Late night car rides

It was late. The boys were deep in sleep and Margo was watching them. For once, I actually didn't mind William going on these business trips, it allowed me to spend more time with David without me having to worry Will would catch me with David. I dressed casually and warm as David continued to stress, with my bright blue jeans and my denim jacket, I was definitely not in my work clothes - more like my teenage clothes.

I walk outside to see him leaning against his car, a cigarette hung from his mouth, and he smirks, still clutching onto the fag with his teeth. "Don't you look gorgeous, Blue Jean." He winks.

"Oh, another nickname, huh?" I say cooly hopping into his car.

"Don't you like it?" He asks sadly as he gets in on his side.

"No... I love it." I grin, and he mirrors my facial expression.

"And those shoes..." He looks at my red converse. "Put on you red shoes and dance the blues!" He belts out his in dreamy singing voice.

We laugh together, David put his belt on, and I follow his action then meet his gaze again. "You ready, Blue Jean?" He asks and I nod. His rustic car was an open top roof and the black paint matched the dark night. It was a beautiful car, driven by a beautiful man.

David starts the engine and it softly purrs, then we began driving out of  Brixton and out onto the open roads.

My superstar rested his arm on the side of the car with a cigarette tangled within the grasp of his fingertips, his other hand tightly holding the open top car steering wheel - he had full control of it.

Every road was quiet, the yellow lights above flickered past us and were the spotlights in the dark night, I look next to me and see David smirking.

"What's that smirk for?" I widely smile to him as I ask.

"Nothing," He continues to smirk whilst watching the road. "just, I never thought I'd ever see you again. Let alone see you happy with me again."

I feel my heart melt, just like when I met him for the first time.

"So, where are we going at such a late time of night?" I ask curiously.

"Where ever your dream took you." He purrs sending vibes through my body.

I look down to see his stereo, I turn it on and one of my favourite songs comes on.

"Modern Love." He mutters and for a long moment let's the quiet beat bounce. "Let's make that dream of yours come true, Little Rebel." David turns his stereo up as loud as it can go.

The car booms out his glorious voice, and the perfect tune, it felt like we were the only people in this world! David speeds up, the car roars excitedly against the famous track that was released in 1983 and it makes my hair flow wildly in the wind; my smile grows even wider then before, and together, me and David sing Modern Love. Once the saxophone starts it's solo, I throw my hands up in the air and let the wind make my fingers go numb; David was allowing my dream to come true! This was real! I stand up and lean over the wind screen and scream the lyrics, one arm still in the air, the other clutching onto the top of the car, the rest of my body moving in time to the beat. David laughs, a laugh so happy I could feel my heart burst open with pride. Every worry, every problem vanished, just like how it was in my dream. This was better then my dream!

I couldn't have felt more alive, more free. I felt young. David had made me feel the youth of life again, that feeling I thought I'd never feel again after having Ziggy. I felt 18 again, going back to the time when everything was perfect when I was with David. He had brought back the purpose of life, we were creating a memory... Together!

How was it possible that we made each other so happy? To show each other how good life really is?

The song continued to echo the roads and I sat back down in my leather seat, still bobbing my head up and down to the beat, David threw the cigarette behind him and put that hand on the steering wheel to match the one that was already there.

I lean over and kiss his cheek and whisper "Thank you." close to his ear then lean back out.

"What for?" He asks stunned.

"Letting me enjoy life again." I smile. "David, you've made me feel 18 again, made me feel just like how I felt when I first met you in 1974..."

"Ros, I haven't felt this good in such a long time, you're a joy to have in life... I'm a very lucky man to be driving you around."

"You've made my dream come true Starman!" I yell with glee.

He laughs and Let's Dance is the next song to play and I can't help but bob my head to it, it was only then I just realised David was playing his newest album from last year, called 'Let's Dance!'.

I wave my hands through the air again and allow David to sing alone this time. The wind picks up my hair again and viciously jumps around like before.

