chapter 11

-one year later-

Everything is going smoothly. Well, at least for everyone else. It all went sideways with the BMOL, blowing up the compound. Ketch was on our side, so he had help in the process.

Speaking of, Ketch did move into the bunker with us. Sam and Dean didn't like it, but I didn't care what they thought. I'm am the one with the claws afterall.

Going out on hunts, doing research... I could've helped a hell of a lot more, but I was too worried about me. Being a wolf.

Could have wolfed out at any moment. The chance of hurting the people I care about. I can't shake it out of my mind.

Sam, Dean, Cas, Ketch... they shouldn't trust me. They need to get away. I need to run far away. It'll be better. However, I didn't. I can't leave them. They'll search for me every second of every minute. It's useless.

So here I sit, leaning against the headboard of the bed, staring at my gun. A gun I cannot touch hence the silver.

I could if I really wanted too. Pick up the gun and burn myself for a few seconds before shooting a silver bullet into my skull.

"Is everything okay, my love?" Ketch asked in worry, entering our bedroom.

"I can't do this anymore, Arthur. You need to take my gun... and shoot me."

"Are you out of your head? I'm not killing you."

I didn't want to have the talk like it always is everytime. I don't want to be talked down. This is my choice, and I'm okay with it.

Picking up my gun, it instantly burned, which I twitched. Pointing it under my chin, I put my finger on the trigger, about to pull it.

"Y/n, no!" Ketch sprinted to knock the gun out of my hands.

Letting tears roll down my face, I reached for the gun, but Ketch got it first. He held it as far back as he could.

"Arthur, please! You need to kill me!" I cried out, my vision going blurry from tears. "I told you this day would come... you need to pull the trigger on me!"

"Never. I can't." Ketch replied. "I love you so much, Y/n. You don't have to go through the pain by yourself."

After a year, I knew how to manage my wolf abilities. Controlling it. Wasn't easy, but at least I know now.

"Then, I'm sorry for this..." I gave my best puppy dog eyes before showing off my wolf eyes, teeth, and claws.

Lunging after him, I scratched the side of his face to force him to drop the weapon. I picked it up and backed away, burning myself.

After I shot, I gave a warm smile before saying my final words: "I love you, Arthur Ketch."

•••

Suddenly popped up in a familiar grayish place, I knew it as Purgatory. Monsters I saw were off in the distance, which is where I made my escape.

Ran for miles, hoping to find a certain good friend of us Winchesters. Questioning every vamp I saw, asking for where my friend is.

It was taking forever, but I couldn't find him. I hope he's okay though. However, he's a tough son of a bitch.

Hearing coughing and wheezing, I turned around the corner of a tree, not believing my eyes for one second. He glanced at me with worry, ready to run, but didn't when he saw me standing in front of him.

"Benny." I smiled.

"Y/n." He asked in confusion. "What are you doing in this dump, sweetheart?"

I kneeled down towards him, nestling myself against him. "It's a long story." I said.

"We've got time." He wrapped his arm around me.

Keeping my smile, I turned my head to place my lips on his. I've missed that. Nestling closer into him, like a hug, or a cuddle, I started explaining everything.

I mean everything. Ketch, Crowley, that damn wolf hunt. The demon deal. The scratches, and even turning myself into a werewolf. To say the ending of my life... it was hard to say. I said the truth.

Benny was my first love, and we promised to find other people but to keep our love live through memory. We were together for a long ass time, and I could never forget him. Ever.

To get Benny's reaction to Ketch, and being with him, of course I knew that would hurt Benny. Although, it was a promise. He respected everything. Me. Us.

"Well... looks like you had quite the adventure without me, darlin'." Benny joked.

"Yeah," I chuckled. "Look how that turned out for me."

"Hey." Benny got my attention, taking ahold of my hand. "You fought it for year at least. You didn't shoot when you found out, but I hoped you kept going for a few years. Nonetheless, I am so proud of you for fighting."

"And knowing you were here, I had every gut in my body telling me to shoot since day one. I needed to see you again."

Benny lifted me up and set me directly in his lap, both facing the same direction. The feeling of getting my shirt pulled off, I knew it was Benny, so I let him contuine.

After dropping it to the ground, he unclipped my bra, which I was okay with. We were in love a healthy relationship. I've always felt comfortable with ever since I met him.

I felt his fingers trace over the scratches, which didn't seem to be sensitive now. He was gentle and soft, which I knew he would never hurt me.

"You are a fighter, Y/n Winchester. Be proud of the scars you had to bare." He softly stated.

Afterwards, he leaned forward and kissed the back of my shoulder. I moaned and leaned back into his arms more. He wrapped his arms around me, and kissed my neck.

Now, we were watching whatever naturess view in front of us. We laughed, we were happy being together again. Forever. Like we promised.

Not that I'll forget about Ketch. He's done so much for me, taking care of me. He did a perfect job at protecting me. I'll never forget to love him. Leave my mind.

He's why I'm here... I loved Ketch too much that I had to leave Earth. He would spent too much time protecting me and finding a way to stop the deal, that I helped him out by death.

I love Ketch. I love Benny. Those two have taught me to never give him and to always fight whatever was in head of me. They will forever be apart of my life.

"I'm at peace, Benny." I smiled. "This might be monsterland, but I'll be with you forever, right?"

"Together forever, Chief."

THE END