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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ⛔️ 21+This chapter will have sexual themes involved. Mature language, sex, SMUT.... so, if you're under 18 or get sensitive about these topics please skip on to next chapter!

By the way if you would like you could also listen to Ramsey- Love surrounds you while reading the smut part of this story, it makes it that much better I'll insert the video... it got me inspired... haha 😂

https://youtu.be/lXwY1ZzxINA

Y/n POVI heard a knock at my door, so I said "yeah" and in came Jungkook.

JUNGKOOK: Hey... uhm I just wanted to let you know that... and I cut him off with...

Y/N: Jungkook it's okay you don't have to explain anything to me. If you and Bianca want to mess around more power to you guys... you're grown adults.  Who am I to tell you guys on how to live?

JUNGKOOK: No that's not it... we actually aren't doing anything. I've told Bianca I don't like her in that way, and she doesn't actually like me, she just wants to fuck me.

I just kind of stared at him.

Y/N: Oh well you didn't have to come all the way up here to tell me that...

JUNGKOOK: Yes, I did... I had to tell you.

Y/N: You didn't have to tell me... why do you care what I think anyways?

JUNGKOOK: Do you really not get it yet y/n?

I had a feeling I knew exactly what he was talking about but now I'm getting nervous, and my palms are getting sweaty. I just thought of this as a fantasy type thing not something that could actually play out.

Y/N: Get what?

Yes, let me play dumb 🤦🏻‍♀️

JUNGKOOK: You know exactly what I mean y/n... you think I just did what I did for no reason? You think I was playing games?

Y/N: Honestly yes, I think you're playing games with me....

He starts to walk toward the bed, sits down beside me and puts his hands together and starts fiddling them together.

JUNGKOOK: Honestly y/n... I'm very attracted to you....

Y/N: What?

JUNGKOOK: I'm attracted to you.

Y/N: That doesn't make any sense considering you have tons of women chasing you around, but you're attracted to me? A girl with nothing to show for anything?

JUNGKOOK: Why do you think so little of yourself? Hmm... you have a great personality... you're funny... you're beautiful.......

As he put his hand on my thigh and started rubbing up and down my leg.

Y/N: Stop it.... you don't know a thing about me...I'm sick of your mind games just leave...

JUNGKOOK: My mind games?

As I hopped up off my bed and started to walk toward the door to open it for him and as I was opening it. He shut it and pushed me up against the door with his arms on both sides of my body against the door.

JUNGKOOK: Honestly y/n... you're the only one playing games. I know exactly what I want... and usually what I want I get... soooo

Y/N: Oh yeah? Well maybe I'm one thing you won't.

As I started to push him away, grabbing my wrists and pinned them above my head as he bent down to my level and put his forehead up against mine.

JUNGKOOK: We're done playing these games...

Y/N: Okay... bye then...

JUNGKOOK: You don't understand me again... I see.

Y/N: What is there to understand? We're done right? Okay case closed...

JUNGKOOK: No, I'm done playing these games with you and we're going to follow through now...

As I start to wiggle around, he grabs my wrists with one hand as he locks my door with the other.

Y/N: Jungkook stop it...

As I gritted my teeth.

JUNGKOOK: Stop playing so hard to get... you've been stalking me on IG... and the way you constantly look at me and watch my every move...

Y/N: I don't know what you're talking about...

He then started to come close to my face... he was about to kiss my lips when I turned my head and he just kind of looked away and laughed. "Do you think this is a joke?"

Y/N: So, when are you going to stop and leave?

JUNGKOOK: Look... I may have played games with you before but this time I'm serious.

Y/N: mhm... okay... sure.

When I said that he grabbed my chin and held me in place while he came closer and locked his lips on mind. Boy did my heart start beating fast. I was getting hot!

JUNGKOOK: Why are you shaking y/n?

Y/N: I'm not.

As he smirked at me. He started kissing my neck and nibbling around on my ear and I don't know what this feeling is but it's making me lose my breathe and I can't think straight. I know I've been playing hard to get but I don't know how much longer I can keep playing... cause I'm falling hard for this man. 

He slid his hand down to the band of my sweatshirt and put his hand up it to my waist and then to my chest and then to my breast, which he started to grab, and I let out a little moan, it drove him crazy I could see it all over his face.

He grabbed my waist and started pulling me with him as he was walking toward my bed backwards, he sat down and started removing my sweater and once he did. He began kissing on my stomach and he looked up at me and back down at my pants... almost like he was asking permission to take them off. But he decided to start undoing my bra and when he took it off I kind of grabbed my breast to hide them... this is the first time a guy has ever seen me this way. I'm so nervous and I feel so vulnerable. He grabbed my wrists and started to pull them away.

JUNGKOOK: Don't... I want to see everything.

Y/N: I... I've never done this before...

JUNGKOOK: We can take it slow...

I let out a sigh. He moved my hands and ran one finger over my nipple and that sent shivers down my spine and I let out a light moan. He started smiling, pulling me on top of him again and I could feel his bulge poking through his pants. He started kissing me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and started almost dry humping him.

