𝚂𝚞𝚛𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚎

https://youtu.be/yGl7errjHWk

Three weeks later

Things have been kind of weird lately. I was supposed to go to the movies with Jackson and his friends, but he canceled on me last minute and I haven't heard from him much lately. I know I probably hurt his feelings, but I know he is a player, and I don't want to start something and get my heart broke by one of my own best friends, and I just can't see him that way... it won't work...

I've seen Jungkook here and there, he wasn't here last week which was odd.  My step dads weekly dinner which has turned into multiple times a week is getting to be a bit obnoxious, but there is nothing I can do about it.

Jungkook hasn't said very much too me, but I've caught him looking at me from time to time... I think he may have gotten the hint when I told him we can't do this... even though every part of my body wanted him, but I just know I can't get involved with him.... For one...it's dangerous. Two.... I want out of this....  For three.... ugh there isn't even a three... he's growing on me.... but now he doesn't like me... but I don't need this anyways... I should move on and leave it alone...

Today was Friday.... which means Dongchuls little party/dinner is tonight.... So I'm sure I'll see Jungkook then but maybe I should try to miss it... Dongchul probably won't allow that though... ever since the first night I chose to have dinner with them... they all want me there now.. so I'm kinda stuck.

It's only 4pm and Dongchul told people not to start showing up till around five or six... so I just started scrolling on Instagram and then I seen Jungkook just posted.... and I couldn't help but go to his page....

I guess this means he isn't coming tonight... again. This makes it the second week in a row, maybe he hates me now and doesn't want to come around, maybe I made things awkward but everything seemed fine even though I told him We couldn't. There is just something about this man though. Tons of girls and guys were commenting on his post trying to entertain him. Why would he want little ole me? Eh I don't need a man anyways!

It's now 5:30 and a couple of people started showing up already. I went down and sat down next to Bianca, and we were talking about tons of different things and some more people came in along with Seokjin and Yoongi. We started to eat dinner and I just kept looking at the door like an idiot?!?! Like what is wrong with me. Who cares if he doesn't come.... but Bianca must have seen me looking back and forth because she said, " are you waiting for someone y/n?" I told her no.... and she said " then why do you keep looking at the door? " She leaned over to me and said " is it Jungkook? ".. I shook my head and said God no... and she just said " Ohhhh" and went back to chatting with her sugar daddy.

I continued eating and started talking to one of the other guys a seat down from me. He asked me about school, and boys, and friends. Honestly boring talk, but I just have been so preoccupied by the convo that I didn't see Jungkook walk in, and he came over and sat down right next to me, in between me and the guy who was talking. I just looked up at him and he smiled as he was sitting down and asked, " did I miss anything good?" I shook my head no, he then said, " did you miss me?" and I replied with " why would I miss you?". He looked kind of sad that I said that, but he ignored it and went on to eat. Bianca leaned over and was trying to hand me a glass full of wine and said " try this " ... I shook my head and said, " no thanks I'm good ". She said, " come on don't be a puss y/n".

DONGCHUL: don't give her that Bianca...

Y/N: oh so Bianca got to drink at my age but I can't ?

DONGCHUL: I never let her drink at this young...

BIANCA: actually you did... you would give me alcohol all the time...

DONGCHUL: oh did i? You may be right... but no.

Y/N: you know what let me have it Bianca...

As I began to chug the whole glass down...

BIANCA: whoa slow down there killer!!!!!

Y/N: I'm no puss.

JUNGKOOK: we see that.

Y/N: Bianca can I have another one?

BIANCA: sure, meet me in the kitchen.

JUNGKOOK: can I come too?

BIANCA: sure handsome.

With a smile on her face.

JUNGKOOK: Girl, it's time to slow down or you'll feel like crap tomorrow.

Y/N: And that's not something I'm worried about tonight.

JUNGKOOK: You'll care tomorrow when you have a horrible hangover.

BIANCA: He's got a valid point.

Y/N: I'm young, I'm sure I'll be fine.

JUNGKOOK: Alright little miss know it all.

As I snatch the Soju out of his hand.

Y/N: Is this any good?

I opened the bottle and began guzzling some of it down. I took the first gulp, but then spit it out because it was absolutely disgusting. The wine we were drinking tasted like fruit punch but this tasted like rubbing alcohol, but I guess most alcoholic drinks do.

JUNGKOOK: It's strong.

He said while laughing a little.

BIANCA: I remember my first time drinking Soju.

Y/N: That was super strong.

