Chapter 39

"Sam..." I press his nose and looking at him.

"Kate..." Sam rolls his eyes.

"Why are you so cute huh?" I chuckle and pinch his nose.

Sam and I are in my bed and cuddling. It's too hot to go outside so we decided to come here and cuddle and I cant deny it anymore that I really really like him. He is cute and I realized that he's been here all the time. Sad or happy. And I was too stupid to not realize that.

"You're beautiful." Sam smiles at me.

"I like you." I smile back at him.

"Kate, I dont like your joke." Sam simply said.

"I'm serious. I really like you, Sam. You are my guardian angel and how stupid that I just realized it now. After everything you've done to me. You are like the late superhero but cute and sweet." I giggle.

"You're not drunk are you?" Sam chuckles.

"I'm not." I shake my head.

"Can I be honest with you?" Sam asks me.

"Yes, we always be honest with each other." I said to him.

"I have the same feeling to you since we had summer fling." Sam says to me.

"Since almost one year ago? And you never tell me?" I raise my eyebrows at him.

Sam shakes his head. "Never want to ruin our friendship things. But I'm really into you. I mean who else want to stay up all night cuddled with me when I play games? Only you. You're special and I cant believe that you said that to me." Sam smiled at me.

"But I have one problem." I said to him.

"What's that?" Sam asks me.

"I know we are into each other and we have so much things in common but before we went to another step. I want to tell you that I dont trust any kind of relationship anymore. I'm really dying with that and-and what all my exes did really hurt. And honestly, I dont trust any guy maybe except you, my dad, Mr. Schue, Kurt, and Blaine. I dont know why." I said to Sam.

"You know that I wont hurt you right?" Sam raises his eyebrows at me.

"I know. I wont hurt you either but this deep dark fears keep following me everywhere. We dont need to put label in our stuff only to mark the thing is ours right? If we know that thing is ours, it will be ours right? I want to stay like this and just be honest at each other." I said to him.

"Before you told me this, I always said that God and I know that you're mine. But karma came when you kissed another guy. Another half black jewish guy with baby face." Sam chuckles.

"Besides that we can marry each other when we 27th or 30th." I chuckle.

"Just dont ever try to kiss another guy." Sam smiles at me and kisses me softly.

I cup his cheek and kiss him back. I'm into my bestfriend. Into someone who always be there for me and being my guardian angel who always protect me and save my life. He is the best.

"Would you mind to sleep over? My parents went to DC and I'm alone and I kinda afraid to house myself. Not wit ghost but you know robbery or killer or anything." I said to him.

"I'm here. Dont worry about that." Sam smiles at me.

"Sam, are you okay with the things I said to you?" I ask him.

"I wont cheat on you even we are not dating. Besides, you were the one who always said that who cares about what other people think? They dont know us. And, dont spoilt to another guy. Dont ask another guy to buy you ice cream or whimper at them. The last thing, dont smell their armpit." Sam says to me.

I chuckle and shake my head. "I wont. Besides, I never spoilt to another guy except you or my dad when I want something but mostly to you because when I want something you always give me anything I want." I grin at Sam.

"You're ugly when you cry." Sam chuckles.

"Really? Said someone who ever threw me with pebble and made my forehead bleeding." I roll my eyes.

"Kate! What the..." Blaine's voice.

"How can he get in?" Sam asks me.

"Just pretend we are sleeping." I said to Sam and close my eyes.

"I heard that clearly!" Blaine shouts.

I roll my eyes and leave Sam's body and sit up in my bed and looking at Blaine. "What do you want?"

"And how come you get in? I though Kate locked the front door." Sam frowns at him.

"You think only you who know where she usually hide the key? I know that. By the way, what was that?" Blaine smirk and jumps to my bed.

"We just cuddled." I simply said.

"Without me?" Blaine asks.

"Sam, cuddle with Blaine. He needs love." I roll my eyes and stand up from my seat then walk downstairs.

Sam's POV

"Sam, cuddle with Blaine. He needs love." Kate simply said and went off from her room.

I frown and hug her pillow then turn around. "What was that?" Blaine asks me.

"I told you that things right." I said to Blaine.

"No. I know you both so bad. That looks really different. Are you guys just having sex?" Blaine frowns at me.

"Kate told me everything." I said to him.

