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i was lying down on Hawk's bed as he and his friends played video games. i don't even know why i'm here in the first place. i came to have fun and talk with my boyfriend, but instead this is what i get. at home, my parents are abusive, that is why i spend most of my time here doing nothing. i only came here to get away from the pain and staying here is not doing any good. i curl up into a ball and silently sob, hoping he won't hear.

"AH SHIT!" Hawk yells as he throws his controller on the ground.

i look up to see what happened and there he was staring at me.

"y/n?"

i move my head into my chest so he wouldn't see the tears and then said in a muffled tone, "what."

i feel him move closer to me and then he rubs my back.

"what's wrong?"

"all the times i've been here is for my escape. but the reason why i'm ALWAYS here is because you are my safe place and you playing with your friends instead of paying attention to me hurts. i'm not trying to be clingy! i- i'm just saying..." i know he gets mad very easily, so that's why i assured to him that i wasn't trying to be mean.

"hey dudes i have to go," Hawk says as he then takes off his head set and turns off the T.V. His presence moves towards me and moves the hair covering my face. he then plants a small yet long kiss on my cheek.

"y/n, you know i love you so much, right?"

"no."

he began to shower me with kisses all over my face.

"OKAY OKAY YOU LOVE ME!" i say laughing.

"do you love me?" :)

"of course i do," i lean in to him and gave him a long loving kiss on the lips.

"no more crying, i'm here now and i will be here forever. well, until you leave," he says pulling me close to him as we are now cuddling.

i laugh and rest my head on his VERY STRONG SMELLING COLOGNE chest. i have a feeling all the times i come here will be affectionate memories marking their chart.