Chappie 40

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I can't explain how sorry I am. We haven't updated in a month. I could give you a load of excuses but there are to many. Basically I've been busy with school etc. I will try to update lots since it's the holidays.Thank you everyone who has stuck with me and continues to! 

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-Harry's POV-

5 days.

5 horrible days.

I have barely spoken or eaten. My throat was dry and sore from the never ending sobs that escape my lips.

I feel like my world has stopped. Like it's been put on hold.

People are going through situations worse than mine yet I feel like my life is slowly crumbling away.

I'm so selfish.

It's all my fault. I caused this.

5 days.

5 days of only eating a tiny bit of soup because I refuse everything else.

5 days of waterfalls tumbling down my already-soaked cheeks.

5 days of staring at white walls.

5 days of listening to the beeping of machines.

5 days of worrying every second that suddenly the beeping will stop.

5 days hoping for a miracle.

The hospital has basically become my home in these past five days after convincing the staff to let me sleep in the fold out bed next to her.

I spent hours of the day staring at her beautiful yet pale and unresponsive face, praying that she would wake up at any moment.

But she hasn't moved. Nothing. Nada.

Each night I would sing to her and tell her again and again how sorry I am and how much I love her.

The only movement is her chest rising and falling.

"Harry .. Harry!" My head shot up and I found Niall shaking me.

I rubbed my eyes and looked around the cafeteria then down to my un-touched food.

"What?" I croaked.

"Lexi just got out of her check up and the nurse called for us to see the results!" He said with a bit of excitement.

I stood up and started walking towards the lift, Niall quickly following me.

Once the lift doors had closed,  

I pushed the 7th level button and the lift started moving slowly.

"Mate, she's gonna be fine" Niall told me.

"But how do you know? Huh? I have to go through hell everyday! She doesn't seem that fine" I lashed out.

Niall looked hurt and I sighed.

"Look, I'm sorry I just can't bare to see her like this" I said to Niall and he nodded, running a hand through his messy hair.

"It's ok, I understand where you're coming from" He said.

We were interrupted by a ding meaning that we had arrived.

We walked down a few hallways till we came to wing 7C, where Lexi was.

I pushed the door open and was greeted by Steve, Tess and the nurse that had been checking up on Lexi the past five days.

"How is she?" I asked warily, jogging over to the nurse who had a small smile playing on her lips.

"The check up was great. Her health has improved dramatically and her bones have already started to heal. Now it's just a matter of time to see when she will wake up from her coma." Niki said, looking at her clipboard.

I rushed over to the curtains that were closed, hiding Lexi, and opened them.

She looked nearly exactly how I left her.

I knelt down next to the side of the hospital bed that supported her fragile body and grabbed her hand.

I turned to look at the nurse and smiled for the second time in the past 5 days. The first was when Maslinka had started recovering. She was now just staying in the hospital until her ribs and leg had healed a bit more.

"Thank you for helping her stay with us" I smiled at the nurse.

She nodded, her red lips curled up into a smile and exited the room.

Steve and Tess walked over to us and we stood in silence for a few minutes, while I held her hand.

"I have to go, see you later guys. Please wake up Lexi" Tess said and hugged me, waving at Lexi's dad before leaving the room quietly.

"I have to go too. Gabriella is probably craving something with the baby and all" Steve chuckled. "Get better, my daughter" He said, kissing Lexi's cheek.

Soon it was just me left.

I stared at her and before long, tears were hitting the blinding white sheets.

"Please, please, please wake up .. I love you .. Please.." I sniffed and squeezed her hand.

I got up from the ground and leaned over, placing a kiss on her forehead and nose. I took one last look at her and started to slip my hand out of hers.

But I couldn't.

She squeezed back.

"Lexi? Lexi!!" I looked from our hands to her face. I noticed a slight trace of a frown, but it disappeared as soon as it came.

"Lexi, baby, can you hear me?!" I said.

She stopped squeezing my hand and I let her go, a smile spreading across my face.

"Wake up Lexi! You're ok! Everything's alright!" I said slightly shaking her shoulder.

Nothing.

"Nurse!" I called. A few seconds later, the door burst open and Niki came in.

"Yes? Is everything alright?" She asked, rushing over to me.

"Yes! She squeezed back and .. and had a slight facial expression for a few seconds!" I said quickly.

"I thought there was an emergency! Oh, well, that normally happens in a coma, but who knows? Maybe she will wake up soon! Call me if something happens" She smiled warmly and checked all the equipment before leaving once again.

I smiled and kissed her cheek again, before I was interrupted by my phone ringing.

"Holy pumpkins" I breathed out and walked over to my bag of stuff and rummaged around before I found the electronic device making the worst sound in the world: Marimba.

I had not set my ringtone as this.

I answered the call, not bothering to check the user ID.

"Hello?" I answered, running my hand through my curls.

"Hello Harry. It's Jake"

Management.

I mentally cursed. "Uh, yeah, hi Jake. What do you want?"

