( Chapter Twenty - Three )

Lauren's POV

It had been a month since the funeral and it seemed like life would never be the same, that night changed everything not only for me but for my friends too.

I had not only lost my best friend but my soulmate, the love of my life and the person that loved me unconditionally.

"Lauren we're ready to go" I heard Dinah's voice interrupt my thoughts. She was going away for a while because the pain was too much to handle, I was going to be left alone with the memory of that night playing over and over again in my mind.

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I was paralyzed from head to toes, everything was a blur and I just wanted to open my eyes and wake up from this nightmare.

But, it wasn't a nightmare this was reality Lucy had shot my person and she was laying lifeless on Dinah's arms. I saw as the police tackled down Lucy and handcuffed her as she gave me a grin before finally being let out of the club and inside the police car.

I finally woke up from my daze and ran up to Dinah who was crying uncontrollably rocking the girl's body back and forth as she repeated "Please wake up please wake up".

Ally was on her knees next to her, Paramedics approached them trying to see if they could do anything but my worst nightmare came true.

"I'm so sorry there is nothing we can do" One of the paramedics said as Dinah grabbed the body once more.

"No no no" I started yelling, I was having a panic attack and I wanted to scream and cry and break shit and I felt like my world had ended right here, this moment.

"Normani please come back to us" I said leaning next to my best friend's body, I felt Camila wrap her arms from behind me.

"She saved my life" She said crying hysterically.

"Sh-She pushed me out of the way and the bullet hit her, This should be me not her" Camila was yelling holding Normani's lifeless hand as Dinah continued to rock her.

"We have to take the body now, We're sorry. You can ride with us on the ambulance" One of the paramedics approached us as he tried to pull Dinah of her Wife's body.

It took me, Camila and Ally to finally separate them, We all rode on the ambulance next to my best friend.

My best friend, I thought. She was dead, what will I do now? My sister was dead, my other half, I don't know how to do life without her. All of this night seemed so unreal, this couldn't be real.

As we got to the hospital I decided to call my parents, my mom couldn't believe what had happened and they were already on their way here along with the rest of the girls families.

We were waiting outside as they processed the body and did all the procedures that had to happen before incinerating my best friend's body, Dinah had decided this because she had had the talk with Normani that if any of them ever suffered an accident or when they were older who ever died first would throw the other's ashes on the ocean. I also knew this since me and Normani were 10, We have had so many talks and I knew exactly what she wanted.

But, this wasn't suppose to happen so soon, not now and not like this. Dinah didn't talk, didn't eat, didn't do anything for hours. The next morning we were all allowed to go and say our goodbyes before the incineration began. Camila and her family were first, then ally, next it was my parents that were completely destroyed because Normani was like another daughter for them.

Dinah's family went before me and now I was standing in front of her body, She looked so peaceful.

"I-I'm so sorry" I whispered as tears streamed down my face, my chest felt tight and my blood was boiling just thinking about Lucy and how this had been my fault. Normani was dead because of me.

"We should of stayed home, we should of watched a stupid boring movie, anything. I would do anything to go back in time. I'm so sorry Normani" I cried harder and harder barely having any air left.

I threw myself on top of her body as I heard someone enter the room and place their hand on my back.

"Can we say goodbye together?" I heard a broken Dinah ask, I just nodded my head as I heard her talk to Normani.

"Hey babe" She said as she leaned in and gave Normani's' forehead a kiss. "You were the best wife I could of asked for and I'll forever be grateful for this 6 months we spent together, you are the love of my life and I will never ever forget you." I heard Dinah take a deep breath before she continued.

"And guess what? It was positive babe, We did it. We're having a baby" I saw her rub her belly before looking at me with a sad smile, I cried even harder. They were going to start a family and now that was taken away from them because of me.

"I'll keep our promise too, If it's a boy his name will be Michael and if it's a girl" I saw Dinah turn to me and grab my hand. "We will name her Michelle" She said as my heart broke into a million pieces.

"After me?" I asked barely above a whisper.

"She loved you so much Lauren, She wanted to surprise you in case we got a positive." Dinah broke down and fell to her knees as I fell right next to her.

"Dinah, I'm so sorry this is all my fault this should b-" Before I could continue the Polynesian girl embraced me in a tight hug.

"It is not your fault Lauren never say that again, Never." She said as I helped her get up.

"Well, I guess this is a see you later, Thank you for all this years of loyalty and love. You'll forever be in my heart and my mind. I love you so much Normani Kordei, Goodbye my beautiful angel" I finally said as I gave her cheek a fast kiss and pulled back.

"Babe, Wife, Love of my life. You will forever be missed I will talk to our baby about you he or she will get to know the extraordinary woman you were. I love you so fucking much and I will never forget you, please take care of us and fly high high my beautiful angel. I love you babe, I'll see you soon" Dinah said as she gave Normani's lips a final kiss.

