Chapter 025

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Tomorrow was the day where it will all go down. I sat next to Eren. I look to see all the people here excited about tomorrow but I wasn't. I still haven't told them. I clench my hand, how could I tell them. I look down at my plate of meat. I took a bite, it wasn't the same as before. I haven't eaten meat in a while.  Everything was perfect back then. I guess since mother would make some for me. Tears feel off my cheek. I  wipe them it wasn't the time for these petty emotions . They had knocked out Sasha. I can't let them treat her like this.

"Sasha it's just meat calm down."

"Sasha please stay with us"

"Meat"

Those words weren't mine. I touched my head. Sasha is going to. I slowly drop everything no I can't. I move my plate to Eren. What can I do, it's bound to happen.  Just by a touch of someone I can see their memories. This power or more like ability is gong to be the death of me.

"You have to eat tomorrow is the big day. You must be strong in order to harden your skin"

"But Violet its meat"

I grab his fork and shove it into his mouth. I don't want to eat it fool. So let's have memories till you make them last. I don't think I have the choice as you do. I turn to see Sasha still out cold. Everything is how it should be.

"To think Sasha had offered to share meat with us."

"When did that happen"

"When we were cleaning the cannons. I think about four months ago. Violet do you remember."

"Yeah, Connie I had helped her. She force me into it"

"You stole meat with Sasha"

"Eren there is a lot about me you don't know"

But think about it. It all happens in four months so fast. To think I just graduated and here I am taking my home back from the titans. Eren was thinking about something. I should tell them. Maybe it's best not to. I will tell them later. Time I need time to.

"I took you back into this helll. I'm sorry Violet but please don't forget who you are"

I heard a voice. My ears started to ring deep inside. It hurt so much what am I supposed to do. It hurts way too much. I dug my nails into my hand.

Jean and Eren began to argue again. I look at Mikasa and she held the same expression as me. I was tired of their fights . We should just wait it out, Eren won't die either way. Eren also wouldn't hit Jean hard.

"Ah seriously, if you didn't have titans powers, you would have been dead about ten times. And every time, Mikasa or Violet will have to save your ass." He throws him a punch to the gut. That must have hurt. Eren then turn to me, I smile and gave him a shrug. "I'll just have to kill you" Jean was going all out.

Eren was in the ground. He glares at Jean. "That's something I have to take to heart"He punches Jean.

"You should start showing your mom some respect Jean boy"

Another punch came his way.

"Would you forget that already"

Another

"Never"

Armin came over to me.

"Violet shouldn't we stop them" I turn to him and smiled.

"Armin let them tired themselves out. We also need a rest"

He smiled and look back at them. Slowly they started to get tired. Eren looks my way. He was telling me if I am going to do something. I had no intention to stop your fight so give it all you got.

That must of hurt. They both fell straight to the floor.

"Tsk"

It all became quiet.

"You're all too dam rowdy, Go to sleep"

Jean threw up. "And clean that up"

"Yes sir"

I went outside the dining room smell bad. I sat down on the steps. I look to the moon, we will never be free, will we? Will I able to see the real world. I felt someone coat on me. I turn to see Eren and the other two. They sat beside me.

"How come you guys didn't help me back there, shouldn't you watch my back."

"Violetttt don't be afraid and fight. I can't lose you again and again. I won't follow the bloodline. It may put you in danger but stay alive."

The voice rung through my ears. Ahhh it's hurting too much. I can't take it. I put my hands on top of my ears. Please stop it's hurt too much.

I heard Armin replied."Even if you got hurt you can just heal yourself"

"I feel bad for Jean now," Those words came out of nowhere. What did I say that. I don't know.

"Why would you feel bad about horseface""Eren he doesn't heal as you do. So you lost this battle" again I didn't say it. It came out of my mouth.

He spoke again."I'm happy I met the commandant again. It was easier to see the thing I have to see. To think we are in the Levi squad in just four months. To think Violet is here. If Wall Maria never fell maybe you would have been living peacefully as you wanted"

Maybe I'm just tired that's all right.

I turn to him. I remember saying that I wanted to live peacefully. I just wanted to rest.

He continued on. "And wondering why can't I be strong like Violet, Mikasa, and the captain"

Was I consider strong.

"Eren I am not strong"

"Violet, Armin told me about your encounter with Annie. You had brought her down to her knees. You could have maybe had caught her"

I widen my eyes.

I turn to Armin, I told him not to tell them.

"Sorry Violet I had to tell them"

"Armin I don't blame you, I guess you notice when I could have slice her neck. I hesitate because I knew Annie was there. I didn't want to so I stop my blades and fell. I'm sorry I couldn't bring myself"

"I was jealous"

I look back to Eren.

"But even you two and the  Captain, there is something you guys can't do. That's  why we have to funds the thing swe can do." He looks to the sky. "And by joining together that's what makes us powerful"

"Every person is different and it for times like this"

Armin is really brilliant. I look to see someone walk by. I froze was that Hannes. It looks like Hannes. When he came to the light he had brown hair. I look down to see my finger twitching. I felt tears fall down my eyes.

"Once we retake Wall Maria and defeat all the enemies coming for us." I turn to Mikasa, she held onto the scarf. "Will they come back to us".

I couldn't answer that. She continues. "Like those days"

"We'll bring them back, but some things are forever changing. We'll make them pay for everything they have done for us"

I didn't agree with his words. I wipe my tears.

"But there is more than that"

Armin is really truly someone who needs to see the sea. "The sea... A salt lake is so big that merchants could spend their whole lives and still not get all the salt. There more than just titans out there. Fiery water, lands of ice. I joined the scouts to see that."

Eren turn his head and gave him a nervous smile." yeah you sure did"

He stood up confused with Eren reaction.

"Let's start by seeing the sea, you still doubt it's real, Eren you'll see it does exist."

Eren laughs and stands up reaching out his hand toward me. "I guess we will have to see Armin"

I held his hand. Armin was convincing Eren about the sea. I never like the sea, it scares me thinking about what the ocean has.

"It may be bigger than the walls."

Armin then turns to me.

"Violet you believe too right. The ocean is real."

I stood there.

"Eren the sea is real. I can tell you it is. My mother had told me about the sea. When I first saw the book you gave me. It gave me chance to see the sea. My mother had told me it was real and it is huge. So Eren the sea it truly real"

Armin hug me. I froze by the sudden hug.

"Armin do you know why we never fought before"

"Because it was never an equal fight"

I touch my forehead. It hurt really bad than before. I lost my feet' balance. Armin held my waist so I can focus. This headache had been causing me too much pain.

"Violet are you okay, is it another headache"

Mikasa rushes over to me and asks. I nodded to her words.

"You had these headaches since we enrolled in the cadets. Should we not see a doctor."

I look to Eren, it isn't a headache but the future to come. Will you be able to look at me with those eyes in the future. I don't think you would ever be able to look at me that way. I stood up, the pain was going away.

I ruffle their heads.

"I really want to win our home back so let's go rest because tomorrow is a big day for us"

I ran to the bunkers. So it does end up happening. I guess even tho I tried to change some things it doesn't change the fact that it's always there.