Chapter 21

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NIALL'S POV

She knew I'd never cheat. She's my princess, she knows that. I love her more than my entire existence on planet earth. Without her, I'm incomplete. True, it sounds cheesy, but she's a part of myself. Even the sound of her name slaps a smile onto my face. I've learned her through and through. Her favorite color is Aqua. Her favorite season is winter, and Christmas Is her most favorite holiday. Her birthday is December 23, 1996. She dropped out of school to help her father through his insane time. Although her mum died when she was little, her dad just started going wacky about it. Her mum died of pancreas cancer. Macey's eyes are range from light baby blue to that color with dark blue strikes in them. She loves makeup, hair, Disney, any little kid thing, her iPhone, and coffee products. She can't stand scary movies. She either sleeps for ages or not at all. She loves visiting America. Everything about her is simply perfect.

"Macey, I'm sorry for being a real dick. You're way too amazing for me and I absolutely cannot believe you're in love with me. You deserve the best in the world. You have no freaking idea how sorry I am Macey Fayett," I look up and her blue eyes are watering.

"I accept you're apology, baby," she smiles,"and hey." she grabs my cheeks and makes me look into her eyes. "I love you, my sweetheart."

"Kiss me please. I need you," tears roll down my face.

"You don't have to ask me to, idiot. God I missed you," she jumps and rests her legs on my hip bones.

She brings her lips to mine, and God, I feel alive again. My mind is filling with fireworks. That feeling in all the books and movies is how I'm feeling right now.... the one where they don't even know what the hell they're feeling; they just know it's love. Our lips pull apart and she lays her head on my neck.

"Can I fall asleep here? in your arms?" she hugs me.

"My arms are always open for you and only you," I carry her to the bed and set her on it. We both lay down and she faces me. I scoot as close to her as I can and hug her. I stare at her tired face, and smile. She's so extravagant. I'm incredibly lucky to have such an amazing woman.

"I don't give a shit if it's 5 pm, I've had a long freaking day and I miss my baby," she begins to fall asleep, and I fall more in love with her.

I drift to sleep, her in my arms.

I hope I wake with her still in them.

MACEY'S POV

It's 12am and I'm tossing and turning. I've been laying here for 7 hours. I haven't even felt the urge to pee until right now. I get up and stroll to the bathroom. I'm in Niall's yellow Eagles baseball tee and my underwear. My hair is in a messy topknot. I look at myself in the mirror, then I look down at my wrists-my scars. they're never going to go away. they're too deep. white lines stick out from my arms. I pull the seam of the shirt just above my belly button, and I pinch the fat there.

"You can get rid of it." I think. "Just 2 little fingers shoved down your throat. do it." I look down at myself. I'm right.

I get on my knees in front of the toilet and shove my pointer and middle fingers down my throat. The vomit is coming up my esophagus-- out of my mouth and into the toilet. a few chunks of vomit at a time. I cough and keep holding my hair back with my left hand. I continue shoving my fingers down my throat again and again until I feel I understand the true meaning of "puking my guts out." i made sure to wipe the seat and flush my guts down the toilet. I was probably there for about 30 minutes simply puking. I cry on my way back to bed and curl on top of my baby boy.

Niall wakes me up by shoving me back and forth.

"Macey Grey Fulson!" he hold my shoulders to the bed.

"Five more minutes dad..." I turn over, or try.

"Macey... don't ever do that again... you're so beautiful... next time you feel like that just wake me up, my baby girl. You're the most special girl in the whole world. I love you." He's literally crying into my shoulder. "I can't lose my baby girl again..."

"What are you talking about?" I know what he's talking about. my puking. Ireally mean: how did you find out?

"I kissed you when I woke up... and your lips tasted like puke..." niall's eyes are filled with tears.

"I'm sorry..." I bite my lip.

"Listen to me. The only -and I mean ONLY-time you will ever even half be fat is when you're having my children. I don't want to wait for kids baby... I want a family with you. I want to be a father to your children." he kisses me.

"I want to mother your kids too..." I cry. I actually had thought about this before. a family with niall.

Niall does something totally unexpected. He turns around and leaves.

"Stay Here!!!!" he yells.

What's he up to?