Chapter 4

SORRY GUYS I LOST MY CHAPTER 3 I DON'T KNOW WHY AND I FORGOT WHAT'S THE STORY LINE IN THERE! BUT I'LL TRY TO WRITE IT AGAIN.

Hello! first of all, actually i'm not really comfortable to continue this book at the moment since the news roaming around social media about photos leaked between Jennie and Taehyung. I feel so sorry for them and especially Jennie because the photo seemed like taken by her. There's many assumption that Jennie obsessed with him when we didn't know their feelings for each other.

If it's TRUE then it's so disrespectful to invaded someone's privacy. If it's FALSE, the editor don't have to exaggerate the picture as lie evidence called 'unseen photo' just to make a scandal. they known the photo can make a big news lead to fanwars and they intentionally to do so by sharing it. So many taennie edited photo just for fun, but the intention of that photo really not cool. I think we as a fans don't have to know every little details about their personal life, it's up to them either they want to share or not, we must content to what they present to us all this time.

I love how you guys make a taennie edit, some of them really cute i wished they're together because we still not know the truth but please if it's just an edit don't make it as a false news even if it's true think about their privacy as a HUMAN BEING, we cannot demand them to be a celebrity with a spotlight everywhere, they need rest.

But i still try my best to continue this book because after this chapter i will update a new one tomorrow immediately! thank you armyblink to read it!❤️

ENJOY THE CHAPTER BELOW! 👇👇👇👇

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Jennie hummed at Taehyung for rubbing her back, it's really comforting. Jennie suddenly sit straight in his lap make Taehyung face her. Jennie cupped both of his cheeks and caress it, Taehyung smile softly, he likes it, he likes her. He still rub her back while Jennie caress his cheeks, both of them feel warm under their touches.

"Taehyung." Taehyung close his eyes enjoy her fingers on his face.

"Hmm?"

"We can't do this." Jennie whispers.

Taehyung suddenly widen his eyes, shocked from Jennie's words. He isn't expecting on a moment like this Jennie could say something that make him down, it's like he's falling hundred feet to the ground. His heart got stabbed and he couldn't breath at all. Jennie turn her face to frown, when she look at him while caressing his cheeks, she realize it's wrong.

She need to get her life back first before falling in love. It means no more office romance, no more clumsy unprotective sex, and no more drink until wasted alone. "Jennie" Taehyung called her and she felt his grip get tighten like he wants to hug her more but Jennie suddenly jolt up from his lap.

"No, no Mr. Kim. We cannot do this, i'm sorry." She's back with formalities, Taehyung feel disappointed. Jennie gathered her things again and tidy up her clothes. She's about to cry again because even if he calmed her down she can't be this impulsive just because he always there, she has to go slow and steady. Taehyung just statued and watch her walk away. He's curious why she said that.

First, after a blowjob she gave suddenly Jennie thrown up and now, after passionate make out and warm embrace suddenly she said they can't do this. What's up with Jennie always turn him down when at first she lifted him up with so much hope. He felt heavy, he can't think straight even when employees start going back to this floor from the auditorium. He can't hear anything, he felt losing. He has to get heart broken again.

Yes, he felt this stuff even before Jennie barged into her office. No different than Jennie, Taehyung has his own nightmare of losing someone he love and luckily he can get out from it quickly but still the scene his witnessing why he got brokenhearted too remain in his head until now. Taehyung decided to go home too, this feelings make him cannot think straight.

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Jennie arrived at her apartment, she go straight to the bathroom and clear her mind in a shower. She clear her head with cold water running through her body. When some people do it with hot water, Jennie thinks cold water makes her think straight because it refresh her mind quickly. She doesn't need warm to clear her mind, she needs coldness to wake her up to think more sensible.

She decided to wear straight jeans, white t-shirt with blue stripes shirt, she added oversized black parka in case it's windy. She put her converse and get out from her apartment. Jennie dismissed her driver to not accompany her to Yoongi's apartment. She wants to walk and it's just take ten minutes walk.

Finally she stand in his entrance door. She sighed deeply before press the ring. It just took few seconds for Yoongi to open it. "Hi, come in." Yoongi seem nervous but so is she. Who's not nervous when a couple broken up by not talking for months, they broken up telepathically.

