sitting there. I turned my head and he said " y/n ".... I raised myself up with my hands and started scooting back against the tub away from him.

JUNGKOOK: Do you still want to die?

Y/N: Fuck you Jungkook..... FUCK YOU!!!!!

JUNGKOOK: You..... AHHH you piss me off so much! I don't want to hurt you.... I want to love you but I want your love in return.....

Y/N: You have really fucked up your chances. I could never love a monster like you!

The look on his face made me think he might actually care but I could tell it was all a front. He looked like he could choke me all over again.

Y/N: What's wrong? did your heart of stone actually feel something?

JUNGKOOK: Y/n. you need to chill... I'm trying to stay calm... I don't want to hurt you.

Y/N: ohh it's a little late for that.... You've hurt me in more ways than one....

JUNGKOOK: SHUT THE FUCK UP Y/N!

At this point I knew they could all hear us yelling at each other.

Y/N: why are you scared that they all might hear what kind of monster you really are!!!!!

JUNGKOOK: I don't care what they think. I'm their boss Y/n, did you I've warned you enough. You don't want to quit.

He got up locked the door and walked over to me and grabbed my wrists and pushed me down to the floor, so his body was over top of mine.

Y/N: oh, there he is.... I knew you couldn't care for long.

JUNGKOOK: I warned you. I FUCKING warned you. Why do you continue to push me? is this fun to you?

Y/N: yeah, what a fun game this has been.

At this point I think I've lost my mind and any care in the world. He's pushed me too far.

He raised his hand and smacked me across the face.

Y/N: does this make you feel like a man?

JUNGKOOK: Damnit y/n fucking stop.... just stop it!

I see something in his eyes. That I haven't seen before.

I just looked up at him and he looked away and got up off of me and fell back against the counter again. I can't let him trick me.

BIANCA: is everything okay in there?

JUNGKOOK: Yeah... it's fine.

BIANCA: are you sure? Y/n... are you in there?

Y/N: yea... I am....

Y/N: I'm going to tell them all the truth. I'm telling Dong-Chul. I don't want any part of this anymore.

JUNGKOOK: you can tell them whatever you want. I won't leave you alone forever.

Y/N: Yes, you will. Dong-Chul might be okay with this if I was still willing but now, I'm not anymore.

His facial expression as y/n said that.

    JUNGKOOK: yeah, we'll see won't we.

DONGCHUL:  What is going on in there? Why are you two in the bathroom together. Open the door!