CHAPTER 13*

Chan wasn't sure how easy it would be to stop after he got started. But Aera didn't seem to be putting the brakes on either, so he let things continue to progress. He wanted her so bad. And somehow he knew he needed her even more. Aera helped keep him sane, whether she knew it or not. During the last week he felt like he was just spiraling out of control with no footing, no real hold on anything he held dear. With her lips on his, with her skin safe and secure beneath his fingertips, he felt steady and confident once again.

Chan's kisses were intoxicating, almost spell-binding. Aera was lost in his arms the second they were wrapped around her. She was moaning and showing him she wanted and needed it just as much as he did. Chan's feet moved forward, guiding them slowly toward the bed, ready to make her his once again. Every moan that came out of her sent satisfying tingles all throughout his body. He was glad to be witness to the effect he seemed to have on her. He could live in those sorts of moments forever.

Aera was blissfully unaware where he was leading her until the backs of her knees met with the bed and they were collapsing down onto it. But she didn't protest – her willpower wouldn't allow it.

Chan's fingers gripped at the bottom of her shirt and pulled it over her head, leaving her bare from her torso up. He leaned down connecting his lips to her neck, appreciating the warmth that radiated off her skin. She moaned below him, igniting a spark inside of him. He didn't know if it was because of the complete sense of privacy they had in the hotel room or if it was just because of his desperation for her, but he never felt more ready for her than he did in that moment.

Chan's mouth traveled across her collarbone and down to her right breast. He wrapped his lips around her nipple, swirling his tongue around it before sucking on it for a few moments. He moved across to the other, giving it just as much attention as the last. Her fingers gripped into his wavy hair, her body tensing slightly. His skills were astounding and Aera was seriously questioning how and why she gave him up in the first place. A week without his touches and she was in peril.

He moved his mouth down the long expanse of her stomach, until his fingertips wrapped around the waistband of her shorts, tugging them down her legs. He looked down at her after removing her shorts and she was looking right back up at him so content, so perfect. He almost couldn't handle it.

"You're so beautiful, Babygirl," Chan breathed lowly, rubbing his hand lightly across her womanhood. Her lips curved up into a smile.

"If anyone is beautiful, it's you, Mr. Bang," she told him.

"Daddy... say it," he corrected her once again.

"Daddy," she said quietly, still keeping that smile on her lips.

"Louder," he demanded.

"Daddy," she said more forcefully.

"Good," he breathed contently, leaning down to kiss her.

As Chan continued with the foreplay, Aera squirmed impatiently below him. His mouth moved over the skin on her abdomen once again – breathing hot like fire across it, leaving his trail of kisses that nearly singed her skin.

"Oh, please," she begged and it was like music to his ears.

Chan's lips curved up into a smile, appreciating her obvious desire for him. It was exactly what he wanted to hear. It was exactly what he needed. His fingers drug down her panties slowly, watching as her body adapted to his motions, watching as her body seemed to hum for him.

Moments later she sat up, taking charge, pushing his pajama pants down his hips. Chan chuckled at her eagerness as he kicked them off the rest of the way, crawling back up her body as she lay back down. Chan's arm snaked around her body and he swiftly tossed her farther up the bed as she let out a giggle in response. His lips caught hers once again, stifling her laugh as he bucked his hips into hers. She let out a moan against his mouth, causing him to smile. Every beautiful noise that came out of her made Chan go crazy. He bucked his hips into her again, earning another moan from her.

"Please... please, no more teasing," Aera pleaded, looking straight into his eyes and dig your nails into the nape of his neck.

Chan grunts as Aera nails dig into the nape of his neck a little harder than intended. Aera can't help but giggle as she pull him closer, smiling against his kiss. He chuckles breathlessly underneath you, his lips soft and swollen from the sheer amount of time the both of them have spent kissing.

"Careful tiger," Chan murmurs against Aera and she laugh, caressing his curls. "Or you'll end up drawing blood."

Aera hum against his mouth, gently running the tip of her tongue over his bottom line. Chan groans into her mouth, his bare skin hot under her.

"Well," Aera smile, bitting his lip. "It's a good thing the sheets are black."

At that, Chan suddenly grabs a hold of Aera and in a split second, flips her so she staring up at him with wide eyes, his lust filled ones locked on her and his toned body hovering over her.

"Kinky baby," Chan whispers, a huge grin spreading across his face and she giggle as his mouth starts to trail down her chin to her jaw; his tongue darts out and licks at her skin and she breathe slowly, tipping her head to the side.

Chan lowers his head, his teeth grazing the skin of her neck, his lips kissing in-between his bites. He moans against her skin as he continues his assault and Aera try squeezing her legs together; her thighs connect with the sides of Chan's hips instead, his muscular body propped up in-between her legs. He chuckles deeply as he bites at her shoulder, lowering his hips in response to her thighs. Chan's lips find Aera again, his hungry kisses loud under the bedsheets, the sound sending constant bolts of electricity down to her core.