"Have you eaten yet? i bought take outs for us but if you don't want to it's okay, i have strawberry acai bowl if you still like it, just for fill your stomach if you're not that hungry." Yoongi point to shake shack bags and sweet greens bowl. All her favorite. "It's okay we can talk while eating." Jennie suggest.

They eat at the couch, Yoongi choose the burger and Jennie take an acai bowl. They watching some random rom-com but it's getting interesting so they just go for it.

"What's up with you, Jen?" Yoongi start the conversation casually. Jennie start to realize maybe they have to talk this way to make the tense got lower.

"Not good actually, still adapting my new workplace."

"What do you mean new? it's your job all this time. You mean new boss?" Jennie choke at his last word, it reminds her today's scene.

"Yeah", "Because it's supposed to be you who sit on Chief position." Yoongi turn his head to Jennie and Jennie just shrugged while pout feeling annoy. Yoongi chuckle. Jennie know why they act casual after all this time, it's Yoongi.

He always does this, whenever Yoongi has something sad, happy, shocking and more, he always act normal days or weeks later because he try to forget or forgive all that behind, he live in the moment.

Although she little bit hurt by his 'nothing happened' act, she's bit relieve because they both move on and try to be just fine. 'So it means that i don't have to quit my job?' Jennie thought that. thanks to her session yesterday, everything that happens today she's little bit calm and for today's warm embrace from Taehyung.

"Yoongi, are you really fine for us? like can we just be normal? not in a romantic ways just as a person who know each other because it seems like 'friends' doesn't seem right too" Jennie ask him because seeing Yoongi first time she's here, she's not feel anything but only missed his presence but love? no. It's more like heavy feelings for reminding her their baby.

"I thought so too, Jen. I loved you and i know for months we're apart i think we can't be together just because our mutual personality. it's about clicking, we're fight in not healthy ways everyday and it'll get worse if we keep going." Yoongi agree with Jennie.

"So are you okay with me now?" Jennie arched her eyebrows. "Yes of course, you know me Jen, i don't want to have any grudges to anyone and i thought you're the one who hated me." Jennie taken aback by what he said. She felt guilty all of sudden.

Jennie decide to place her bowl at a coffee table and sit straight beside him. Yoongi see that while munching his burger. Jennie face yoongi and take the burger down, it makes Yoongi confuse. Suddenly, she hugs Yoongi. Oddly, she feel warm in Yoongi's too maybe because she care even though they're broken up. Yoongi get blushes really hard, he just froze in Jennie's embrace.

"Yoongi, i never hate you. I know even if what you said is true you never meant to hurt me that way, i know you always try to find right sentences to fix my attitude and it's just accidentally came out wrong." Jennie assured him.

Yoongi smile and hugs her too. He feel calm too because Jennie answer all of his question all this time. Jennie suddenly released her hands from him and sighed deeply.

"I have something to tell you but promise me you're not all freak out." Jennie tell him while she scoop up her bowl. Yoongi just hummed to let her continue.

"When we were fighting actually i want to gave you some news." Jennie bite her lips. "I was pregnant, but got miscarriage."

There she go, talk fast, short, and casual. Yoongi mouth hanged open. Jennie bite her spoon with an awkward smile.

"Jen, was it mine?" She nods.

"You got miscarriage?" She bite her lips not answering it.

"It's because of me, wasn't it? it's because i hurt you that day." Yoongi stand up and mess up his hair feel guilty and frustrating. Jennie worry for him she finally has an answer too. She realize Yoongi probably be happy and love it just the way she was.

"No, no, no!! Yoongi! listen to me please! it's not your fault, it's no one's fault!" Jennie try to stop Yoongi for keep walk back and forth while messed up his hair with his fingers, he frustrated and depressed. Jennie hold both of his hands to make him calm down.

"Yoongi, i was 8-12 weeks pregnant when i came to your apartment and i got miscarriage around 20-24 weeks because of exhaustion. both me and doctor didn't realize it would be affect the baby because every month he always fine and stronger." Jennie explain it but Yoongi doesn't buy it at all.

"But i made you ran away to Switzerland! i did it! if only i didn't said those words you would be surprise me with good news!" Yoongi fall onto his knees. He cry while looking down. Jennie completely down for witnessing Yoongi like this. So she just kneel too and adjut his shoulder to straight up and hug him.

Both of them cries together, they both feels heavy. Yoongi hug her tight on her waist and cry while Jennie wrap her arms around his neck and cry too. Jennie realize Taehyung's embrace was so right and always right for her but now she needs Yoongi to overcome their failure.