"She did?" Blaine raises his eyebrows at me.

"Yeah. So I told her the same thing but we want to take it slow and Kate doesnt wanna be in a relationship since what happened between her and all her exes boyfriend. I understand with that. She is back to be mine. That's it." I said to Blaine.

"If two people love each other. Everything will work out." Blaine smiles at me.

"I know that, man. I'm just happy and glad at the same time." I sigh and smile at Blaine.

"Sam, can you help me please?" Kate shouts from downstairs.

I stand up from her bed and walk out from her room and walk downstairs. I dont know what I feel right now. But the truth is I'm happy and Kate is really into me and without label, I know that she is mine.

Kate's POV

"Sam! Dont make out with Blaine!" I shout and trying to open the mackerel can.

"I'm here. Who else want to make out with Blaine?" Sam walks to the kitchen with Blaine follows him and sitting down on the sofa in living room and turn on the tv.

"You want to stay over too, Blaine?" I ask Blaine.

"And I will see you both make out all the time? No thanks." Blaine simply said.

"Well, I'm right here. I though you need help." Sam cups my cheeks and make my face turn at him.

"Oh I almost forget. I cant open this. I'm hungry." I said to him and show him the mackerel can.

Sam didnt say anything but look around and looking for something as he open the drawer one by one until he got something and open that mackerel can.

He can open the mackerel can but then the sauce spurt his face and his clothes. I laugh and Sam just look at his clothes. I take tissue paper and clean his face from the mackerel sauce.

"Dont laugh at me like that." Sam pouted at me.

"Your face tastes my favorite food." I laugh while cleaning his face.

Sam touch the sauce with his finger and pokes my nose then laugh. "Now you smell mackerel." Sam laughs.

"Sam Evans!" I groan.

"Haha come here." Sam laughs and put his hand around my waist and pull me closer to him.

I pouted at him and Sam suddenly lick my nose. "Sam.." I whimpered.

"Now this time is serious." Sam says and take the tissue paper from my hand and clean my nose with that.

I chuckle and Sam just smiles at me and looking at me. I look back at him and smiling at him. Sam push his face closer to me and kisses me softly. I put my hands  around his shoulder and kiss him back.

"Can you guys stop making out in front of my face?" Blaine yelled.

"Go back to your house. Sam and I planned to do many things here." I roll my eyes.

"Okay okay stop making out and listen to me this time." Blaine says to us.

"What?" I ask him.

"If it's not necesarry, we will make out again." Sam simply said.

"I already book three tickets for us to New York next week." Blaine grins at us.

"Blaine, are you serious?" I frown at him.

"Yes. We will go to New York next week. I will have my NYADA audition. You both can have a honeymoon for a week there." Blaine grins at us.

"Honeymoon." I roll my eyes.

"Well, I have my campus tour actually but I was about to not going but now I can go." Sam grins at us.

"I will kill you if you are not going." I said to him.

"I will go." Sam rolls his eyes.

"What about you, Kate?" Blaine asks me.

"I will try my luck in Vogue Magazine maybe. I will tell that to my dad." I smile at Blaine.

"Yeay! We will go to New York together next week and skip school for a week!" Blaine says happily.

"Where do we stay there?" Sam asks.

"Bushwick!" Blaine and I yelled together and hi-five at each other.

"Sam, we can go to Vogue Magazine together and maybe you can try out to be a male model." I smile at Sam.

"That's right. Why you know my future better than mine?" Sam says to me.

"That's me." I said proudly and clean my hand with tissue paper.

"Why my hand smell mackerel souce?" Blaine frowns.

I laugh and cook the mackerel on the pan. I forgot that I cleaned Sam's tshirt from mackerel sauce with tissue paper and my hand smell mackerel sauce also.

"You want this one?" I ask Sam while he is cleaning up his tshirt with tissue paper and water.

"No. I'm not hungry." Sam shakes his head.

"Alright." I turn my face to my pan then looking at Sam who still busy with his tshirt.

He is really changed my whole life. My guardian angel, and I'm really into him. I know he wont hurt me but something inside me is not ready to have actual relationship. I dont wanna get hurt anymore despite of all my exes cheated on me except Finn. But I do know Sam wont hurt me and I wont hurt him either but I'm still cant.