"I need you," Chan breathes against her mouth, and she moan slowly in response to feeling the tip of his hard on stroking her dripping folds. Aera suck in your breath as he pushes into her gently, slow enough so that she can feel every part of his huge member caressing her walls.

"Fuck, I need you too," Aera whine quietly, lower lip caught between her teeth as he finally burries his entire length into her. He's barely even started and yet she can feel her cream pooling around the base of his cock.

Catching her mouth in his again, Chan places his hands on either side of her head, trapping Aera in between his large muscles. She loop her arms around his neck, running her fingers through his hair, twisting them around his curls, dragging her nails down his back. Her hands smooth over his broad shoulders, and she relish in the feel of his soft skin stretched over his bulky muscles. They pulse under her fingers as he moves gently above her, taking his time; with every slow stroke, every kiss, every moan, she fall deeper in love with someone husband, and she can feel his affection for her spilling out of his body from the way his mouth caresses every inch of her skin.

"Daddy, yes," she breath is shallow as Chan rocks into her, his hips rolling into her and making her gasp with pleasure. She clutch at his biceps, her small hands making his arms seem mucher bigger than they actually are; he groans as her fingers dig into his flesh before they travel to his back. She drag her nails down his back and Chan ducks his head again, this time circling his tongue around her erect nipples.

"Channie ... " she arch her back, her breast sensitive in his mouth.

Chan's gaze is dark as he looks up at her, his tongue wet and glistening in the dark as it licks over the pebbled skin around her nipple. Goosebumps prickle all over her body from the sensations he's creating in her, and she hook your legs around his waist, guiding him further into her.

"Fuck, baby girl you - " Chan groans particularly hard then as her lift your hips up to meet his, granting him deeper access. She both moan then, the tip of him hitting the deepest part inside of her. "You feel so good."

Aera breath hitches as he gently bites down onto her nipple, his pace increasing in speed ever so slightly. His kisses start to travel up her neck again, up her jaw until they land on her lips. She frantically reach for him, pulling him even closer, letting his chiselled torso slide against her as she rock together.

"I love you," Chan whispers again, resting his forehead against her. Her breath is now his breath, her eyes completely hooked on each others'. She falling, falling for the warmth in his eyes, falling for the pleasure that's building up in her core, falling for the way the wet sound of him sliding in and out of her continues to make her weak.

"I love you," she breathe. She tighten your thighs around him, her hands sliding all over his body, down the valley between his shoulder blades, over the dimples in his lower back. His chest glows pink, matching the gentle blush over his cheekbones and the golden stars in his eyes make her heart swell. Aera can see Aera own reflection in his glittering eyes, your own skin flushed the same coral hue.

Aera hold onto him tight as she feel him twitching inside her, and before she know it, with an accompanying bite to her neck, her body shatters under his touch.

Arching her body up into his, her thighs tremble around him as her body tingles with her release. Chan's moans fill her ears as he burries his face into the crook of her neck, his length twitching inside of her as her walls pulse around him. She can feel the both of her releases mingling as they trickle down her walls, escaping down onto the sheets beneath her. But she both far too gone to care, her chests rising and falling rapidly, her lips swollen and red as they stare at each other, coming down from her high.

As Chan lay there catching his breath, a sense of guilt washed over him. She was sincere and honest with him when telling him it was over between them. She showed up at his hotel room door to apologize and he ended up taking advantage of her. He was disgusted with himself.

"Aera..." Chan breathed lowly, sitting up in bed.

"Yeah, Chan?" She asked quietly.

"I-I... you... I know you wanted to end things... I'm sorry," he said, shaking his head lightly.

"Chan..." She whispered.

"I'm the older person here. I shouldn't have let it go this far. I should have..." Chan said, looking down at her.

"No... Chan..." She said, knitting her eyebrows together.

"Aera, I'm just... I'm sorry," he told her, shaking his head as he turned away from her, letting his legs swing over the side of the mattress.

"It's okay," she breathed, sitting up in the bed too. He knew it wasn't okay.

"Chan..." She said again, reaching out to him.

"I've just been so... lonely," he said quietly.

"I know. I'm sorry," she said just as quietly.

"You've just been... you've been like a breath of fresh air for me. I haven't felt... I haven't had this... I-I..." Chan stammered, trying to convey just what she meant to him.

"Chan, it's okay. I-I... I don't want to end it," she told him. His head finally turned to her again to see if the emotions on her face matched her words.

"You... you don't?" He choked out.

"No. This past week was... hard, to say the least. And I don't know how we're going to manage, but I... I want to keep seeing you," she told him, her words sounding honest.

Chan couldn't help but smile as he gripped the back of her neck gently. His lips met hers delicately, sealing her words, sealing their relationship. Chan's kisses grew deeper as he lay her back onto the bed. He could have gone again, he was sure of it. This girl was everything.