With Yoongi she find relieves, she finally understand what Dr. Han said. She has to face her problem first to set her free from anything that makes her like this, it's not meant to be let Yoongi go or run away but let her emotion out and be gone.

"Yoongi please don't be like this, i hate seeing you like this, i was hurt too for losing our baby but i don't want to lose your presence too for being like this, we can still be friends even if we feel like we can't be thet close." Jennie said between her sobs.

"But i made you like this, i don't deserve to show up in your face at all." Yoongi replied still crying on her shoulder.

"NO! please! we both hurt and we need to let this out together so we can be fine!" Jennie assured Yoongi while caress back of his head.

They've been crying for an hour, Jennie used to this so it didn't drained her energy but Yoongi feel exhausted so she accompany him walk to his bedroom. While Yoongi laying on his bed sleeping, Jennie sit on an edge of his bed beside him. She stroke his hair while examine his face. She missed him not in that way but still his presence really important to her, she still care, they both did.

Jennie decided to stay at his apartment, at least she take care of him until tomorrow morning. She sleep on his couch in the living room, good thing she still know where's extra blanket and pillow in his apartment so she take it on the cabinet in his laundry room.

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Next morning she woken up by the smell of food. She adjust her sights and stand up. She see Yoongi cook something so she approached him.

"Hey morning, what did you cook." Jennie stand beside him.

"A big breakfast, i got tired and hungry from last night." Yoongi cold tone make Jennie frown. He still feel guilty.

"I made you avocado toast and strawberry smoothies with some pretzels." Yoongi point to kitchen island across them. Jennie smile because Yoongi prepared it so organize. She sit on a barstool and start eating it. Yoongi just finish his cooking and take a barstool so they sit face to face.

" Jen , i think i need time to adjust. I feel guilty and all these news really bumps me out. I can't imagine what you've been through and it makes me crazy." Jennie can sense his stressful tone.

After she finished her breakfast, she stand up approaching him and hug him from his side. Yoongi's head lean to her chest.

"It's fine i understand but you know what? being honest with you like that makes me heal so much knowing you love the idea of his presence." Jennie assured him and kiss top of his head.

"Is a he? what's his name?" , "Kim Minho" Jennie smile remembering his name. Jennie release his head from her embrace and walk to her bag to put out something. "Here." Jennie handed him a sonogram.

"It's when he's 12 weeks, the time when i was about to tell you." Jennie smile remembering all the sonogram in her apartment that she kept. "It's for you if you want to keep it." Jennie gathered her things and say goodbye to Yoongi.

When the door closed, Yoongi stand in front of his fridge. He stick the sonogram to his fridge and write 'Kim Minho, 12 weeks. Oct 2021-Mar 2022' Yoongi stare at it and crying again, this time he is alone. .

Jennie open the door of her apartment, she decided to take another nap because she still not feel fine for crashed on Yoongi's couch. Before she fall asleep again she open her phone and there's a text.

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09.00 pmMs. Jennie this is Taehyung. I'm at your apartment, are home yet?

09.30 pmi guess you're not at home? i'm still waiting

10.45 pmJennie i need to talk to you, i knocked but no one reply.

00.00 amyou're not drunk aren't you?

00.25 i guess you're sleeping somewhere, take care.

Jennie widened her eyes, this time she's not uncomfortable with Yoongi, but she extremely uncomfortable with Taehyung. Guess this time she will feel heavy around Taehyung again.

She slowly heal from honesty but right now she's aftaid Taehyung still make a move on her. Did he not understand what she's saying yesterday? When she's daydreaming again someone call her, it's Lisa.

"Hey Lis, what's up?", "Yeah your boss is an ass." Jennie widen her eyes, she's not understand why suddenly Lisa said it because she never met him.

"Why?" Jennie replied. "He wants to take over my contract deals because Mrs. Hopkins said i took so many project and it's out of control so i need supervision but she rejected you because you still adapt here, what's with that lame excuse? i'm so furious right now."

Jennie can only hummed because Taehyung stuck on her mind too for no apparent reason. "By the way i realize who he is, unnie." Jennie furrowed her eyebrows. "Who?"

"He is Taehyun Kim twin brother."

"What? Are you sure?" Jennie widen her eyes.

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Short Chapter! i'm sorry!

Sincerely, Lemona.