I had been trying to avoid calls from management because they would tell me that I was needed, but I wasn't leaving Lexi's side till she was awake and fully recovered.

"Why haven't you been answering our calls?" 

I opened my mouth to answer, but he didn't give me a chance and kept ranting on.

"You have missed interviews-"

"Yeah, I know." 

"-And we're going back on tour soon!" I nearly dropped my phone.

No.

"What?! When! I can't leave Lexi!" I said frantically.

"Well..." 

-Lexi's POV-

I could hear it all.

Everything they are saying.

But I can't do anything.

My body and brain wouldn't let me no matter how much I wanted to.

I knew that Harry had been here the whole time and I had heard him say everything about Jaymee.

I understood and wanted to apologise.

But I couldn't.

I wanted to hug all of my friends and family who have been here for me and never let them go.

I know that I had came quite close to death.

I know that Maslinka is ok.

I have over heard every converstion that goes on around me.

Harry's hand was entwined with mine at the moment and I could tell he was crying. 

 "Please, please, please wake up .. I love you .. Please.." He sniffed and squeezed my hand.

It was heart breaking to hear him like this. 

So I decided to try.

He suddenly kissed my forehead and my nose before he started slipping his hand out of mine.

I didn't want him to leave, ever.

So with all my might, I tried to squeeze back.

I could feel my hand curl around his for a few seconds before it went limp again.

But I had succeded, even though it had hurt a bit, causing me to wince. Well, at least on the inside, I don't know if he noticed.

"Lexi? Lexi!!" He said.

I'm here Harry! I'm ok! 

I couldn't say it out loud. My brain wasn't letting me. But that wouldn't stop me from trying.

"Lexi, baby, can you hear me?!" He asked desperately. 

Yes, I can hear you!

He shook me a bit but I couldn't respond.

He called for the nurse and a few seconds later she came in. Harry explained to her that I had squeezed back.

"I thought there was an emergency! Oh, well, that normally happens in a coma, but who knows? Maybe she will wake up soon! Call me if something happens" I heard her say. I couldn't help but be excited. What if I really wake up soon?

I felt lips on my cheek again before a ringtone started playing marimba. I wish that I could have been 'there' to laugh at Harry's annoyed face when he heard that I had changed his ringtone to the one he despises most.

"Holy Pumpkins" I heard him say and I was laughing harder on the inside.

"Hello?" He answered.

It was silent as the person on the other side of the phone talked.

"Uh, yeah, hi Jake. What do you want?" 

Management.

Ok, you could say that I was curious now.

He walked back over to my bed and sat down on the chair next to it. I could slightly hear what Jake was sayng now as the volume was up loud.

"Why haven't you been answering our calls?"  

"You have missed interviews-" Jake was cut off by Harry.

"Yeah, I know." 

"-And we're going back on tour soon!" 

What?!

No.

"What?! When! I can't leave Lexi!" He said frantically.

"Well... You will be coming back to England to do a small tour around some of the cities-"

"When!" He practically shouted.

"Well.. We're leaving mid-day tomorrow" Jake said.

Then I heard silence followed by a crash. He must of dropped his phone as I could hear Jake calling Harry's name.

"No.." Harry whispered.

What..

So everyone will be on the other side of the world again while I'm stuck in a coma.

If I was 'awake' right now I would be crying. Maybe I am.

Harry must of picked up his phone because he started talking again.

"I'm not leaving her" He said, his voice cracking.

"We're sorry Harry, but this is your career and thousands of fans are relying on you to do this. Think of them! Plus, the word is already out and tickets went on sale last night!" Jake said.

"What? Why didn't I know about this sooner?" He said angrily. 

So he had to leave me. Will Tess and Maslinka go as well? This was all too much for me...

-Harry's POV-

This was absolute bull.

I had to go home. Back to England. Without Lexi.

I don't even know if I will be able to perform without knowing that she is safe.

I hung up on Jake.

"Lexi... I'm so sorry. But I have to do this. We both knew that tour would sometimes come between us when we started dating.. but now that you're in a coma?! This is unbelievable and I'm so pissed and I wish I can do someting but I can't do anything! I'm so sorry.." I cried and lay my head on her bed.

I was wishing that she would suddenly wake up, tell me that everything was going to be ok and come back to England with me. 

But she didn't. And that's when I broke down completely.

A few minutes later, Someone cam running into the room.

"Harry, mate, It's ok... come on lets go to the hotel alright?" Zayn said, bending down beside me.

I was curled into a ball on the floor and I was shaking violently.

"What happened?" An irish accent asked.

"I don't know, get his stuff and we'll get him back to the hotel" Zayn said.

Sobs escaped my throat as Zayn tried to lift me from the ground.

He led me out the door as I cried for Lexi.

Soon we were in a car and the guys were trying to calm me down.

"I can't .. leave her.." I sobbed into my hands.

"When are you going to leave her?" They asked.

"For tour!" I said.

They both looked shocked, then worried.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

They could of told me, gave me a heads up. But now I have to leave her on short notice. 

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