34. Keya

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I was supposed to come along with Amanda at the charity dinner, but then after the quick encounter with Tyler in the hallway earlier made me want to hide and refuse to go out not even just to grab some dinner on the near restaurant. Instead, I stayed in my room and ordered room service.Amanda was insisting a while ago but I specifically told her that if she’ll force me to go with her tonight I will surely pack my bags and head home.

I sighed as I settle down on the bed devouring an ice cream I ordered a while ago and opened my laptop to call my family. I miss my son so bad, to be honest if I could just fly back to Edinburgh right now, I will. Seeing Tyler earlier freaked me out.

I thought I’m already alright, I thought I’m all ready to face him but I was wrong… He still scares me.

And I’m completely anxious about what will happen once he meet Sky. When we saw each other on the hallway he immediately asked about our son, and I’m afraid that he’ll take him away from me.

Tyler is selfish, he only cares about himself! Goodness… for sure he’ll surely take away my son from me and I will never ever going to let that happen!

Finally, my mom picked up the call and my son’s ever cute face fill the whole screen. My heart feels warm and all the stress and anxiety I felt brushed away. Sky is completely my everything…

“Mommy!!!!!!!” He shrieks.

“Hello squishy!!!” I shrieked back holding the screen, how I wish I am holding him physically right now. “Oh I miss you so much honey!”

“I miss you too mommy. I can’t wait to go there and visit you!”

I tried my real hard not to cry as I stare at my son’s face. “Soon my love!”

“Oh darling, Sky has been keeping track on how many days left until his birthday.” My mother inserted. “He’s always been demanding me to mark the calendars to be honest. Your son is quite smart, if I'm honest.”

I sighed in complete frustration and guilt that I left my son. “Now I wanted to just fly back in there.”

“Oh come on! You have always wanted to earn your degree, do a little sacrifice.” My mom said. “In a few months after, you’re going to spend the rest of your days with your son anyway.”

I giggled. “How are you Sky? Are you being a good boy to your grandma?”

My son nodded, and my mom glared her eyes which sends me to laugh. Having a toddler is really not easy, especially at Sky’s age where he already knows how to walk and loves to move around it is really quite exhausting.

“By the way, how’s your job?” My mom asks as she demands my son to go play, just for us to be alone.

“Good.” I said adjusting on my seat. I don’t want to tell her what happened earlier because I know I will only hear another rant from her about letting Tyler know about our son. “It’s not that hard, hence the fact that I’m just here in my hotel room eating ice cream.”

“Glad that you said yes to Amanda.”

“I can’t say no to her.” I replied, well, it is the  guilt that actually made me say yes to her plea.

“So, I’m guessing that you haven’t seen the father of your kid then since you are staying inside your room.” My mom said which made me to almost choke on the ice cream I just devoured.

“Well,” I started and cleared my throat. “Obviously.”

My mom started talking again but I wasn’t able to hear it since there is someone knocking on my door.

“Mom, give me a sec.” I stopped her. “Someone’s knocking on my door.”

I placed the laptop on the bed and head to the door to answer it. But right before I did, I fixed my hair a bit. Thankfully I’m still wearing the semi-casual outfit I wore earlier since I still feel way too lazy to change, besides we never know who is knocking on my door right now. Maybe it’s either from the NHL organization or from other media men.

I quickly opened the door, and in great surprise my whole world spins, feeling like a cold bucket of water was dumped into me. I blinked once, twice, thrice—a couple of times to wake myself up but no, I’m completely not hallucinating right now.

“What the hell are you doing in here?!” I voiced out immediately, completely surprised and annoyed at the same time. Well, his face annoys me! Yup! I’m talking about Tyler.

“I wanted to talk.” He said calmly.

“Absolutely not.” I replied. “You have a charity dinner event to attend to.”

“The event is almost over, so I went here. Besides, my presence is not that needed in there anyway.” He explained. “Can you at least let me come in?”

I rolled my eyes as I open the door widely, letting him in because I don't want any person to see Tyler and me. I ran to my bed to end my mom’s call without even saying goodbye.

“How did you know that I am in here?” I asked Tyler just in time he closes the door behind him.

“I have—“

“—actually, don’t answer that!” I cut him off as I rolled my eyes. Of course he’ll know exactly where I am because he has connections and he is some kind of a VIP in here.

“I just really want to talk. I want to know how you are in the past three years, especially our son.” He started talking in great sympathy and care on his tone and I am surprised by that.

However, my anger and trauma is ruling my whole system. He doesn’t have the right to demand anything about my son nor even met him, since he is exactly the source of my stress within those whole nine months of carrying my Sky. I was rushed in the hospital a couple of times because of how huge of an asshole he was!I sighed gathering all my courage to stay calm and show him that I no longer care about his existence anymore!

“There’s nothing to talk about anymore, Mr. Seguin.” I started. “But to answer your question, I was not fine before, but now I do.”

“I am really sorry, Keya.” Tyler said. “My whole life was in complete chaos when you came, I was struggling to move on with my ex-fiance who cheated on me. I became such a huge irresponsible man, I didn’t know what to do with my life then because I was so confused with everything. I didn’t exactly know how to handle all the shit that life has thrown at me.”

I swallowed the lump on my throat as I listen to Tyler, he is starting to cry right in front of me and I swear to god that I am really not good at handling myself. If I will literally stare on his eyes right now, I’d totally lose my cool and cry too.

“I know I have wronged you so many times, Keya.” He said. “And I am hoping that you’ll give me a chance to make things right with you and our son.”

I was about to respond but he cuts me off by holding both of my hands. “I know you are thinking that I am no good and that I am still the old jackass Tyler you knew but let me prove you wrong. When you left, it made me realize that even if how bad my life was I am so ready to be a father.”

“Then why did you have to fucking treat me like I am piss of shit Seguin?” I finally sounded letting all the tears run down my face not giving a fuck about anything. “You made me feel like I should not be respected because I let you fuck me in the bathroom, your treatment made me less of a woman Tyler.”

“I know, I know.”

“Yes Tyler, it has been three years but everything is still fresh!” I added. “And even if our son is still here, I won’t ever let you meet him.”

He looked at me with his shocked eyes. “What do you mean?”

I wasn’t able to answer right away because I am still debating on whether to let him meet Sky or not.

“I…”

“What? Tell me Keya. What do you mean?”

I shake my head.

“Our son died.”