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I'm sitting down next to Sam in choir room and frowning as Unique told us that some guys blocked his way when he wanna pee in boys toilet and flush his wig away. And now he is singing a sad song. Sam holds my hand and I lean my head on his shoulder.

Unique:If I were a boyEven just for a dayI'd roll out of bed in the morningThrow on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guysAnd chase after girlsI'd kick it with who I wantedAnd I'd never get confronted for it'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boyI think I could understandHow it feels to love a girlI swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her'Cause I know how it hurtsWhen you lose the one you wanted'Cause he's taking you for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come backSay it's just a mistakeThink I'd forgive you like thatIf you thought I would wait for youYou thought wrong

But you're just a boyYou don't understandHow it feels to love a girlSomeday you wish you were a better man

Oh! You don't listen to herAnd you don't care how it hurts, oh oh!Until you lose the one you wanted'Cause you've taken her for grantedAnd everything you had got destroyedBut you're just a boy

"We need some names." Jake stands up from his seat.

"Yeah, some people at this school need to get their ass kicked to learn not to mess with you anymore." Ryder says and stand up from his seat.

"Come on, guys. You know that's not a solution." Mr. Schue says to them.

"No, enough is enough." Sam protest.

"Mr. Schue's right. I love you guys, and your support means everything but it won't fix anything. In fact, it'll probably make everything worse." Unique says to us.

The bell rings.

We stand up from our seat and walk to the front and hug Unique and support him. This is bad. Like really bad. People still cant treat him right.

I half-smiled at him and take my ransel then walk out from the choir room. I put my hand inside my cardigan pocket and still walking in the hallways until Sam suddenly walks next to me and holds my hand.

"So are you two going out?" Jake blocks our way and grins at us.

"No one of your business." I glare at him.

"So, 'stay away from my future wife' phase is really proven?" Jake smirks at Sam.

"Dude, get over that. She is mine." Sam glares back at him and put his hand around my shoulder.

"Alright have fun with your future wife." Jake smirks at us then walk away.

"You really said that to him?" I raise my eyebrows at Sam.

"Say what?" Sam simply asks.

"Stay away from my future wife?" I chuckle.

"Yeah. I just hate that. I've been working so hard to make you happy and everything but then he cheated on you and made you cried out loud and his slut threw a bucket giant slushee to you and..."

I cut him off with cup his cheeks and kiss him softly. He was really cute when he was talking like that. Sam just kisses me back then we pull each other lips away and smile at each other.

"I might not be a smart man but I know what a love is." Sam makes an impression.

I laugh and shake my head. "That was stupid."

"Dont make out in the hallways please." Blaine suddenly walks in the middle of us and smirks at us.

"He is jealous." I roll my eyes.

"With me or with you?" Sam asks me.

"Sam, he is gay and he is into dude. Even he ever had crush on you." I simply said. "Oh hell no!" I cover my mouth with my hand.

"I already knew about that during guilty pleasure week." Sam says to me.

"That assignment was silly." I simply said.

"But at least I know your guilty pleasure." Sam grins at me.

"Without I tell you, you can guess that." I chuckle.

"My armpit has magic." Sam says and stops his way then look at his armpit.

"Sam, that's disgusting." I roll my eyes and take his collar flannel shirt and pull him away. "Or at least dont do that here. I did that when there is only two of us." I said to Sam.

"No wonder mostly you want me to topless when we both cuddle so you can smell my armpit." Sam simply said.

"Your hard rockin body turn me on." I whisper at him then run away and laughing.

"Dont run away!" Sam shouts and run to get me.

I laugh and keep running. I guess that there is nothing better than be into your bestfriend. I mean, he knows everything about you. Even all your disgusting things.

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"Dad, I will go to New York next week." I said to dad while eating my dinner.

"For what? Arent you have school?" Dad frowns at me.

"Yeah." I nodded. "Blaine has his NYADA audition, Sam has his college tour and I want try my luck at Vogue Magazine. Blaine already got us tickets and we will skip school for a week." I said to dad.

"Where will you stay?" Dad asks me.

"Bushwick with Kurt of course. I'm a sleepyhead. I can easily sleep on his sofabed." I said to dad.

"Alright, just go. Go get your dream come true. You make your own choice and I wont stop you for that." Dad nodded.

"Thank you." I smile at him.

"Now finish your dinner." Dad says to me.