We walked out hand in hand as we threw ourselves to our families and friends, A few hours later Dinah got the ashes and we all decided to go to the beach and have a small ceremony for Normani. Dinah decided that she would fly to Australia to throw the ashes over there since their honeymoon was there and Normani just fell in love with that place, but she said she would wait until she was ready.

This was real, my best friend was dead and her wife was going to have a baby. My heart was so broken and I don't know how I would ever live without her.

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"Lauren are you coming?" I heard Camila yell from outside our house, Two weeks ago we all flew to Australia and had a beautiful ceremony for Normani and threw her ashes on the ocean. Dinah had kept a small box of her ashes and that was everything that was left of her.

When we got back Dinah was so depressed and that was affecting the baby severely, She managed to get strength from that and decided it was time for a move. She couldn't be here anymore, After Lucy's trial that ended yesterday her and Camila were going to take off to Spain.

Normani always wanted to live there so Dinah decided that would be a good move, After Lucy got sentenced to Life without parole on a first degree murder Dinah seemed to get a little weight lifted off her shoulders.

Camila was going to go away with her because she couldn't leave her best friend alone, They were going away for a year and I was going to stay here because Dinah needed some space away from me too.

Ally moved in with me and we were going to be here, Waiting for their return.

"Yes" I finally yelled back.

The drive to the airport was a long quiet drive, Me and Camila were sitting in the front while Dinah and Ally sat on the back. After 20 minutes I parked just outside the airport and was ready to once again say goodbye to people I loved.

"Well this is it" Camila said as a tear fell from her eye, We had decided to end things because we didn't know what would happen in a year. What if she met someone and fell in love, What if she wanted to stay over there, there were too many obstacles for us to continue this.

"Take care, send me pictures of your tummy. Come back soon" I told Dinah as we hugged, " I love you" I said as I felt her tears fall on my shoulder.

"You too take care of yourself and Ally, I love you so much Lo" She said back making me tear up, we finally separated as she and Ally were saying her goodbyes, I was standing in front of Camila.

"I'm going to miss you so much" I said as I embraced Camila in a hug, I never wanted to let go. She was the love of my life, I lost the two loves of my lives in just a month span.

"I'm going to miss you more Lolo, I love you so much. Please never forget that." She said as she cried and cried, I felt her tears on my shoulder.

"Never, Please come back to me soon" I said just above a whisper, God, I never wanted to let go. I quickly pressed my lips to hers as I tasted her salty tears on my lips but I didn't care.

I wanted to take in all of Camila's love, I didn't want to forget anything about her. Her sparkly brown eyes, that smirk so shy but sexy, the way she wrinkled her nose, her loud laugh, her bad jokes, I didn't want to let go of her.

"God, I love you so much. I don't want to let you go" I said just hugging her tighter.

"Neither do I babe, But, I will be back I promise. Just wait for me" She said as we started to slowly let go.

"Forever" I said, She gave me another tender kiss, possibly the last one.

"I love you" She said as she turned around to head towards Dinah.

"I love you the most" I said back as me and Ally waited until they went inside the airport.

"They'll be back Lo" Ally said giving me a small smile.

Sure, they would be back but when?

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It had been a week since Dinah and Camila left and the loneliness was getting to me, I texted Camila daily but she said she needed a break. I wanted to give her her space but I missed her so damn much. I was cleaning out my closet as I pulled a box down and an envelope fell from under it.

It had Camila's writing and it was addressed to me, I was confused but grabbed the letter as I sat on my bed. It even smelled like her, I opened the letter as a small dry flower fell from inside.

My dearest Lauren,

If you found this then you're finally cleaning your closet and I'm already gone, Not for forever thought. At least I hope not, I left this just so you won't forget me because I sure won't even if I ask you for space or whatever I do, always remember you're on my mind but most importantly in my heart. You made me believe in love and you made me a much better person, being your girlfriend was the best thing that could of happened to me. Thank you for giving me your trust and your love, I love you so much.

You Lauren are the love of my life and one day I will come back to you, I promise. Just wait for me babe, One day.

Sincerely your Camz.

Tears were falling down and into the paper I immediately moved it before it got ruined, This girl would be the death of me. Even thousands of miles away she still managed to make me fall for her.

I would wait for Camila, No matter if it took 1 year or 10. There was no one else I rather be with than her, she was the love of my life and I will wait. Because one day we will reunite because a love like this doesn't happen out of nowhere, we are meant to be, love happens in mysterious ways and I was not ready to let go of her.

One day we will be together again, One day.

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A/N: The end (:

Wait for the epilogue tho (:

Love Only <3