38 - What Changed?

[Haruka Sakura's POV]

They say the mind often forgets about things it doesn't want to remember.

...I believe it happened to my sister 

And I didn't know how it happened..

Neither does she.

[Flash back to their childhood days]

Hima's been missing for a few days now.

We were just playing  outside at the park and the next thing I knew she was gone.

[Another flashback]

"Hima?"

"Himawari!?"

Where is she?

She was just behind me a minute ago!

We were just playing but now she's gone-

I roamed around the park for hours that day..I went back home when it got dark. I got so angry with myself..how could I lose her in such a way?

[Back at Home]

Of course I blamed myself.

I cried and cried when I told everyone I'll find her...

But before I could do anything,

She came back.

Like nothing ever happened.

I embraced her as soon as I saw her, she was smiling like she always does when she sees me. 

"Haru-nii? Your eyes are puffy and red..were you crying? Come on let's play!"

Huh?

"Hima..you were missing for a few days now..why is that the first thing you want to do?  I was so worried..where did you go..?" I said as my arms fell back to my side, just then I saw something that I completely missed when I embraced her.

Himawari came back with blood smeared all over her.

"Who did this to you?! Why are you covered in blood?!" I frantically checked for wounds, she did have a few and some bruises but the other blood smeared all over her didn't seem to be hers..

"What? We were just at the park earlier Haru-nii...I couldn't find you so I came back home" She replied, her eyes seemed dazed off..

But you were missing.

Don't you remember?

I don't understand..

My sister did come back

But what happened to her?

She did come back..

but 

I felt like I lost my sister that day.

I never knew why and what happened those days you were gone and you never remembered it anyway.

And no one could ever understand if I told them I grieved over something like that even though she did come back.

She was indeed my sister, my twin, Himawari who grew up with me but..there's something off about her that I could never answer myself.

I was too scared to question it.

After that, there were times where Hima would forget things.

[End of Flashback]

She was the same as I remembered but I felt like she lost herself somehow.

Hima always does things that are beyond my expectations.

Sure, I get into fights a lot but Hima's almost the same

She doesn't even know it.

Once she hears about someone hitting me, she'll hit that person back tenth fold of what I got.

What's bizarre about it is she thinks I was the one who finished them off.

It's somehow ridiculous. It's as if I was the younger twin that needs to be protected.

So I became stronger. I want to be stronger. So she would never feel like she needs to protect me. I trained and trained. I yearned for strength.

I said that but here I am.

Getting his ass kicked-

[Furin Grounds]

We've been at it for quite a while now-

POW

"Show me more Sakura"

It's like I could hear something ringing in my ear..Endo's such an ass. Why won't he just go down?

"Show me more please Sakura" 

He's really pissing me off..He's just having fun. 

My feet staggered as I took another hit on the stomach, he sure knows how to pack a punch.

"I like how you're slowly crumbling Sakura..I can't wait for your twin to see this and see how your twin crumbles just by seeing you like this! He he!" Endo's lips curled up to a big smile, blood smeared all over his mouth.

Hima can't see me like this.

Endo's body moves swiftly, I matched up with him barely. His legs twisted over mine, pushing my body down on the dirty ground of the school's premises. 

"Ack!" I suddenly felt his foot step on my stomach harshly, blood splatting out of my mouth.

"Come on Sakura, more!" 

I felt a sting on my scalp as his fingers pulled on my hair, making me look up at him. I scowled at him as soon as our eyes met.

I gripped on his hand, pushing it off of my as I got back up on my feet. "I need to finish this off as soon as possible. Piss off."

"No can do~" Endo smirked, still smiling crazily.

We lunged at each other again, his arms strongly gripped on mine, to stop it from punching his body-

"Everyone's relying on you huh? Imagine what your twin would think in this situation? Seeing you lose. Just let it go Sakura" He sounds like a devil talking to me about bad stuff.

"Shut up"

"They'd be upset if you lost huh? Umemiya too. Imagine losing to me after claiming you'll win haha~" I hate him.

POW

As his fists hit me, I felt like realization also struck me in the head.

He's right..they'd be disappointed..

Will Hima be disappointed in me too?

No..I don't want that.

"Or. I'll just beat your twin in front of you, how does that sound Sakura?" 

"What- No-" I winced in pain as his fists relentlessly hit my body then he pulled back,

"How about a offer, Sakura?"

"You like yapping a lot huh?" I said as I fixed my stance, I could feel my knees wobble as I tried to keep my balance.

"Oh I'm sure you'd love to hear this-"

"Shut up will you?" I cut him off, lunging at him as soon as I fixed my position.

I lunged my foot towards him but he caught it with a smile on his face.

"Oh look your twin is finally here!" I hear him say, turning over to face the gate, I got caught off guard and he charged at me, bringing me down on the ground again.

"...Haru?"

"Look at that look on your face. I absolutely love it" Endo said as he faced Himawari, his hands still on me.

She can't see me like this..

"Stop hitting him." Himawari's voice was stern, I blinked my eyes a bit then turned to look at her. She has that displeased look on her face.

I just blinked again then she was not in her place anymore, she dashed to Endo and punched him on the face.

Endo's hand naturally lets go of me, his feet staggered a bit as he got pushed back by her punch.

"Shit..It's like you want to kill me....I fucking love it"

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A/N: Here's chapter 38, it's a very interesting chapter though it may be confusing- hehe-

So busy lately-

Anyways, hope you guys will enjoy reading it! Tell me what you think about it. I'm so busy lately and I feel like my writing's a mess tbh..I'm sorry if it's a mess.