I nodded and keep eating my food. Finally I will go to New York and try my luck at Vogue Magazine. Actually I'm really excited with that. I cant wait.

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Blaine and I are hangin out in my room right now. Blaine is busy with his music sheets and I'm just reading some fashion magazine why lay down in my bed and preparing for my big interview at Vogue Magazine.

"I guess you should sing a Wham! Song." I said to Blaine.

"No, I dont want to." Blaine shakes his head.

"But make it into acoustic version." I said to him.

"I said no." Blaine simply said.

"What about Teenage Dream? That's like your signature song." I grin at Blaine.

"That song is always remind me when I cheat on Kurt." Blaine shakes his head. "Maybe one of Billy Joel songs will be fine."

"You wanna know my favorite performance from you? When you sang Againts All The Odds during the guilty pleasure week. It was beautiful." I said to Blaine.

"It was when I had crush on Sam okay." Blaine rolls his eyes.

"Which mean that you dont have any crush on him anymore?" I grin at Blaine.

"No. Well, he is yours now." Blaine says to me. "By the way, do you already plan something for his birthday?"

"I already bought something for him. And he must be love that things." I chuckle.

"Well, what about we go to music store tomorrow?" Blaine grins at me.

"Sure." I nodded.

"Guys, I knew a perfect strategy to beat Throat Explotions." Sam suddenly walks in.

"How could you get in?" I frown at him.

"Your parents downstairs." Sam says innocently.

"Oh I though they werent home." I simply said and go back looking at my magazine. "Blaine, look at this sunglasses." I show my magazine to Blaine.

"Cooper got that one from Tomford Vanity Fair in L.A." Blaine says to me.

"Guys?" Sam points at himself.

"What?" I raise my eyebrows at him.

"I brough a good news." Sam says to us.

I turn my face at Blaine as he is changing the page of my magazine. "This one is that I want the most." Blaine shows me a picture of a shoes.

"You can buy it online." I said to Blaine.

"I can go back home if you both still ignore me here." Sam simply said and about to walk off.

"Okay bye. See you tomorrow." I said to him.

"Kate..." Sam groans.

Blaine laughs out loud through what Sam did. I chuckle and spread my arms. "Just kidding, come here." I said to him.

Sam sighs and walks to my bed and lay his body next to me. "We do listen to you but this magazine catalogue won from you." Blaine says to Sam.

"Okay just continue. Wake me up if you both done." Sam simply said and close his eyes then crosses his hands on his chest.

Blaine and I look at each other and shake our heads. "You want to tell us the things you wanna say or I wont kiss you for another one week?" I raise my eyebrows at Sam.

Sam open his eyed quickly and smirks at me. "Dont do that." Sam shakes his head. "Alright, so I got two cheerios girl to help us to perform at nationals. They can dance well and also..."

"Pretty?" I raise my eyebrows.

"One of them is black and they're not blonde." Sam frowns at me.

"Okay." I roll my eyes.

"You are kind of our leader now." Blaine smiles at him.

"I'm so proud of you." I pinch his cheeks and smile at him.

"You guys are okay with that?" Sam asks.

"Sam, you found two new members to complete us to competing in nationals and that's amazing!" Blaine grins at us.

"Yeah that's right." I nodded.

"I'm glad to say this to you guys even though I have to teased those two girls first." Sam grins at us.

I turn my face at him slowly and raise my eyebrows at him. "You what?"

"Okay, I dont wanna get into your 'house' thing problem. I have to go. See you tomorrow." Blaine takes his bag and walk off from my room.

Sam giggles at me. I raise my eyebrows at him then he move his body closer to me and hug me while leaning his head on my chest.

"Dont mad at me." Sam grins at me.

"Why should I?" I raise my eyebrows at him.

"Because I teased another girl." Sam simply said. "No, I swear. I didnt do that. I was lying."

"Oh okay. No need to be mad at you then." I simply said.

"And actually I went here because I want to cuddle with you." Sam smirks at me.

"I hate you, Evans." I chuckle.

Sam give me a quick kiss on my lips then lean his head on my chest and laying half ontop of me. I put my hand aroubd his back and turn my face at him as he is closing his eyes. I know this is kinda weird since we arent dating. But who cares? We know what our heart wants and I dont care what the others gonna say about us.

