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After Grayson left I got a text from Ethan.

Ethan: Taylor?

Me: Ya

Ethan: why didn't you tell me you liked me.

Me: I was afraid you wouldn't like me back.

Ethan: Oh. Well I do so no need to worry.

Me: Lol.

Ethan: Wanna hangout?

Me: Right now?

Ethan: Sure.

Me: Ok meet me at my house.

Ethan: Ok see ya.

I can't hurt Grayson. I can't. It's wrong.

But I know Alex will do worse things to him if I don't do what she says.

I just have to cope with it. I know it's hard for me. But I have to.

But I can't.

I don't want to hurt Ethan either. He's such a nice guy that can't be hurt. I can't just tell him I don't like him when he already told me he likes me.

I just hope no one finds out I'm doing this. Especially Tyler he'll get mad at me for hurting his best friends.

They are like brothers now.

I'm glad they all got along.

But the fact of hurting them is still on my mind.

I can't do something stupid. I have to give hints to Ethan that I don't like him. And give hints to Gray that I am sorry and I still love him.

I heard another knock. I quickly went down and opened the door for Ethan. 

"Hey."

"Hi Ethan."

He came in he sat down on the couch. I also did too.

"Why didn't you tell me you liked me?"

I shrugged not knowing what to say. "I was nervous.. I guess"

He nodded. "Ya I understand."

I felt my phone buzz I saw Alex's name on my screen.

Alex: He said he has deep feelings for you when I snapped him. If he asks you out say yes.

Me: Ok

"Who are you texting?" Ethan asked.

"Just a friend." I put my phone in my pocket.

"So umm... Can I ask you something?"

"Ya sure Eth." I said looking up at his beautiful eyes.

"So um I actually really liked you the first day I saw you. And I uh like you a lot Taylor. And since you don't like Grayson I was thinking if we could have something special?"

He looked cute af and all but I love Grayson.

Ethan is too special and an amazing person to be hurt.

But I have to do it. I don't want my nudes all over the internet my small family (fans) wouldn't like me anymore and I love them.

Alex did say she'd do something bad to Gray and Ethan I can't let that happen.

"Well I like you too Ethan... A lot. If we have a special thing would you want to keep it secret?" I asked.

"Umm whatever you'd like I don't really care." He said shrugging.

"Let's keep it a secret for now then."

"Ok anything for you." He said blushing.

I smiled. I'm wrong I should just die in a hole I can't do this.

"Well it's getting late babe.  Maybe you should sleep." He stood up

Is it really that noticeable?

"Ya it's really noticeable."

I said that out loud?

"Ya you keep saying stuff out loud too. C'mon let's take you upstairs so you can sleep."

I nodded and stood up. He took me upstairs and into my room. He laid me down and covered me with my blankets.

"Thank you." I whispered as I drifted off to sleep.