"Chan... Chan..." Aera giggled against his lips.

"Yeah?" He asked, stopping as he looked down into her eyes.

"I really should go back to my room," she told him, placing her hands gently on his chest.

"Yeah," he said as sat up on his legs, letting her get up again.

Aera leaned over, giving him a light kiss on his lips before she pulled herself out of the bed. Chan watched as she dressed herself again, wishing she could stay with him. Once she was completely dressed again, Chan grabbed her by the hand and pulled her down on his lap.

"Are you sure you're okay with this?" He asked her.

"I am," she said, smiling brightly at him.

"Okay," he said, leaning in to kiss her again.

"I'll see you in the morning, love," he told her, hearing her giggle in response.

She pulled herself up from his lap and moved toward the door.

"Goodnight, Chan," she said, stopping to turn toward him.

"Sweet dreams, love," he told her before she slipped out the door.

Chan slept like a baby that night and woke up in a better mood than he'd been in for a while. The five of them ate breakfast as a family in the hotel restaurant. Aera sat across from Chan and he couldn't stop watching her. She was his again and no one was happier about that than he was.

"So guys, I was thinking, maybe we could stop in Sydney today before we go back. You know, see the sights," Chan suggested.

"I've never been there," Minhee told them.

"Uh, me neither," Aera said, lying through her teeth.

Chan gave her a smile, loving that it was he who took her there for the first time. They didn't have very much time when they went there together, so it was nice to give Aera the opportunity to see more of it – for him to show her more.

"What do you think, guys? Do you feel like exploring Sydney today? It'll be fun," Chan asked Jaehyun and Areum.

"Yeah!" They both cheered.

"Awesome! Let's get going then!" Chan told them, standing up from the table once they were done eating.

Chan was happy to be in the driver seat with Aera by his side, finally grateful that Minhee was prone to getting car sick and needed to ride in the back seat. The mood was a complete contrast of the drive to amusement parks. There was no tension or nervousness. It was just them. And they were both happy.

As soon as Chan turned his iPod back on, the Stray Kids mix started back up, which Jaehyun and Areum were both happy about. When Thunderous came on, Aera started dancing in her seat, singing along playfully. It was quite amusing and Chan felt a sense of pride as she sang along to his songs – songs he and his band mates put a lot of blood, sweat and tears into.

Throughout the day as they meandered up and down Sydney Blvd, it took everything in Chan not to reach out and touch Aera. He just wanted to hold her hand or put his arm around her. But there were three sets of prying eyes that would never let them get away with something like that. They spent most of the day in Sydney, checking out the sights. They even went into Madame Tussauds Wax Museum, but Areum got freaked out, so they left soon after.

As evening set in, they stopped to get some Pinkberry ice cream at Areum's request. Just watching Aera with his kids, mothering but also being a friend to them, got Chan's heart pumping faster in his chest. She was just so perfect and it stung to know that no matter what, no matter what terms they were on with each other, she wasn't his. Aera wasn't his.Jihye was.

"When we get home... we need to have a talk," Aera told Chan after Minhee took the kids up to the counter to order their ice cream. They needed to talk? That did not sound good.

"I thought we passed this," Chan said, looking at her concern.

"We have a lot we need to talk about," she told him just before Minhee turned and asked them what they wanted to order.

Well, fuck.

Chan couldn't even begin to imagine what she wanted to talk to him about, but he was certain it wasn't going to end well. He knew she had a lot of concerns when it came to where they stood with each other. And something deep inside of him feared she was going to give him some sort of an ultimatum – her or the wife. And a part of him wasn't entirely sure he could make a decision like that quite yet.

Chan couldn't get Aera's words out of his mind as they ate their little treat. We have a lot that we need to talk about. Every cell in his body seemed to feel the nervousness. He'd really done a number on his life. He had a wife who wouldn't even look in his direction and now he had a twenty-two year old mistress calling all the shots because he was too entirely hooked on her to call his own.

Once they were done and the kids were cleaned up, Minhee took them outside while Aera and Chan cleaned up the mess on the table.

"Chan, what I need to talk to you about isn't anything bad. Please don't be upset. What I said last night, I meant, okay?" Aera told him, causing him to stare at her for a moment.

"Are you sure?" He asked her.

"Yes. Please don't look so... disappointed," she told him and he nodded his head.

"If I could, I would kiss you right now," she said, smirking at him. In an instant, his mood flipped a complete one-eighty and he was smiling back at her.

"I'd kiss you too," he told her so sincerely.

"Okay, then. Let's get home," she said, smiling widely at him.

"Let's go," he agreed.

The two of them walked out of the ice cream shop, side-by-side, their fingers lightly grazing one another's. It made Chan long for a day when he could actually hold her hand in public – to kiss her and love her completely.