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I'm sitting down on Sam's lap as the others are busy with their stuff and doing twerking. I'm just laughing and looking at them while sitting down on Sam's left lap as he put his hands around my belly from behind and laughing with me. I take a glances and I see Jake is cant stop starring at us. Well, who cares? I wont give a second chance to cheater besides now I know what my heart wants.

"Hey, guys. Guys." Ryder says to us and points at Mr. Schue who's deleting word 'twerk' from the white board. "Mr. Schue, what's up? It's not the end of the week yet." Ryder asks Mr. Schue.

"No. But it is the end of twerking." Mr. Schue says to us.

"Why? We were killing it. Well, some of us were." Kitty simply said.

"I know, and I'm sorry. After the school board meeting, I thought it was smooth sailing but twerking was and remains a hot-button issue. I didn't think this was one battle worth fighting to the death." Mr. Schue says to us.

"Meaning, you caved." Kitty simply said.

"No. He did it for me. Didn't you, Mr. Schue? That's why the porta-potty's gone.That's why Principal Sylvester's out of my business." Unique suddenly said.

"I-I'm not putting this on you, Unique. I believe I did what anyone in this room would've done for one of their friends. It was a judgment call but some things are just more important than others." Mr. Schue says to us.

"I'm glad we're done twerking. I didn't like it, and I never felt comfortable. Honestly, I just had an awful week." Marley simply said.

"I have to admit, twerking is really fun but it just doesn't seem like it was 100% our style. No big loss." Blaine says to us then sit down next to Unique.

"He started it first." Sam whisper at me.

"Yeah. Rebelling's one thing, but betraying who we are, that's not cool." Ryder says to us.

"We are who we are, no apologies necessary." Artie smiles at us.

"All right then. We're moving on. No regrets, no looking back. And I agree with you, Artie. So, I was thinking. Instead of playing against who we are, let's embrace it. Let's lean into our strengths by finding a song that's old-school Glee. Upbeat, optimistic. Full of youth and hope." Mr. Schue is smiling at us.

"Oh! I-I've got something." Blaine grin at us.

Unique (with New Directions):I'll believe when the walls stop turningI'll believe when the storm is throughI believe that I can hear them say"David won't you stop writing songs?"

I never wanna shake their hands and stayI never wanna shake their hands and stay(Oh no, let's go)

Blaine (with New Directions):(We are young, we are one)Let us shine for what it's worth

Sam with Ryder and New Directions:To your place, place, place, We're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way somehow

Hold me close, close, closeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're falling to the ground

Blaine:Ooooo! I'll believe when the sky is burning

Jake:I'll believe when I see the view

Ryder:I believe that I heard them say

Tina:"David won't you stop dreaming now?"

Artie:And everybody clap your hands and shout

Kitty (and Artie with New Directions):And everybody clap your hands and shout(Oh no, they shout)

Blaine and Unique with New Directions:We are young, we are oneLet us shine for what it's worth

Sam with Ryder and New Directions:(New Directions: To your place) To your place, place, placeWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way somehow

Hold me close, close, closeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're falling to the ground

Artie with Ryder and New DirectionsWe are young, we are oneLet us shine for what it's worth

Blaine with Ryder and New Directions(New Directions: To your place) To your place, place, placeWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way

Ryder with Marley (with New Directions):Hold me closeWe're losing timeHold me close(We're falling to the ground)

Ryder:Taxi driver, sun is rising

Blaine:Damn the sirens, keep on driving

Artie:Flashing light, oh what a night

Jake:I miss her bed, I lost my head

Blaine, Kate and Unique with New Directions:And it's sunning, we're still runningFor her rooftop, our last stopBarefoot, naked, don't you let me go (New Directions: Go, go, go!)

Sam with Ryder and New Directions:(New Directions: To your place) To your place, place, placeWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way somehow

Hold me close, close, closeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're losing time, time, timeWe're falling to the ground

Artie with Ryder and New DirectionsWe are young, we are oneLet us shine for what it's worth

Blaine with Ryder and New Directions:(New Directions: To your place) To your place, place, placeWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way, way, wayWe're on our way

New Directions (Unique with New Directions):Ooooooohh! (This night will never end, this night will never end)Ooooooohh! (This night will never end)This night will never end

Marley:Hold me close, we're losing timeHold me close, we're falling to the ground

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