We just kept driving, I didn't care where we were going, I just wanted this night to last forever. I was with the perfect man to share this memory with, I didn't dare think about anything else. Just the thoughts of me and David made me want to scream out with joy.

After awhile of loud music and fast driving, David slowed down once Space Oddity began to play and he saw my head lean against the door frame of the car. He pulled into a garage that seemed to be deserted and the roaring engine turns into a hushed purr then silent again once the car is turned off.

The moon was our only light now, it reflected off of David so beautifully, he looked like a fallen angel, still God's finest work, nothing was more beautiful to me then David was, not even my own children...

Space Oddity still plays quietly now, the memories of mum flowed back and I could feel the tears starting to flood my eyes. I wish she could see the boys, and come and visit us just like dad and Henry do sometimes.

Henry was now 21 in university at Oxford doing a law degree, I was so proud of my little brother...

"I've missed you Rosalind." David croaks emotionally, which drags me from the sad memories and truths.

"Then why didn't you come to see me sooner? I've been waiting for 8 years, David... Why didn't you see me as soon as you divorced Angie in 1980!?" I squark.

"Because, I thought you were happy, you and Ziggy... You married Will, and then seeing you with another baby, a baby that wasn't mine... It killed me Ros." I could see the hurt in his eyes, I could hear it in his voice... It was painful.

"We named him Tommy after your character in the Man That Fell to Earth... It was my idea." He smiles, but the idea of me and Will having a child still hurt him badly.

"Are you happy Ros?" He asks me seriously.

"Well, yes, of course I am, tonight was-"

"I don't mean tonight. I mean everything. Do you wake up in the morning and think 'yes, I'm happy.'?"

No. Was all I could think.

I don't even reply, I sigh and look up to the moon. "What's it like to be free David?"

"Terrible." He replies sharply.

I quickly look at him, shocked. "I thought you'd be happy to divorce Angie? That's what you said to me all those years ago."

"Yes, and every word I said was true my darling." He pauses. "But the terrible part of being free is that you weren't waiting for me like you had promised me, and my fear of you being with Will came true."

"I never pro-"

"Rosalind. You did. You said you'd wait for me, no matter how long it took. You knew how afraid I was to lose you to him, I don't think you realise how hurt I was when you told me you were married... The pain- the heart ache...! The fact my Ziggy, my flesh and blood calls William dad!" David says harshly.

"I'm sorry, David..." Is all I can say. "I am so ashamed of what I've put you through..." I cup his face in my hands: "I never wanted to hurt you, David I loved you...!"

"I loved you too..." He replies quietly and meaningly.

Loved was almost a hurtful word, it meant the past, did he love me now?

"I need to ask you two things." I breathe.

He takes my hands in his and looks me dead in the eye and gives me a warm smile. "What is it my darling?"

"One, do you want to meet my boys in the morning?"

"Yes!" He beams a smile and chuckles out of happiness. "A thousand times yes! Oh Ros, thank you!" He kisses my cheek and I go a scarlet red.

"Ok, good, but just prepare yourself because they're going to be screaming fans..." We laugh together.

"What's the second thing?" David says still smiling.

"I don't want to go home tonight, can I come back to yours?" I ask sheepishly.

He smirks and kisses my forehead now. "Of course you can, I'll set up the spare room and-"

"No David, I want to sleep next to a man who actually cares for me, and enjoys my company."

"Ros, I don't want you to betray William, it wouldn't be fair on-"

"It's not cheating. It's only cheating if I sleep with you." I wink at him and David smirks harder at me.

"Do you want to get some clothes from home?" David quizzes.

"No, I can just sleep in one of your shirts, can't I?" I smirk and he nods.

After a minute of cheeky flirting, he sighs sadly and looks at me. "You're not happy with your life, are you Ros?"

"No." I sigh.

He lifts my chin gracefully: "Then let me be the one to finally make you happy again..." David mutters and takes my cold hand in one of his again, I let out a rushed breath and feel my heart float around inside of me... That's when I knew, the instant connection between us was relighting and the decision to sleep in the same bed as David and let nothing happen, was a dangerous risk I was willing to take.