Over the course of time, Bianca, Jungkook, and I were chatting on the floor in the kitchen. It was clear to me that we were all getting a little too far apart at this point. At some point, I must have moved closer to Jungkook, as our bare legs were touching. We were showing each other scars that we got when we were younger.

BIANCA: I will be back guys, I have to take this call really quick.

Y/N: Don't stay gone too long.

I said with a smile. We kept displaying our scars to one another. He was telling stories, but he was being too short when it came to stories from his teenage years.

JUNGKOOK: I got this one when I was sixteen.

I could see a deep scar on his collar bone when he pointed at it, but his tattoos seemed to hide it a bit.

Y/N: That is huge, how bad was it?

JUNGKOOK: It was pretty bad.

Y/N: What happened?

JUNGKOOK: I was doing things that I wasn't supposed to be doing.

Y/N: Like what?

I said while examining the scar on his chest.

JUNGKOOK: Things my father didn't like.

I raised a hand and brought it closer to his chest.

Y/N: Can I touch it?

Upon looking at me for a moment, he grabbed my hand and put it on the scar.

JUNGKOOK: This spot was the worst, it was wider than the rest.

Y/N: Ouch. Did you get stitches?

JUNGKOOK: Yeah, 35.

Y/N: Is it still sensitive? Like how I'm touching it right now?

JUNGKOOK: No, well I mean sometimes it can be a little sensitive.

As I examined the scar, I caught him staring at me.

Y/N: What?

JUNGKOOK: Nothing.

Y/N: Why are you staring at me like that?

JUNGKOOK: No one has ever been this curious about my scars.

Y/N: Really? I enjoy learning about people's past.

JUNGKOOK: You're really something Y/n.

I shook my head no.

JUNGKOOK: Yes you are.

He got closer to me as I smiled. After removing a piece of hair from my face, he tucked it behind my ear. He became increasingly closer to me. He is within inches of my face. I felt like he was on the verge of kissing me.

 I was going to let him do it, because I wanted it as much as he did. The moment our lips met, Bianca returned to the kitchen. Our position behind the counter made it impossible for her to see us when she came in from the hallway entrance. 

My back hit the counter slightly when I quickly pulled away. I was attempting to maintain a level of normality, but when I glanced over, Jungkook was still gazing at me. I was left breathless by him.

BIANCA: Give me some more alcohol.

As I gave her the bottle. Jungkook gazed intently at me, and I gazed back at him briefly. I felt the need to ease the tension.

Y/N: I have to go to the bathroom, then I'll be back.

Jungkook laughed and Bianca shook her head.

BIANCA: Jungkook... do you have a girlfriend?

JUNGKOOK: No I don't..

BIANCA: hmm.. why not?

JUNGKOOK: because I don't want one.

BIANCA: Wanna have some fun together?

As she began to climb over to him and climb onto his lap. He tried to push her back and tell her no but she continued to rub all over his chest and then to his arms and then grabbed his neck from behind and said " You know you want too?"

JUNGKOOK: No actually Bianca, I don't mean any disrespect b..but...

As I walked back in the room and I stopped in my tracks. I couldn't even bring myself to say any kinda words. Jungkook pushed her off of him and Bianca just gave him a look.

Y/N: I think I'm gonna head to bed... night!

BIANCA: night y/n!

JUNGKOOK: y/n wait....

As I continued walking out the door,  and up the stairs to my room.

𝙹𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚔𝚘𝚘𝚔'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

Bianca has tried to make advances at me multiple times and I've shot her down every single time. I don't want her in that way.... and now y/n... seen this omg!

BIANCA: why did you push me off baby?

JUNGKOOK: because I've told you no multiple times, I'm not interested in you like that Bianca.

BIANCA: you're full of shit. I see the way you look at me from across the table...

JUNGKOOK: I'm not looking at you.

BIANCA: what?  Then who?

JUNGKOOK: y/n... actually....

BIANCA: She's too young and immature for you and she won't get wrapped up in this life style anyways, she's little miss too good...

JUNGKOOK: we've talked... we've had plenty of conversations that's proved to me otherwise... but now it's done for anyways... why did you have to do this?

BIANCA: I'm sorry I really didn't know you were into y/n..... I'm sure she won't even remember this in the morning...

Y/N POVI can't even believe I thought I had a chance with someone like him.... I'm an idiot for imagining this shit in my head... I've made it up and turned it into something it's not...

I heard a little peck at my door... So I said "yeah?"

And the door handle turned and in came Jungkook... The next chapter will get a little more interesting and exciting so get ready or skip the next chapter if you are triggered by it...

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