JUNGKOOK: Mmm... so you are a little freakier than I thought hmm?

As he smiled and bit his bottom lip.

Y/N: I don't know what you're talking about...

As I ran my hand down to where I could feel his bulge with my hand. He put his head back and moaned. I climbed down onto the floor sitting in front of him and I started to unbuckle his pants.

JUNGKOOK: You act like you've done this before...

I just kind of giggled and continued to attempt to take his pants off. He lifted and removed them completely. He got comfortable, and I climb closer to where I could reach him with my mouth. I grabbed it and started stroking it very slowly.

JUNGKOOK: Aah Y/n..... oh my god.

I got closer and started putting my mouth on it and I licked the tip and started pumping him in and out of my mouth for a little while until he started shaking and grabbed my hands.

JUNGKOOK: no, you have to stop... it can't end so quickly...

He pulled me up onto my feet and he pushed me on the bed and hovered over me enough to start kissing my neck and working his mouth down to my nipples... he was playing with one with his hand and the other with his teeth, my whole body started shaking uncontrollably. 

I've never felt like this before. He started playing with the waistband of my pants and finally grabbed them with both hands and started removing them, spreading my legs and looked at me up and down. I hid myself with my hands, and he of course moved them.

JUNGKOOK: Y/n... I said to stop trying to hide yourself from me. I want to see it all!

Y/N: You make me nervous....

JUNGKOOK: Good....

He grabbed my legs and pulled me down to where his cock lined up with me and I grabbed him and stopped him before he pushed it in. He took his fingers and started rubbing my clit up and down slowly... while we were talking.

Y/N: Jungkook... AHH.... you... k... know that we... OoOOh...

I couldn't even finish my sentence... it became so much. It over came my body and at this point I didn't want him to stop. He placed one finger inside of me and started going in and out of me faster and faster, and at this point I was a moaning mess... he tricked me. 

I knew it but I didn't care! He rubbed his hand up and down my sweet spot and started stroking himself with my juices on his hand and he lined himself up with me and slowly started inserting himself. I grabbed his shoulders, and he started kissing me to distract me from the little pain I felt.

JUNGKOOK POV I couldn't believe what I was doing but I couldn't stop myself. When I'm around y/n I can't control myself, I don't know why but she's different. I kept pumping.... faster and faster and deeper until y/n grabbed my wrists and said " You're being too rough Jungkook " .... but I couldn't stop myself it felt so good. I continued on.... y/n tried to push me away, but I grabbed her wrists and pushed them down on the bed over top of her head. I can't control myself. I need to stop. What the fuck is wrong with me?

Y/N POVJungkook was starting to hurt me. He wouldn't slow down when I asked him too and when I pushed him away, he grabbed my wrists and slammed them over my head.... at this point I had tears streaming down my face.... he was scaring me because I've never seen him this way and I didn't realize how capable he was of being this way. His strokes got slower and messier. He let go of my wrists as his face fell in between my neck and shoulder. I started hitting him with my fists while telling him "Get off of me." He lifted himself up and put his pants on and sat at the edge of the bed with his hands on his head.

Y/N: Are you going to leave? Get out already....

As I got up and started putting my panties and oversized sweater on. He put his hands on my sides and turned me around to face him.

JUNGKOOK: y/n I'm sorry... I....

I cut him off...

Y/N: You what? Are going to try to come up with some kind of excuse? There is no excuse for that.

JUNGKOOK: No... there is no excuse... I lost control.... I don't know why I let myself get that far gone... I lose control sometimes... Please... I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to hurt you...

I just looked at him... and looked away.... what am I supposed to say to that.... maybe he did lose control... because I know I did... I gave into it.

Y/N: I think we both made a bad decision by doing this....

JUNGKOOK: Yeah... you're right... I shouldn't have done this... I'm so sorry... Bianca told me how you didn't want this kind of lifestyle and how you didn't want wrapped up in it. I shouldn't have come up here...  I'm sorry y/n...

Y/N: Me too....

A/N POV

https://youtu.be/waU75jdUnYw

Y/n just stood there watching Jungkook put the rest of his clothes on. She didn't know what to think. Jungkook on the other hand was disgusted with his self... of all the bad things he's done since being in the mob, and he felt guilty for it. He felt like he pushed her into it.

Y/N POV While watching Jungkook open the door and turn to look at me one last time before leaving, it made me feel kind of guilty because he wasn't hurting me as bad as I acted, he was. I was just regretting having sex with him because I know I have feelings for him, and I know I don't want to be involved in this lifestyle forever. He is one of the good ones and now he thinks that he forced me when I was interested in it the whole time, if I didn't want to do it, I wouldn't have. I'm just scared to get attached to him... in this situation..I just have to keep my distance from him.

AMS here!!!! Thank you, guys, for reading this very long chapter!!!!! It's taken me two days to write this out... if you guys want to make suggestions or if you just want me to follow you! Leave a comment and I will definitely follow you guys' back 💜 I purple you!